Anyone here suffers from this?
What are your weird and ridiculous obsessions that had drive you crazy?
Anyone here suffers from this?
What are your weird and ridiculous obsessions that had drive you crazy?
>find something
>try to be the best at it
>fail repetitively
>watch others succeed
>become stressed and sink all my time into said something
>realize I'll never be as good as _______
>move on and try to accept it
Don't offend but it sounds like my little nephew when he gets angry when his brother wins him at some game.
Can you give some example?
>pickup programming
>struggle
>brother does it easily
>try harder
>study
>struggle buss more
>days become filled with nothing but programming
>continue to struggle bus for a couple weeks to couple months
>eventually give up and find something else to rinse and repeat
i get obsessive over friends and being a good friend to them, to the point of extreme stress and worry over the tiniest of things, and severely hurting my friendships with people. i also obsess over trying to remain as impersonal as possible to avoid making friends to obsess over. i then obsess over how i look in public, doing everything i can tp avoid looking dumb or say the wrong things, where i double guess myself in just about everything
A lot of the things mentioned itt don't even sound close to OCD, just regular anxiety or self esteem issues. Anyway, I have pica tied to OCD. I eat cardboard and a few other paper goods. It has gotten better since I was a kid but it fucking sucks. I used to think I ate it to calm me down as a kid, but then I realized it was an urge causing my nervousness and discomfort if I didn't indulge in it.
I have a weird trauma-based obsessive-compulsive thing that's like a spinoff of my PTSD. If I hear sex noises through a wall, or any repetitive noise that sounds like it could be that, I begin worrying about some kind of lifethreatening moral pollution that's going to infect me and the whole room. Mostly I feel terrified and like I need to cause myself pain and destroy things. I get intrusive thoughts about being in danger and how bad it is of me to be hearing this, and if I just hurt myself in this way, it'll be better, rinse repeat. If something in the room is attracting my notice when this is happening (a song, a book, an article of clothing) I have to get rid of it because it's got the bad juju all over it.
May sound like "when would this come up?" but having been in college there was a lot of it. And even hearing people talk about having sex and other people being annoyed about hearing it is enough to set it off.
This is likely from hearing and then seeing my dad rape and attempt to kill my mom in the next room over, plus hearing their crazy-ass personality disordered make-up sex after they physically fought. Plus some...other stuff.
>f something in the room is attracting my notice when this is happening (a song, a book, an article of clothing) I have to get rid of it because it's got the bad juju all over it
This happens to me but in other ways. But I also have to get rid of or avoid things when they make me remember obsessions.
Diagnosed ocd here.
Most of the things posted here sound more like anxiety than ocd
dude it's the worst. by the end of one summer with a particularly troublesome roommate, I stopped being able to listen to half my song library, white noise, or rain noise, use my bed, go in the kitchen, use a quarter of the space in my room, play most of the games i'd been playing, and read most of the books I had been reading.
stuff that was "polluted" actually started "polluting" other items as well and it just spread outwards....
Nice trolling.
I wish I was trolling. Why do you think that?
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was young, but it's been so long now that I forget what about me could be considered OCD. The most obvious thing I can think of is that my Tourettes tics are indistinguishable from OCD compulsions.
I have anorexia nervosa (restrict-purge subtype) and OCD. I know they're pretty similar, and that i've had OCD since about 5/6 and then later developed an eating disorder, which was also a way my OCD manifested itself, besides many other ways. Sometimes I wonder if i had never developed OCD from my mother's side, if I would still have to put up with the hellish life of an eating disorder
Me explanation for the origin of OCD is some traumatic or very stressing situations or ambient that you lived as a kid.
I have read a lot of personal experiences of people with OCD and also what I'm reading here. And something that repeats a lot are traumatic or very stressing experiences when you were a kid.
In my case, before realizing that this was a common thing in people with OCD, it was the personal explanation that I also had for my OCD. That all the continuos fights between my parents that I lived as a kid and also their personalities always creating tension, fear and always making everything so alarming is why I first developed a very fearful mindset, anxiety and in time that ended developing in the OCD.
What are your weird and ridiculous obsessions that had drive you crazy?
