GIOYC / Get It Off Your Chest

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I won't be forgetting our night together any time soon. We were both drinking and you said some things...and I got the feeling that you were insecure about something. But it's okay. I'm still thinking about you. I just want to hold you in my bed again and kiss you all over. You left your earrings and your lipstick here, so I know you'll be back. The sooner the better

His lawyer is as sleezy unethical and abusive as he is.
They're perfect for each other!
I love how they're handling it too. Making it an easy win.

That's not how it works. Things dont magically happen, you have to put effort in

I hate living.
I keep riding on that it will get better shit
But a 25 it's becoming a fucking joke
I'm having flashbacks of my teenage years, thinking about every year i'll start clean, have friends, be normal.
I always do that shit
Its becoming harder and harder. The lows are way more frequent and way harder.
I've started hitting myself now i'm becoming retarded from isolation

I know how you feel. And for me, I had to sit down and consider my motivations. I as an alcoholic nihilist just digging myself deeper and deeper until I met people that reminded me who I need to become again. Every day is an opportunity. You never know who you will meet or what will happen to you. I don't know if I believe in fate, but I understand things happen. And when its for the better, its worth pushing for.

I don't much like gay people.

Either gender?...

Why is it so fucking hard to just ask her if she's a lesbian??
I mean I guess I could just ask her out, but I feel so dumb.
She could get so offended if I ask.
Fuck.
Maybe I shouldn't ask and just ask her to go do something but then what if there's confusion about what we are doing?
How would I even ask her to just go do something in general and not make it a date? It would just be me getting to know her and shit.

This is so confusing. It's fine either if we become friends or whatever fine.
It's just so fucking hard and even if she is straight or bi, she already thinks I'm awkward over text so she'll probably just reject me and it will get weird because of awkward

How do I do this politely without being weird about it??
Good fucking damn it.

What if she doesn't even wanna hang out after I ask her one of these questions?

Why does it have to be the more interested I am, the more compatible she seems from my end, the closer she is to being a possible or already actual friend of mine the harder this shit becomes before I can even think about if I'm in a 'friend zone' or not?
She just looks and talks like she's indirectly communicating lesbianism, but if she's not, then...

I feel like I should ask her now and just get it over with before it starts becoming a diatracting thing that makes it hard to interact with her, but maybe I shouldn't.

Do it. Now.

can’t help but feel really stressed when i’m about to text something to my bf and when i’m waiting for a reply

i called him and told him about that. he asked why and it’s because i don’t want to seem stupid and annoy him. to which he replied with “you have nothing to worry about”. no i have. i’m scared that when i text him he’ll reply with something rude. my texts mostly are annoying (probably) but now i’m even scared to ask him to hang out next week

and i’m scared of being ignored

You are waaay to clingy

possibly but i think i have that fear because of the way he responds. he’s either gonna say something dry or will become annoyed. and honestly i have that fear since the middle of the week when he said that my friend will die unironically

I'm a pickle. Feedback welcome, but otherwise I'm just venting.

I am not happy in my relationship. He has been abusive. Not "he didn't kiss my ass boo hoo" abusive, actual honest to god "the cops came in and took him away for smashing a bottle in my face" abusive.

I am planning on leaving him as soon as I'm more financially stable. If you're wondering, the soon to be ex is the reason I don't have a decent job. He fucked up my life. HARD.

Anyway, I was looking for a friend. My soon to be ex chased all my old ones away and I'm lonely. Just someone like me to talk with during a hard time. I found a guy a lot like me. Cool.

Problem: after today's talking I'm fairly sure he's looking for a lover.

Double problem: Right about now I'm kinda horny and the soon to be ex doesn't do anything for me in that arena.

I don't need to complicate things. I really don't. Getting out of this relationship is hard enough. I'm worried this will go too far. Also I am worried that I might not care.

That said, I miss having a connection with another living being. I really could use someone to talk with. Finding someone so like me is rare. But the risk is looming and I can't deny it.

Am I a terrible person for this? Fuck. I don't know. Where do I draw the line.... and how...

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I have a diaper fetish.

