I'm a pedophile

My brain is currently in crisis mode and I have never wanted to kill myself more in my life. I'm 21 and I've been struggling with this since I was 16. I've been trying to block it out for years but clearly it isn't working. I think I'm slowly becoming less attracted to girls my age and more attracted to younger ones. Probably 12 at the youngest, I don't really know. I looked up pedophilia and everything I read about the symptoms and when it starts to develop seem to fit. Of course everyone thinks that when they Google an illness or something. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare that I will never wake up from. The closest thing to CP that I see is loli hentai. I think I am still attracted to older girls. It has to still be there. I was normal throughout the beginning of highschool. I want to kill myself so badly but I could never do that to my family. I'm afraid to go to therapy because I don't want to get reported. I don't want to hurt anyone. Please give me advice.

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>Please give me advice.
Go outside. But not near a playground or school

Go to a therapist.

First you need to prepare a space, eye bolts drilled into the foundation, walls, support beams, ample rope, chain, and shackles.
Then you need some supplies to transport your prize back to your new set up. Duct tape, gun, ski mask, hand cuffs.
then you wait and look for opportunities. Might take a year but you will know a good one when you see it. Jump on it and never look back.

Yea most men are. You just ignore it. Anyone that tells you they aren't is lying.

this. Pedophilia (excluding pre-pubescent sex and all relations without parental consent) is the purest form of love. This world sucks

Good way to be accidentally shamed by their looks of disgust and possibly misunderstood leading to arrest for fear of him abusing a child.

Most pedophilia is less a matter of attraction to younger girls than fear of older ones. That you can interact at all with women your age is a good sign. A shrink can help sort out just what is going on in your mind. By law they can not report you unless you have already broken the law or are in immediate danger of doing it

Lol kids can't love. Let them be kids please

Is looking at loli hentai considered breaking the law? Is that enough to get me reported?

mate same. I've done worse honestly not diddle little kids worse. but a friend sent me nude pictures of his little sister who he sexually abused (i asked for them) shit haunts me everyday. i feel like a monster and there's not much anyone can do about it. all we can do is be as best as can be. and well not lewd the loli if you know what im saying

Reported by who lmao just fucking ignore it dude come on. So what you like cunny you just can't act on it or you'll go to prison forever.

If anything, kids love more than adults.

Depends on country

Never before have I felt as strong of a love for a girl, than when I became infatuated with a certain 8 year old a few months ago. I didn’t understand what was happening. I was not sexually aroused in any way, but my heart swelled and I felt light and airy. I wanted to be with her. She was beautiful and intelligent—I could tell by her speech and her expressions. Was I supposed to suppress these feelings? Is it wrong to admire a girl of that age, to see her value even before she can conceive? I firmly believe it is wrong to have sex with anyone who hasn’t developed, but what is so wrong about perhaps arranging a marriage with young girls through parental consent? I would wait until she is ready to have a child, and only then, will we have sex. I see nothing wrong with such a relationship. In fact I think it purer than any other form of relationship, especially in modern times, when a man has no way of knowing if his new girlfriend is a virgin, and He is likely to lust after her before he loves her. Is there something wrong with me, or the world?

In what way, because I'm talking about the ugly kind of love. Children deserve to be left alone to be innocent and outgoing.

>ugly kind of love
No such thing.

What the fuck is not ugly about being forced to look in a mirror that talks back LOL

Kill yourself.

Get help. THERAPY. You won’t get in trouble if you haven’t committed a crime.

>look of disgust
Never happens with a good therapist. Depends where you live, you can even sue them for such reaction.
>arrest
Only if very solid evidence exists against the client, like in any other medical field.
Stop shitting on professional help user, it is the sure way to help one's restlessness.

>I would wait until she is ready to have a child, and only then, will we have sex.
You're going to lose your attraction to her before that time comes. And even if you don't, and even if you somehow wait eighteen years to ask her to be sexual with you, what if she never had an attraction to you in the first place? The relationship will never work, get help for your own sake.

I think you should block all websites that lead you to loli or other stuff. Also stop watching porn. I swear to got that stuff can desensitize you to beautiful women so that you have to look for the kick elsewhere. Porn can make you delve into all sorts of fucked up fetisch stuff

don't rape a kid and don't tell a therapist
therapists will report you and destroy your life
You'll be fine if you can live without having to rape kid
also what age is your preference? anything above puberty is just your biology telling you to fuck them while they're young and fertile

porn is what causes all these sexual fetishes and extremes

talk to a therapist, and google “pure O OCD”

You're normal m8. It's biologically normal to feel sexually attracted to girls in her prime. Old hags try to demonize this kind of behaviour, because they know that can't compete.

Also therapists are just a bunch of mindless drone. Never get near them.

