GIOYC

Yeah that's why I put the
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at the end.
So why you staying with a roastie you don't like? How'd you lose your friends?

I don't know what I'm living for

Everyone I ever know eventually starts treating me with contempt, I'm starting to hate being around other people but I also feel crushing pain from isolation, especially lack of any physical contact. I'm losing interest in reading, working out, and everything else I did by myself and I just don't have an answer for why I'm still going through the motions of maintaining myself and living.

This might be a bad idea but I've already made enough mistakes that one more risk shouldn't break the bank. Maybe.

youtu.be/7VTUSqdvj8E

You were an asshole first, but I wish I hadn't been an asshole back.

Had ANOTHER dream where I fell in love goddammit

With who? Hopefully she's 2D

fpbp

Idk where to start. I guess I'll just start anywhere. The important part is that I keep trying. I need to stop thinking ahead and start just doing things.

3D. Some third generation Russian girl I met in an incredibly idyllic coastal town. And then I WOKE UP FUCK ME

I love you, but I know you don't.

Why do I lose interest on a girl the moment I get her to like me?

You're only in it for the thrill and you like manipulating other.

You know, you don't have to wake up

Roastie and I lost our V cards together, hang on to lost hope really.
Lost friends thru gay drama and some of them spreading a rumor I cheated.
>implying I have that much game to begin with

Damn I didn't record jeopardy

Holy shit wtf

Yes

FUCK

I can’t stop thinking about you. I want to invite you to come for dinner sometime this week. I want to spoil you.

>girl stares at me a lot with a thirsty look, always smiles at me, initiates small talk
>i assume she's interested
>I'm interested too
>I start smiling at her back and reciprocate the small talk
>she starts being colder and seems annoyed by me

this is the third time it happens. why the fuck ?

I don't want you to leave my life forever. I love you X, I really do. I don't know why I still do at this point, but I do. You will leave though, and it's ok, I'll move on. Life will continue with or without you, I just have a preference about which way I would like it to go.

I wonder what the "next one" will be like. There will be a "next time" just about certainly but I just wish these "next times" would end.

I don't think I'm as honest and vulnerable as I think am, and that's hindering my ability to make friends.

My self destructive habits are getting really very bad. I'm self mutilating, I'm binge eating and starving myself, I'm drinking half a handle of vodka day, I'm staying up for days and crashing for sixteen+ hours at a time, I've been letting go of the wheel and closing my eyes on long empty roads. It's getting really really bad and I don't know how to make this stop. I can't go to a therapist. I know I'll be locked up right away. I fantasize about killing myself and torturing other people, like, constantly, all the time. I still hold down a job and I'm trying to work as much as I can because it keeps me from drinking but I really am starting to lose my grip on things and I'm very fucking scared that if I let go I'm going to kill someone. I can't be hospitalized.

Also the chain smoking holy shit I smoke a pack a day at this point

What the fuck man calm the fuck down

ow fuck, my brain

Get a Juul or Jbox and refill the pods with salt e-liquid

You'll recover from smoking effects and for some wierd reason Juuls are acceptable socially while vaping isn't

Probably because Juuls are tiny while vapes are huge and awkward looking.

I need to get this out.
it's how I'm truly feeling.
I love you, I really do, I don't think I would have stuck around for 6 years if I didn't, not a single day has gone by without me thinking of you. This year has been very demanding and stressful for me(and you have made it even more so),
As I told you before, I would like to attend a school here in my state, it's cheaper for me to stay here, and my chances are higher to get interviews for schools here, and besides I want to save money for the reasons I already stated.
But let's be realistic, this couldn't go on for another 4 years, I can't chain you down, and I can't keep stressing my self out and worrying about losing you because it wouldn't be healthy for me, I need to give it my all these next 4 years, I can't have my brain bogged down by stuff that I can't do nothing about, but yet I didn't want to let you go, I told you that, but after what you did yesterday, I can't go thorough another year of that let alone 4 years, besides I don't think I could ever kiss you now, I'm sorry it's just the way I am.

So please, I'm sorry if you feel like I'm abandoning you, but I hope you understand.
I wish you all the best.

S

That's a good idea! Thanks man. I know sounding this sincere sounds like sarcasm, but it isn't. I've actually been doing that and it's helped a lot. Definitely keeps the edge off

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I can't stop thinking about you.

ugly slut
lmao

Do something about it

I hope you suffer and die

Wish you would let me into your life as something other then an internet associate.

I can say that I am too busy with my own problems to do anything more about it now.

I wish you the best

6 years and a lmao, and a lfmao is all I get?

Louise I am sorry

My therapist told me today that this would be our last month working with each other. I guess it’s fucking me up more than usual since this is such an important relationship that I thought would end on my terms.

I am happy for him and it’s pretty selfish of me to want him to help me for the rest of the year but it still sucks

I'm a Straight White Male

Also to the person I was referring to it really wasn't a game and I did catch feelings and ended up crying one night when it blew up and I knew it was over

It just hit me, you think I'm trolling don' you?
would it have made it more believable to you if I had said, "I'm utterly fucking disgusted with you? I don't think I could ever even touch you let alone kiss you"? would that have made it more believable? I tried to be as serious as I could, but it seems you are so naive or just don't want to believe what is actually happening that you choose to chalk it up to just games and more trolling.