So I could say like what? "Hey are you a lesbian" just out of the fucking blue?
But it seems like such a random question.
"Hey you're not a lesbian are you? Cuz I just thought you kinda look like you're styling yourself that way?" Fuck is that.
"Hey, I know this seems like kind of a random question, but" + either "are you a lesbian?" or "you're not a lesbian are you?". No...
"Hey so this is kind of a weird question, but are you a lesbian? I mean it's fine if you are..." God.
And then I have to transition from that to asking her out?
"Hey, are you into men?"

Do I just fucking go like "Hey are you seeing anyone?"?
Then somewhere in the conversation say "I kinda thought you were a lesbian for some reason"...
I don't...

Yeah, if you want it, you have to show intrest and make effort. Or else, it will show up and then dissapear right away because it wasn't recognized/acknowledged.

Can you try to town down as a space cadet a little? Self-restraint in moderation is a good thing

True words

but how do i stop feeling stressed? for the past few days i text him the bare minimum and i’m still stressed to do it

You ask me how my day is going and I want so badly to tell you the truth. That it's terrible, because I miss you. You were supposed to be a one night stand. I didn't think it would be like this. I didnt think you'd smile at me like that. I didn't think you'd hug me like that. Like you needed that feeling of being loved just as much as I did. Now you're away and I don't know if I should tell you how I'm really feeling because we may not see eachother again. I desperately hope you feel the same

I'm really confused about my future. I blew every chance I had to improve it. I don't know what I want to do, what my interests are. I couldn't get into the university that I wanted. I couldn't get into the course that I wanted.
Now I'm just worrying that I'll ruin any chances I'll be getting in future.
Since last three years, my life has become an utter mess. The only woman I've ever loved doesn't love me. I've failed in academics and ruined every chance of having a good job. I've become utterly introvert who doesn't have any friends. I don't have any skills or hobbies. My self esteem has hit rock bottom. I feel like such a fucking failure. It feels like life's never going to improve. Future just seems so dark. I don't want to live a normal life where I'll be just working for 8 hours a day just to get a minimum wage.
I just feel like quitting everything. Life sucks

You stop focusing on him and focus on yourself. Start reading a book or something. Half the time I will forget I texted someone until I get a notification

>masturbated 5 times yesterday
>masturbated 2x today and still horny and dripping wet
>the more i masturbate the more horny i get
>if i have sex with a guy it only makes the problem even worse
the inside of my brain is a giant image of a cock 24/7 i want penis i want cum i want cocks i want to lap semen off the floor

I thought we were going to go full anime? :(

I don't think I'm the type of person who can limit their drinking. I should give it up. How do I do this? Life seems so much less fun without drinking at all.

Goddamn I love the way you consciously humiliate yourself like that for all the world (and me) to see. Humiliate is probably the wrong word, as that would require some humility on your part. But whatever, you’ll always be the pie in my sky that hit me in the face and showed me my own weakness.

I can’t help loving you.

Aw man

I love you.

Typing that out felt bizarre.

HOW THE FUCK CAN I TALK TO YOU NOW?

Unrequited love is the love that no one wants to give and no one wants to receive.

But unrequited love gives the world its hottest fire.

I was honestly looking forward to tomorrow. It was going to be a shit show, there's no way a sane human being can do that much work and socialise, but still.

...I guess it means I'm going out with them, what even is my life.

Why am I soooo tired. I have so much shit to do.

I have to admit, I honestly thought you actually loved me when you said it.

Then you stopped saying it and I asked. OH BOY WHY DID I ASKED.

"There's nothing more between us than juicy, hot sex".

"Mkay".

I mean, our frienship its cool. I love it, dont get me wrong. Also the sex is amazing. But I still have feelings for you. Now im working on getting them out of the way, so I can feel just like you.

He thinks he's incognito. I can't wait until his illegal activity gets busted.

What even happened in 2017? It was very eventful, in my personal life and in current events, when I actually think about it but it feels like it was dec 31 2016 and then it was jan 1 2018. 2018 is closer but it feels like it was more significant. i dont know

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kek

bf always doing stuff i want to do with him with his friends and i think it’s never fun for him with me. sorry im so boring

>cute girl lives with the most horrible ogrish woman because the creature is her "gf" (nobody would ever date a hypothetical male counterpart of her). Not butch, not male looking, not female looking. She looks like someone dying in a hospital.
>immature as fuck
>always unhappy

the lesbian meme is just another way of showing who's afraid of life, holy shit

Enjoy your bed death desu

I wanna snort a big ass line of cocaine, go out and be anti-social

You always have the choice to be a horrible person. Just because you can, it doesn't mean you should. What you do defines who you are forever.

