GIOYC

Why are you here?

I feel like I can never be truly open with anyone and that I'll be going through a personal hell for the rest of my life

I feel like it's over for us

I have a really hard time making friends and being social and it makes me sad.

btw have a nice day ;)

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a rare thing, but yeah

You'll find someone. Have trust in yourself user!

>btw have a nice day ;)

Thank you. You have a nice day as well. ;)

I wish it was 5:30 so you would come for your Hell spawn.

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My crush is away for the next month and I can't even contact him via social media. It's gonna be one long month. He was just starting to respond so well to me as well.

It's all so tiresome.

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I wish I could just be emotionally committed to my boyfriend. Jesus, he’s perfect in every way but I’m such a whore I can’t stop my mind from wandering in different directions.

You know, I really did want you to recognize your own flaws and change yourself for the better. But your lack of willingness to communicate in person has shown me that you also lack the willingness to recognize your own flaws and change yourself for the better. It appears to be the case that you're unwilling to change yourself for the better because you probably don't even believe that you have any flaws in the first place.

The big difference between you and I is that I recognize that I'm an awful person, and I've already said just that to you several times in the past. You, however, keep insisting to me that I refer to myself as an "amazing" or "great" person, without you citing for me where and when I have ever said that. It is you, however, who insists on referring to yourself as a "good person" and an "amazing" person to go on dates with.

You keep on saying that you and I can meet and become friends "when this is all over", without bothering to elaborate for me on what you mean by "when this is all over". I'm guessing that you're waiting on something important to happen. Something that probably won't happen in several days, weeks, months, years, or even decades from now. You'll be waiting for this event to occur for an indefinite amount of time. Because deep down you know that once this event occurs, you'll be forced to abide with what you told me: that we can meet and become friends. And once that happens, you'll be forced to recognize your own flaws. And, really, you don't want that to happen. Because you enjoy playing the role of the victim, and forcing me into the role of the villain. But my instinct of self-preservation is preventing me from outright assuming the role of the villain.

Yeah, it's definitely over.

If I got together with a group of 100 people, got to know them all, each one would have a different opinion of me. Some would hate me, some would love me and some would be in between.

My stubbornness might be thought negatively by some but as perverseness to others. I'm never going to please everyone, imagine trying to change things about yourself for every person? That person likes someone assertive or aggressive...that person likes a submissive person....I'd be absolutely fucked up if I changed to please everyone.

Your opinion of me is just opinion, it doesn't mean it's true. It's an opinion I don't value enough to change for. If I knew you well, if you actually meant something to me, I might change but who the fuck are you to me? Why would I change what I like about myself for some asshole that is critical and doesn't like me?

Seriously fuck off you narcissist. You are no one to me. I will never change for you. My friends love me for me. Go to hell.

>perverseness
perseverance*

Your lack of willingness suggests to me that you don't trust me. I must admit that you actually have good reason not to trust me. After what happened between me, that one nurse, and her boss, I had become so bitter, frustrated, and hateful... that I felt the need to let it all out on someone who works within their field. And I was planning on having you be my first target. But I couldn't in good conscience allow you to be my first target if you had yet to do anything wrong to me. So I decided to give you three chances (in the form of three meetings) to prove yourself to me.

During our first meeting together: you kept on interrupting me, assuming what I would say before I said it (and being completely wrong on several occasions), and you laughed at me. It was only our first meeting together so I let it slide.

During our second meeting together: you sighed at me, you again interrupted me, assumed something about my personality (and being completely wrong), insulted me, and refused to do a very simple task that I asked of you that would've required only five minutes of your time and that anyone working within your field should easily be able to do.

After that second meeting, I decided to allow you to do most of the talking for our third meeting, to see if you had anything important to tell me. But you did not. You instead seemed to be heavily intoxicated by two stimulants, and decided to ask me several questions in regards to those stimulants.

After that third meeting, I decided to lash out at you during our fourth meeting, but I was holding myself back from outright yelling at you.

I'm guessing that you're sitting there, reading this, and mentally blocking out just about everything that I'm trying to tell you. You'll accuse me of trying to "pin blame" onto you, while ignoring that it was you who was the first aggressor in our relationship. You'll then respond to this with narcissistic rage, and probably threaten me with a restraining and/or contact order.