I mean it when I say, I could never kiss you now, I'm trying to be as honest as I can here with you, what you did played a big role in this.
it would be naive of you to think I'm trolling.

it's just more lines of code but it's the same amount of work, this just looks cleaner

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>why the fuck ?
They got to know you

Whatever it's to be expected. You know he loves me and that's why you want me.

Cleaner is more maintainable, user!

fuck people that do "clever" one liners in production code instead of making their shit readable

You're so beautiful, creative and unique, girl. An angel on earth. There is no one like you.

This. One liners usually end up being less efficient anyways(at least from what I've seen)

Tell me. I know you love me.

Lets just never speak a word to each other ever again
haha :')

I'll be around

Wow you got ne SO wet rn anondaddy

/eats cereal

It's not you. She knows.

It's not about you.

Lool

yuck

Jow Forums(nel) isn't suitable for mature adults. I think it would appeal mostly to 12-16 year olds.

I tried so hard. You're on your own now.

Can I ask what you wanted out of me in the first place?

Hey S user, I'm also an S user.
Your message struck me, 'ya know ? Are all the S anons this way, myself included ?
I did the same mistake as you.
I wanted to concentrate on my studies during 6 years and neglected someone that deserved more from me, and I was thinking I was doing the right choice.
Now in two weeks I'm graduating FOREVER and probably I'll be unemployed and lonely.
So... Try to stick to those that matter, and I guess you'll have less regrets. Don't push away. It's sad to think we could've done better with lesser grudge and ego.... Good luck !
- S

>Are all the S anons this way, myself included ?

idiots

Nothing from you nosy user

oh sorry

Yeah, I hate myself. They do say you need to love to hate, though. So, maybe one day.

I get it, my dude.
I hate that things had to end up the way they did.

Yeah just sometimes people comme in here to talk about how they're homeless, in jail, how their stepdad raped them... If You feel like this is jokes to you, go to /hc/

In two weeks, I'm going to try and live without a cell phone or computer for one week. Ngl I'm kinda concerned. I haven't even told my friends and family about it, and I'm sure they'll freak when they realize they won't be able to reach me through text or call.

I have to do it though. I have to drop my bad habits and get some new ones. I'll never change if I don't. Wish me luck bros

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>In two weeks
Why not now?

I feel the maturity level is very low and that has nothing to do with jokes or people having problems.

You really don't get it, do you?

Hmm maybe it has to do with this being an anonymous image board? Nahh, couldn't be

Yeah, I get that 4channel is full of children

There are plenty of sites that are anonymous and have mature people.

Name?

any forum

Those aren't anonymous or mature

It's a little more complicated than just dropping my phone for 1 week. I'm also going to dedicate the entire week to nothing but reading, studying, working out, and meditating. No distractions. Not work, not the internet, nothing.

I feel like it's the only way I'll be able to drop my bad habits and pick up some new ones.

What I have with her it's a long distance relationship.
All these things she makes me feel, the yearning to see her, to know how she is doing, to want to share my life with her. I want find someone who makes me feel them IRL.
and I feel I need distance myself, and allow time to do it's thing.

besides I'm tired of the mind games she put me through it is mentally exhausting.

does that make sense to you?

it depends on the topic. They are all anonymous, rarely do people post their picture

Ah ok. Good luck user.

I also want you to know, you are driving me away from the only escape I have known for years on dealing with isolation and loneliness.
that is the worst thing you could have ever done to me, you are basically condemning me. Please I don't know how long I will last, I hope I can make it at least till classes start in 3 months, but If I do come back, please for the love of god leave me alone.

It’s practice and I have to get over my fears.

Forgot what I was gonna say.

My faith in myself is shaken. All I want right now is a good job I can be proud of and make decent money from, but ever since I lost my last one, all I see are jobs that I'm not qualified for. Of course, the difference between now and my situation last year is that now it makes me feel like trash. I spent several years busting my ass getting my Bachelor's degree, but now that I finally have it, I feel no more qualified to do any of these jobs than I did before I started college. I just want some fucking hands-on training (not that I'll ever get it thanks to the jackass attitudes that employers have nowadays). I just want someone to look at me and say, "Hey, you might not have all the skills I want...yet, but you've got potential, so I'll show you the ropes and help you get started."
I know I'm far from the biggest loser in the world, but still...I feel so damn worthless.

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I am 26 and need to move out, my mother will be old soon and I'm scared of the government forcing me to care for her.

I just want my own life, it's been on hold for so long, every day it gets harder and harder to go on. First it was just staying with her for a few years to make sure she was back on her feet mentally, and then I fell into the NEET trap myself, it's so hard to pull myself out, every day is a struggle. I just want to escape this life.

For once in my life I just want my own life.

Why do I waste all the time I have every single time I have time? From now on that's going to stop, I'm going to spend all of my time trying to better myself. I may not necessarily be using my time wisely but it will all be for the greater good.

to L
from T

youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw

I'm so tired but if I sleep I may be fucked for tomorrow.

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>I don't understand how one could get fat
I eat like a hippo but after a big time of sport, other wise I'm not hungry so I eat just small amount of food.
yes, there're times when I'm lazy and eat pizza on sofa but it lasts one day, how can one NOT want to go outside and do stuff????

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