Guys, idk what to do.
My gf had an IUD, and apparently it managed to dislodge itself and move a few months ago and surprise, I just discovered two weeks ago that she's 18 weeks pregnant.
Neither of us ever wanted kids. I MILITANTLY did not want kids, and we had agreed that if this ever happened, that we would terminate.
You guessed it, she is now refusing to terminate.
She's taking this even further though, and is making it crystal clear that my opinion and my distress means absolutely nothing and that she is going to do whatever the fuck she wants to do.
At first, we fought for about a week before she "came around" and agreed to terminate. That was a lie. She wanted to do the ultrasound first because "she felt she owes it that much" but afterward she told me she's keeping it and never intended to term at all.
Then last Friday we get the call that they found a heart defect in the ultrasound. It's indicative of downs- about 25% of people with down syndrome have it, and even if she doesn't, she still had a hole in her heart that will require open heart surgery within the first couple months. We won't get the results from the test back for up to another couple weeks, but if it isn't downs, she still won't term, and wants to do the surgery. I again have no choice.
She's saying that she doesn't want to drag me into anything and she'll leave my name off the birth certificate, but after everything she's pulled in the last two weeks, I can't believe her. Even if she's telling the truth, I still can't handle this. I've been extremely anti-kid since I was 10 years old. It's part of my identity.
This shit isn't supposed to happen to people like me, guys. I did things right. She had an IUD. I'm only 24, I lived with my parents until I was 22 so I could save up and buy my own house. I didn't get to have a life, I was just starting. What the fuck, how do I cope with this? Why is this legal? Why can you do this to people? What the fuck do I do? How do I function?