>After what happened between me, that one nurse, and her boss, I had become so bitter, frustrated, and hateful
Ok
>I felt the need to let it all out on someone who works within their field
??
>So I decided to give you three chances
???

Get help

I am very pissed off because last night I was writing a huge note with ideas for a game I'm going to make, then my phone ran out of battery before I could hit Save. Today I turned it on again, and half of the note was gone. I forgot most of the ideas I lost.

Besides, I saw a hyper cutie at the supermarket last evening, even cuter than the bagger I became obsessed with in Winter. I think he looked at me twice and I smiled at him. I wanna ask him out, there's no way I can let this happen again.

>If I got together with a group of 100 people, got to know them all, each one would have a different opinion of me. Some would hate me, some would love me and some would be in between.

I agree. The same thing would apply to me.

>I'm never going to please everyone, imagine trying to change things about yourself for every person?

That's exactly what I've been trying to do my entire life.

>who the fuck are you to me?

Well, gee, I dunno. It was you who decided to force yourself onto me. I went to you for help, but it was you who decided that you wanted to have some sort of sexual and/or romantic relationship with me.

>Why would I change what I like about myself for some asshole that is critical and doesn't like me?

Why should I have to change for you if you're unwilling to change yourself?

>Seriously fuck off you narcissist.

Why do you insist on calling me a, "narcissist"? What is it that you hope to accomplish? Do you think that I will be able to recognize that I'm a narcissist and change myself for the better? What do you care if I'm a narcissist? I am nothing to you (as you've said so yourself), after all.

Tfw you have the urge to reply with nice blog faggot to ever other post in this thread out of habit

She doesn't love you as a romantic partner but really enjoys being with you as a friend. Get over it, pussy

>???

You decided to reply to my post and you don't even know what the hell I'm going on about? What are you, some bored LARPer?

>Get help

Right. It's me who needs to seek help. The one who decided to let something off of his chest in a GIOYC thread, only to have his posts replied to by some bored LARPer who has no idea what he's going on about. The one who has already gotten "help" several times in the past.

I assumed you took out the anger not on the people that made you angry but rather on someone that works in the same field as them

If you hate blogposting then go to any hobby board

I said out of habit

>She doesn't love you as a romantic partner

What? Where and when did I ever say that she felt "love" for me?

>but really enjoys being with you as a friend.

But she's not my friend. Neither she nor I want to be each other's friends, it seems.

>Get over it, pussy

Funny how you seem to believe yourself to be omniscient and omnipresent. You seem to believe yourself to have some sort of ability to magically know everything that is going on, everywhere, to everyone. You believe that your beliefs are objective and that you must force your beliefs onto others. You seem to have quite a bit of an inferiority complex. Now who's the "pussy"?

Stop saying LARP, I don't see anyone here dressing up as a fantasy character.
If you met a terrible person why would you give them so many fucking chances? Better yet, why were you so passive? If you planned to keep talking to this person you should've at least dominated every conversation

>I assumed you took out the anger not on the people that made you angry but rather on someone that works in the same field as them

It's kind of hard to not let my anger out at someone whom I had given $300 to help me, only to have that person do the exact opposite of help: hurt.

There are too many cucks and cuckqueans on this board that are in denial about their situation with their partner, and you sounded like one of them.
Just ditch that person, pussy. JUST DO IT

Shd've put that in the initial text user Why haven't you killed them already btw?

I hope you're man enough to get that money back. People who owe so much money and then disappear are despicable.

>Stop saying LARP, I don't see anyone here dressing up as a fantasy character.

It's not my term. It's a term that everyone on Jow Forums insists on using.

>If you met a terrible person why would you give them so many fucking chances?

Three chances seems sufficient for me. If a person does or says an awful thing once, it's happenstance. If a person does or says an awful thing twice, it's coincidence. If a person does or says and awful thing thrice, it's a pattern. That's three strikes right there.

>Better yet, why were you so passive?

Her boss had told me not to bombard his subordinate with my questions, so I decided to let her do most of the talking. But after the first three meetings with her, I realized that I was wasting my time and money with her and that she was doing more harm to me than good.