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Go have sex with some children. Once you see how shit most of them are in bed, I promise you will lose interest.

Well there's no need to kill yourself you're just becoming accustomed to your pornography. Just drop it. Drop porn altogether for a while, if you're such a fucking animal that you can't, just drop the loli hentai shit. You're actually a wired pedophile you're just a fucking porn addict. Stop being one.

I'm a cis het woman with 3 kids and I felt the exact same way about an older woman. Just really intense admiration and affection right? It's almost overwhelming.
It's curious and I don't know what that's about. But some people take on this transcendental beauty regardless of how you sexually feel about them and you just want to be with them.

Just go for IRL Lolis dude, they are legal & nothing morally objectionable about this
there is a russian nude model that literally looks like a 14yo while being 21, same as you.
She's my waifu though so I won't name her to get her known to you fucks

Dude, look at all the hetero guys who fail to get laid. And they even somehow want to. As long you don't actually do shit, it doesn't matter that you're a pedo. People are much more than whoever they want to fuck.

Holy kek.

1. They can't report you. Even if you already committed a crime. They CAN report you if they suspect you will commit a crime but they can't just say it's because you are a pedo. Just like suicide and involuntary hospitalization, you'd have to have a plan, willingness, opportunity, etc.

2. Don't listen to people saying it is natural. Female fertility peaks in the 20s in terms of maternal and child survival rate. The fact that much younger women menstruate and ovulate doesn't mean they would be able to carry a fetus to term and give birth to a live infant. Quite the opposite. Humans would have evolved to find signs of sexual maturity (body hair, titties) attractive. It makes no evolutionary sense to want to knock up a child who will probably die (along with her genetic offspring) in childbirth. The sexualiztion of children is 100% societal. It's happened all over the place but it is still much more about social factors than evolutionary ones. Seriously, think about it.

3. Stop watching porn. All porn, for now. Even non-loli porn sexualizes underage girls. Barely-18 porn stars don't dress like any 18 year old I know. I don't think there is anything wrong with viewing video of people having sex, per se, but modern pornography is not about sex any more and it is super bad for your brain/boner.

4. Go to therapy

>what is so wrong about perhaps arranging a marriage with young girls through parental consent
You're grooming a little girl and manipulating her into loving you.
You're depriving her of her own happiness just for your own advantage. This isn't love in any way, shape or form.
There's something profoundly wrong with you.

Find yourself a tiny loli-looking legal woman; they exist. Like unicorns.

Or find a girl into ageplay.

LOL

based oldfag haha

Younger girls aren't peak fertility but they can potentially yeld a lot more babies than an older women. Also young girl is one of the number one fetish accross the world it's perfectly natural. Not sure about 12 tho but attraction certainly start before 18.

desu people saying 17y11m30d = wrong & 18y = right are retarded.
There are many factors playing into this, because not everyone is the same. This is why most EU countries & japan have set the legal age to 14/15.
That is when most girls are out of puberty & are mature enough mentally.
But there are girls age 20 that still have the body of a 13yo and 20yo girls that have the brain of a 13yo. Is it right to say that it isn't pedo to fuck them, even though girls far younger may have a more developed body or brain?
There is a border, and that border isn't a number but rather a point where they are developed enough to decide for themselves & are mature enough to do so.

Checked and kekd

First don't hate yourself. Secondly, educate yourself. The difference between 2d and 3d for me is I know about the horrific effect it has on 3d, especially kids younger than 12. The stories of abuse and mental health issues stemming from are quite confronting but for people who have a conscience and I believe you do, just thinking about these things will stop you from making any bad decisions.

Also find more fetishes. Yes fapping isn't the greatest hobby but go on /gif/ and try some random threads. Maybe you'll find something you like.

It's also the number one way to get punitively murdered across the world so...

Anyway, she can't produce more babies if she dies. I'm not saying that 18 is some magical age or anything, I'm just saying that justifying it with junk science is lame.

You're more likely to die in childbirth if you're 30+ than if you're 15.

Interesting. Please continue.

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i dont what pedophiles find hot about little girls. you physically cannot put your dick inside and even if you could it would probably feel terrible for you and excruciating for her. Now, teenage girls I can get behind. They are hot and can actually have sex (13-17 year olds)

Are you really attracted to them because of a lower mmr during childbirth or is it because you watch too much fucking hentai and read too many doujins. Dumb incels, dumb porn addicts, fuck men, fucking monkeys, you're all fucking animals.

Eat a dick faggot

I was born premature. I don't know if that means anything. I don't even know what mmr is.

Nice bait

sounding like a true mason

>14 year old girl: the opinion: the post

Hey Pastor John

Actually mentally ill

>I'm into 12 year olds so all guys are
The absolute state of this board. What, /b/ moves too fast for you so you came to Jow Forums?