I'm desperate here, boys. Story time

It sounds cheesy but you have to find what resonates with you. What kind of activities are you Naturally inclined to do?

See if you can get a private tutor or tutors to teach you math, English, etc. and get your GED.

You don't get it. I never tried anything else. It's only after months of therapy that I'm now coming back into the real world. Everything feels new now. It's overwhelming. I don't know where to start. Computers are interesting I guess. But I have NO talent for them

okay so i'd reccomend first taking personality tests and then trying to see what careers go best with that personality

for example I'm an INFP so an artfag career is okay for me but of course as a human you can do anything you want, its just getting a career that matches your personality might work out better.

and 200k jesus. well you could have that paid off by 37?

do you have any youtubers you like? what do they do?

pick a role model that you liked in your past and try to figure out why you liked them. you could find the answer there.

since you have a huge debt do you think you could get into finance or something that could be a huge reason to start getting good with money and investing. not only could you major in it but you could use what you learned to pay off the debt you have yourself. you could be like Dave Ramsey. and then you can lecture other people on how to take care of their money because you dont want them to be having so much debt

they do get it, user. They're not telling you that to be a smartass.

your example is more extreme than most, yes. But the type of problem is not unique to you alone. The same advice will apply.

besides, its not like you're not allowed to not know the answer to that question especially in your position, so don't beat yourself down because of it. in fact, teaching yourself math as an adult is insanely good.

a couple questions, 1 did you finish grad school, and 2 since I know nothing about a grad program, did you learn other theatre skills too? directing, set design, costume, producing, tech stuff like lights and sound, or cameras, etc...

Well there are many places where your earned skills can be used without you yourself having to act.
Maybe you can teach people to act? Maybe you can work at some consulting agency? Maybe you can be a producer for new talents?

Your parents made a choice. They decided that instead of letting you bum around until the age of 21 and then trying to figure it out yourself they were going to force you to specialise. Do you hate acting because you hate that your parents tried to choose it for you? Do you resent the lack of control you felt as a child and the notion that your parents felt they had the right to act like this without your consent?

Exceptional ability often requires specialisation. That is all they were going for. Parents kind of have the right to push children in a certain way even if we have the right to hate them for it.

Thing is though. Everyone has baggage from being a child due to the lack of control and autonomy felt alongside a developing ego and sense of individuality. Everyone hates the fact that they didn't ask to be born and were basically your parents vanity project. Everyone hates the fact that parents act and seem godlike to a child, but eventually turn out to be human, weak, fallible, capable of making mistakes. It fucks up your world view because you realise they are just as dumb as you at times, are getting older and worse and you are supposed to supersede them and you've got all this programming, expectation, obligation, fear of failure, disappointment.

Eventually you learn all you can from your childhood baggage and you are faced with a choice. You can hold it, hurt yourself with it, harm yourself, others, your future and handicap yourself with an initially attractive, relatable, but ultimately repellent sob story or you can accept it for what it was. Part of you, part of your past, no longer within your influence, unable to be changed and focus on what is able to be changed, your actions now and in the future.

Acknowledging your parents as mere morals, human beings who tried their best, based on their understanding of the world and their programming allows you to humanise them and decide if you want to build a future adult friendship with them AS an adult.

Don't think you really understand what is it like for having your life stolen from you for a thing you don't even want to do.
This isn't pushing. It's running over someone with a tank.

He didn't learn multiplication until he was 25, this year, in which he taught himself.
Please fuck off, I understand your fucking point, but this is child abuse.

My parents also didn't teach me shit, but they didn't push me towards anything. It was more of a "You're 5 years old but I'm giving you the choice to go to school," and when I was around 7 and did ask to go - they would make excuses.

At this point OP, I'd definitely consider a trade, it doens't have to be permanent, you can do it while you pay off your debt, and slowly get your education up. You definitely should stay in therapy, get a tutor, and start using every resource possible.
I'm very sorry that your parents did this. Best of luck. It does get easier.

Firstly your parents did this to you because they could. You couldn't prevent it because you were a child. The decision was theirs, the blame if there is blame is theirs. You were not the adult and couldn't do anything to prevent this. You can't go back and change it. All you can do it move on from it and focus on the future. Your story is either one of a difficult childhood from which you never recovered or one of despite a difficult childhood you go on to do great things.