Are you in love with him?.
I don't want to be a bother.
I'm not limerent anymore so if you want to stay with him I'm not about to kms over it.
At the end of the day, all I want is you to be happy, if you're not you need to let me know straight away
Oh and I think I might have spotted a nude he snapped of you, it was a girl in a tent on /b/
I didn't save it.

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Dealing with an annoying project at work, it's hard to not check out each day because the work makes me want to slit my wrists sometimes. everything in your late 20s just becomes extraordinarily difficult, goddamnit wtf.

You don't have to change for me but I'm making it clear that I don't like you, I don't like critical narcissists. .

I fucking hate woman.Every single one needs to get brutally murdered

omg, you really are fucked in the head.

Kill yourself instead.! You are unloved so please do it, no one will miss you.... thanks! :D

I mean wasn't typing a damn essay on someone bad enough?
Holy shit, I never seen this much text since last night, and there were like 5 of these fucking books here.

It's nuts.

To whom?

Seriously, you are a mistake of nature. I can't imagine anyone liking you.

>everyone on Jow Forums insists on using.
Nope

Goodmorning.

This

He is severely mentally ill, dangerously so. Extreme anger issues. I bet he's the one that writes about torturing and hating women.

I hate that I have zero control over how I feel.

I use cognitive behavioral therapy and mindfulness and stuff and I'm not saying it doesn't help, but I'm always like one mindless mistake away from feeling like I'm completely worthless and should stick my hand in a blender.

It's really scary. Like I feel totally fine now but I basically have to be a shut-in because I'm like a faberge egg. There's lots of stuff I want, or want to want, or want to want to want but it's like I can't pursue any of that because I'm just too fragile.

When I see therapists they offer the same stuff, and like, it's not bad or anything. It works, kind of, but not as well as it can for me to basically function. All I do is go to work and come home and it sucks. It's boring and while I'm not unhappy for the most part I wouldn't say I'm happy, either.

But it's like, if seeing a therapist doesn't help, and pills aren't helping, what do I do, right? I set up my life painstakingly -- 10 hours of sleep, eating well, about an hour of exercise a day. But it's still not enough.

Like is this just it? Is this as good as it gets, me being afraid to leave my own house because I just can't deal?

Misandrists and misogynists are both mere wastes of resources.

>You don't have to change for me but I'm making it clear that I don't like you, I don't like critical narcissists.

It's truly quite fascinating how you're able to recognize that I'm being critical of you, but you're unable to recognize that my criticism is valid. You insist on using the term "narcissist" to dehumanize me and to invalidate anything that I have to say about you or anything else. You know what sort of person dehumanizes others to invalidate any valid criticism about themself? A narcissist.

I can handle it.
im a sociopath for a reason.

I know I'm a worthless person, but come on. I'm always in a better position than I was the previous year, at least for several years. I do things that I want and I'm pretty damned good at some of them, I take classes for fun, I workout, I'm not overweight, full time employed in my field, but I just fucking hate all of it. None of it means anything. None of it's ever gotten me what I want, which I guess is validation (I wouldn't know... I have no reason to really believe that would actually be any kind of lasting satisfaction, and I dismiss any 'validation' I do get as just being patronizing), but just the fact that I want external validation means that socially I'm the lowest form of scum that exists anyway, which just reinforces the whole thing in the first place.
Yeah, yeah, I know. Get off my back, it's GIOYC, this thread is literally for bitching and moaning.

I wish I would stop thinking about her and our only date.
Why am I still so hung up on it? She's gone, and she probably never had interest in the first place, but her eyes were hypnotizing me. I never seen irises so big and her smile so pure.

Should I have gone for it? Just some shitty FWB thing that probably won't be hidden and I would've been another body? I'll never know.

What I do know is after I didn't give her anything but me just paying the damn bill, she got pissed. That never happened to me before.

Sociopaths should all be euthanized.

>omg, you really are fucked in the head.

Define "fucked in the head" for me. Go ahead. Cite your sources. Tell me where, exactly, in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (Fifth Edition) does it say that a person must be "fucked in the head" for saying any of the things that I said anywhere within my posts. I'll be waiting right here.

>He is severely mentally ill, dangerously so.