>until 25 I thought people who hanged out with people or friends did it frequently more than twice a week, like the person had to do it always
>i thought that go well in college I had to study all the time
>I thought I was always to blame for everything that happened or didn't happen
Ex-Pure Obsessive OCD
>this
I grew up fearing I was doing something wrong, specially in my teenager years, I thought that if I kissed a girl my mom would find out about it and my mom would do something really bad to me, this irrational only disappeared later on when I was on therapy and my mom stopped being jealous of me (lol) Also, lost my virginity when I was 26 and really recovering due to therapy
I have Pure OCD too. Did you repeat phrases in your head all the time as a compulsion?
I had transgender ocd where I was scared I was becoming transgender. I would stuff my clothes to look like boobs to make sure I didn't like it. I also had homosexual ocd where I will look at gay porn to make sure I don't like it. I also just google stuff or ruminate about these things.
>counting footsteps from one place to another
>weird rituals involving directions and doors closing
>thinking that I'm dying all the time
>making deals with the universe for doing certain things a certain way
The psychiatrist says it's OCPD
I think my psychiatrist diagnosed me with OCD but just didn't feel like I needed to know what I was diagnosed with.
And why do you think you developed that particular obsession?
I think it comes from some trauma in my past and insecurity about being a loner virgin.
Why?
it sometimes happened, like "i should do X" or "I shouldn't have did X", but mainly that.
What do you tell yourself?
>thinking that I'm dying all the time
Freud or Lacan talks about that, but psychanalysis don't help for OCD, only idk what. But it's good to explore that feeling, I recovered from pure O OCD after about 2 years of treatment, but I did a lot of searching and didn't count only on my therapist and psychiatrist (they can also fail sometimes)
I had TOCD when I was a kid
you should try smoking weed it might break this
I have constant paranoia that I uknowingly fucked up during my teen years with women and years down the line I'll be outed as a sex offender and everyone I know will hate me and I'll lose everything. I know rationally I never intentionally violated anyone's boundaries, and they say OCD targets the things you care most about, but that doesn't stop the thoughts. I'm also terrified of being in photos or having my name online. I deleted all my accounts except for my email, and stopped going to parties or large events. I even switched fields professionally to something that was less people and public-oriented to avoid any sense of a spotlight at all. I'm an artist and I'm strongly considering releasing all my work anonymously so I never have to be in any sort of public eye if it ever catches on. I also have contamination fears and will wash my hands repeatedly until they bleed, and triple check to make sure I don't have anything on my arms or chest. Day to day I feel like I can handle it okay, but sometimes I completely lose it and meltdown. Fuck this mental illness.
I'm 33 and had nearly every ocd. With Paxil and exercise they're all mostly gone.
But my memories...
I don’t know if it’s actually OCD, but i keep having flashes or thoughts of “what if I’m secretly gay” or “what if I’m secretly a pedo”. They show up as horrid flashes in my mind. My face sometimes crunches up to erase those thoughts but they come back. I always pay attention to my dick to make sure I don’t feel any movement or arousal at all. I hate these thoughts, they disturb me. I don’t wanna even think of them being true.
I avoid hanging out with other dudes, or kids too. I never had those flashes before. They’ve only started recently but they keep coming. I’d rather kill myself than let those be true.
I have reading OCD. I had other types of OCD, but the other symptoms eventually morphed into this. I can safely say it's the worst type of OCD I have ever had. It makes me doubt that I can comprehend written sentences, so I read them over and over again (and ironically understand those sentences less because I lose my flow). My fears are completely irrational because I know that my fears are unfounded: my reading comprehension is fine, it has to be because I'm a fucking translator and interpreter. It still destroys me, though.
my sister has some form of OCD. I know she has a lot of weird rituals she doesn't tell me about, but the one I noticed was that she used to put my dad's glasses on a specific spot on the couch cushion every night because she believed if he didn't he would die. She used to get up several times a night to make sure they were still there.
I'm just a compulsive nail/skin picker
For me the worst thing about having OCD is that my obsessions are very ridiculous and because of that I can't talk about it with almost no one. I have only talked about it with one of the 3 psychologists that I have been to and briefly to my sister long time ago and I don't think that she even remembers it now. And also realizing that something so ridiculous and stupid has completely destroyed me and I can't do anything to stop thinking about it and erase it from my mind.