I split up with my wife, whose BDSM fantasies I was incapable of fulfilling after 15 years, which drove her to another man.
After that, I just wanted a nurturing sexual relationship.
I was kind of seeing three women at once, but every time I displayed affection, they shied away.
Yet, with each of them, there were moments unspoken where they seemed to want me, but my self-doubt required explicit consent, and that was the one thing they were unwilling to give.
All of them have given up on me and found other men.
I don't know what I am. An Incel? A cuck? A fag who likes women?
People keep talking about gender-identities. I feel like a teenage girl who has a forty-year-old man's body, but I'm also completely cis-het.
There's nowhere for me here, is there?
I fall asleep alone and find peace in dream, and I hope to die in my sleep.
I guess this is a feelz thread for people who don't belong anywhere.
If your freak flag looks like the one that inspired Francis Scott Key, though... then I know how you feel.
We only know that we can't be sure it won't get better, and if that's all we have, well, it's better than nothing.
I didn't kill myself tonight because I don't know why I'm here, and I have to believe that there are more people out there who will wake up tomorrow for the same reason.
All responses are welcome, and any Jow Forums is appreciated.