I'm not very good at persevering, I give up too easily.

Sorry, I hope you can figure out how to get your feelings out of the way. I haven't and its been over a year.

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always on his phone when with me and when with friends - no phone

I thought maybe you love me too.

Oh please no.
Are you still FWB?

that really sucks wow
good luck user

I am so mad right now. I swear I’m ready to commit a double-double-quadruple-murder-suicide any day now.

Yes.
I'm just distraction to him, yet he's all I can think of.
Unfortunately I can't just create feelings for someone else.
It hurts knowing I can't be more to him. I mean physical pain, in my chest. I try to ignore it but it's there all the time.

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Right?! Why did he even said it in the first place? He said: "There's definitely love" (of course, we are friends).

Man this is terrible. I laugh at myself sometimes.

Is he also your friend? Do you get to see him/talk to him outside of just the casual encounter? :c.

Let's cry together.

Holy shit. We're exactly alike except for a few tiny changes in choices on how we handle the exact same bullshit.

Dear god.I want to hug you so hard right now. I want to carry you away and never look back. Drag you into my world.

It's funny. You're exactly like I pictured only the roles are reversed.

Time to try to save the dragon from the princess!

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If you change it from”will you accept who I am?” to “can you keep up with who I am?” it becomes a different game, almost. You’re still playing the same thing, but it reminds you that you’re the MC

I wish I could clear my conscience somehow

Hey Z, sorry bud
Stalking you gives me a real thrill and I will continue until you start talking to me again and I lose interest

I’m tired of the concept of owning pets. I’ll love this cat until she passes but after that, no more.

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>Jacob Zuma
very white name for a very african looking dude

I really want to be a surrogate for a family but you're required to have a child?! I dont want kids. What a gift it would be to give someone a child...

I’m mad at you now.

What I really desire is to be able to call myself a good person. I have not been able to do so for the past few years since I have been closer to what one would call a bad person. I also want to be someone that somebody or even multiple people look up to.

You're not supposed to.

I really need somebody to put me in my place and /or give me a serious conversation. I get ass kissing more often and it has had impacts

I'm in too much pain

Having a bloody nose sucks. It feels disgusting when it is dripping, like a parasite crawling out of your nose

i have had violently sexual idealizations about our president and my dungeon. I am a straight male. This isnt suppose to happen, I thought hate boners were just a thing people said.

I’m sorry. I keep doing this.

Dearest R,

Hey R, remember that one time during our fourth meeting together in which you flipped out because I had answered on that online test that I was actually interested in having friends? What was it that you told me, again? You said:

>No! You already said that you do not want to have friends! You do not need any friends! It is fine being that way! You will have maybe one or two friends at the most!

What the hell was that all about, honestly? That was a really weird thing to say for someone in your position. All of a sudden you were telling me how many friends I could or could not have? And you were actually raising your voice at me, talking over me, and ignoring everything I was trying to tell you?

You are kind of a control freak, huh? Is that why you were interested in me, because of what it said on my report? What was that word on my report that was used to describe my personality? Acquiescent, right? That was the word. Yeah, you were interested in me because I came off like the sort of guy who is real submissive, naive, and easily manipulated. You probably figured that you could easily mold me into being the type of person you wanted. Well, knowing me, I would have actually allowed myself to be manipulated by you. I really am a submissive little bitch, and you are a domineering little cunt. You would have definitely worn the pants in our relationship.

Hey, how is the relationship with your husband, by the way? Do you happen to have a problem with his friends, by any chance? I bet that your relationship with your husband has been strained these past few months, considering what you did. You owe him big time. Maybe if you were to perform a certain act for him in the bedroom every single day, he just might be able to put up with you long enough to raise your children. You probably hate performing the act because you are not at the receiving end. It can be quite distasteful for women, I bet.

Have a great day! Good luck! Have fun!