>You don't understand
>My life was stolen

So ... what are you going to do about it? I mean, the more you say that shit the worse you'll feel and you'll still be no closer or more capable of dealing with what the actual issue is. That you aren't currently happy.

I'm not trying to say things are comparable. But I'm speaking from what helped me deal with being sexually abused as a child. For a while my story was a comfort blanket. A reason as to why I was such a fucked up piece of shit. Things getting tough? Bring out my story, suddenly everybody is being nice to me. Everybody hates my family, supports me in hating my family.

Wasn't dealing with it though. Wasn't learning from it and letting go of the past and moving on as a better and happier adult. Getting more caught up in a narrative of being forever broken, forever damaged, always resentful and regretful of what was stolen from me, taken from me, denied to me.

Still can't go back in time and change it. Still happened at a time when I was powerless. Still had to eventually deal with it.

ANYWAY. Unfortunately you aren't owed anything. The world can be horrible. I prefer to focus on the bits that are wonderful. The bits where I have control, influence and can bring positive creative potential into the universe and be great to others for authentic reasons.

Bait. If you have been in movies you would have your SAG card and would not need grad school.

I am not op. I just think you are ignorant in this situation. Perhaps you should just stop talking about things you have no understanding about.
It's a shame you were abused, but this is not the same in this case.

He was like their good little robot for 20 years. Fuck it. Won't even explain to you what OP already said.
Who ever you are, you made me angry.

>Who ever you are, you made me angry.
Woah shit sorry man

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What are you even trying to say? It is like you won't objectively describe the situation and instead just keep hype hype hype what is already done.

Good robot for 20 years? So what? Plenty of young people whose brains aren't done developing have no idea what they are doing and as a result as a product of their upbringing. You do things because of a lack of an individual identity. You've been taught to obey your parents. To make them happy. That they know best. That you make mistakes and fuck up and can't trust your own choices. The physical changes in the brain at that age combined with the upbringing and environment make this inevitable. It is why peer pressure is so powerful, why drink and drug use is so dangerous, why driving fatalities are so high, why groups of otherwise good kids kick people to death in what was otherwise a minor altercation.

Most adults are set on a course determined during childhood based on a set of programming which is designed to help them make the best out of life. We realise about the time our brains finish growing that it is mostly bullshit and a lot of us spend some time working out why our choices don't make us happy. There is a brief period of angst when we realise our parents did it to us, either wilful or in ignorance and a period of compassion where we realise the same was done to them and ... assuming they are good people they were simply trying to do the best they could.

From this growth can happen. The alternative is stagnation. I will never get my childhood back is a fixed position that will forever wound me if I choose to think of it that way. Fortunately I'm able to choose.

I was never owed a childhood. I never had control over my childhood. I did my best based on what was presented to me. Thankfully it is now in the past and I've got choices to make today about what I want my world to be now and in the future. It doesn't bother me that I can't get my childhood back. It is just a fact.

Shit bro if I were you I would play the cards I was dealt.

Considering you have the ability to read and write, it isn't too late to get into programming and such, sure, math would be a helpful skill set, but it's not required

Congratulations! You have taken your development, the molding of your being, in your own hands. You're afraid your parents might turn out to be right. Don't be. They put you in this situation, but it is your ability and efforts that will determine whether you sink or swim.
Now as to what you want to do, over the years I've met various people who tried to pursue professions based on likes and hobbies. It didn't work out. For example, if you subtract material costs from the money a drawfag makes from a commission and then divide it with the hours it takes to complete it, the money per hour ratio is below minimum wage. Hell, even male pornstars regret their choice. What's my point? Sometimes you have to suck a turd. Most people doesn't like their jobs but they need to put food on the table. Treat acting as means to an end. Something that funds your pursuit of personal growth and happiness.
Try getting your parents to chip in for the loan. Tell them it is the result of their choices, not yours.

I think that user to whom you responded is right. It's all about crafting a positive personal life story rather than cling to a negative personal life story.

>in europe u can get good money with zero education
How?

Lol why Reddit?

You've had the life. School fucking sucks.