With love,

- R

I don't ever want kids, no sex too, in case of accidents. No partners or dating either in case they want sex. Life is so fucking horrible I don't want to risk the chance of creating a human being. I just want to be done, but there's absolutely nothing worth looking forward to in the future

Why

These sluts posting about their boyfriends really piss me off for some reason. It's as if their whole personality is their bf when girls are just playing the role of which they think is appropriate for the current guy until a better guy comes along and then they jump on his dick, and call it love.
But I guess that's better than just doing hook-ups and being a cumrag for Chad.

This isn't something exclusive to females, but it does seem to happen more often to them. I think it's just a case of not having any of their own interests outside of having a relationship, and what's the best way to involve themselves more in a relationship? Get involved with whatever their other is doing.

Realistically it probably happens more for females because they don't need a personality to be dateable, whereas guys usually do.

I hate owning dogs so much. I like dogs themselves, but fuck owning them is a pain in the ass.
They want attention all the time, bark like crazy, and make a huge mess. It drives me up the wall.

>Realistically it probably happens more for females because they don't need a personality to be dateable, whereas guys usually do.
Fair enough.
I started noticing it more and more when my last ex suddenly decided that she's also interested in sport teams which just made me cringe.

Why?

Gotta push myself harder.

I bought a table for the apartment this week.
I wish they'd let me have Saturday mornings off at work. It's stupid. I already give them Saturday nights. They have so many of these lazy cows on the payroll, but oh, we HAVE to have you cleaning up for that two hour shift.
This is what I get for bitching too much, though. I don't have anyone to talk to while I work now, and after bouncing around the joint from one mind numbing job to the next, I realized that it's all the same. Boring bullshit and listening to dumb landwhales explain why they're above working for their pay.

I guess this is why I can afford this apartment by myself, though. It's in a great part of town. I'll have to just make do with that one day off for a minute.

The first place my fat goes to is my tits and stomach and arms, the very last is my ass and thighs. I agonize over this literally daily I despise my meat vessel.

Yep, I see him almost everyday. Text, phone... Complain about life to each other... and then occasionally have sex... When we started I thought I was just doing it for fun, but when we are together... I just can't explain the feeling. The feeling is the feeling in itself. I can't replicate it with anyone else. I've tried, but it hasn't happened. He isn't interested in more, at least he says he isn't... It baffles me because I know what I'm feeling, there can't be nothing there at all... But... here I am.

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Keep it up buddy you're doing great work.

not sure thats how it works but i sympathize with not being able to change your body in ways that are out of your control.

Same situation... I really don't understand how can you be that interested in someone but just stay that way. Maybe they are not as emotional. Maybe they are just cold hearted. Maybe... idk :(

It could be fear too.
Fear of commitment
Fear of letting someone down.
Fear of change.

I guess I haven't been hurt enough to be afraid.

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Do you want me to do something? Do you have time now..?

You reacted like a fucking autist last night it made me sick

That damn feeling. There's something, I know it too. I guess we will never know until they want us to.

Just did some real dick thing today just to leave my girlfriend in tears

>two days ago we agreed to get breakfast this morning
>this morning she texts me saying she can’t go pick me up cause her mom took her keys to the gym
>I say I’ll pick her up and we’ll get quick breakfast
>she’s persistent in saying no it’s okay we won’t go
>I can tell she’s lying
>I say I’ll pick you up in 30 minutes and hang up
>I pick her up
>we run an errand real quick before breakfast
>during the errand her mom calls her
>she tells her to pick her up
>she says I have to take her home
>I ask why and she says she needs to go for her mom
>I’m like how if she has your keys
>she says idk I’ll uber
>decide to fuck with her
>I start saying shit like an Uber two ways would cost twice as much as a one way for her to get home
>why doesn’t she call her to ask her why
>I say we can go pick her up and I’ll remind her how she expected to have her daughter pick her up if she has the car keys
>gf just starts getting mad
>”don’t bring up the car keys!...just drop it don’t say anything”
>she starts crying in the car
>I drop her off and go home

Idk why but she didn’t want to get breakfast. Her mom is super overprotective so she sometimes lies to get to hang out with me, and I can tell she lies to me to appease her mom. She has a very “I owe my mom everything” attitude I can’t explain. Ive told her before not to lie to me and it’s lead to some of our bigger fights. I’ve been trying to get her to break this spell and sometimes it works. Today it didn’t. I just felt like tangling her up in her lies. Straight up dick.