I love it when your kind decide to arbitrarily diagnose people over the internet, knowing full well that you aren't qualified to do so. Do I really need to repeat myself? I guess I do. I've already been officially evaluated by seven psychotherapists, six psychiatrists, and one psychologist. They've all told me that I'm just fine. But you're just going to ignore all of this because you'd much rather believe that your layman's opinion matters more than that of the professionals'. Now who's the narcissist?

>Extreme anger issues.

Hm. Yes. Anger is totally an irrational emotion. I have no reason to become angry when people with no credentials decide to diagnose me over the internet to invalidate anything that I have to say.

>I bet he's the one that writes about torturing and hating women.

Nope. That's not me. But go ahead. Keep on believing that if it makes you feel better thinking that you must be the superior person, and I must be the inferior person for writing those distasteful and misogynistic posts.

Atleast we have concience unlike our relative Psychopaths.
Yes, im assuming you are one from what I can see with my own two eyes.

Agreed
Stare at a wall for 5 hours and don't think of anything
>I want external validation means that socially I'm the lowest form of scum that exists anyway, which just reinforces the whole thing in the first place.
Just a self aware whore nothing to see here lads

Disgusting homo

Based

Fuck off, she doesn't come here.

I STILL LOVE YOU YOU RASCAL
OH MY GOD

The worst misandrists can do, even if you stretch it to their oft espoused "believe all victims" narrative, it pales in comparison to the threat male misogynists pose to women and society. You have some retarded in this thread who's been going on about mutilating women because boohoo be has to pay for his crotch fruit. He stuck his dick in a woman, got burned, and now he's this close to going on a murderous rampage. Men are a fucking menace, 100+ years ago there were wars to cut them down so their natural violence existed in sympatico with civilization, weak men were culled, their widows moved on to stronger men, and that's the way it worked. We didn't have this ridiculous surplus of human beings whose only purpose was to engage in violence just sitting around expecting their lives to go swimmingly (or else) and just look at it now, we have to pray cartoons and video games keep them distracted long enough so that they don't flip out, rape, rob, and murder.
There are a handful of clever men who can construct and order civilization but they are a very small minority. The vast majority, like women, are mostly useless, but women aren't committing most of the crime either.

>I know what a narcissist is, I don't need to define it.

>Because you are delusional and a narcissist.

That's funny. You're funny. So first you refuse to define for me what a "narcissist" is, and then you insist on calling me a narcissist.

>Don't fucking post here, no one wants your average information.

What are you, a mod? I can post here however much I damn well please.

>you wrote 110-120 then you disputed the average intelligence range, which you were wrong about. Now you are ignoring that you're in an average IQ bracket.

Yes. According to the Stanford–Binet Intelligence Scale, an IQ of 90-109 is considered "average" and an IQ of 110-119 is considered a "high average". But as I already wrote in this post here:

>I seriously doubt that you care, but my intelligence quotient has been officially evaluated by an actual psychologist, and he determined that my IQ is in the, "above average range" (somewhere between 110 - 120). Therefore: by definition I am NOT stupid. But go ahead. Keep thinking that I am stupid if it makes you feel better about your poor arguments.

My IQ was determined to be as high as 120, which is considered "superior".

'bout bloody time. No room for things not worth being thought.

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I took a massive green dump this morning and my God it felt so comfortable.
It's like I dropped 25 lbs just into the toilet!
Yet it flushed just fine!

Don't misunderstand.
I know you're angry at me right now but you pulled the strings in order to provoke me and I caught you once again now that theres damage.
It gave us closure though..

And once I see you, 50% im gonna hold myself back, 50% im gonna hug you like theres no tomorrow. You're the best!

Should I hug you or not? You're just so cute and adorable

Me too, been gorging on salad and beans to feed my gut critters and it honestly feels great. I hope they take good care of me.

I feel better today. I got everything off my chest in that message and it's nice to have it in the open. I know you're too busy to reply right now. I know you're having a blast out there with your friends. I hope when you come home you'll have a nice message to respond to me.

Thinking of you as always.

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I don't do well with women.
I try to improve by chatting up every cute girl I meet. Make some pleasant small talk, playful flirting with the hopes that they get a good experience when they talk to me.

Today I was at the doctor's. There was a cute girl there and I basically did the same. She was such a nice person. I felt so bad when I handed her my urine sample.

If it feels like a semi hard giant soft serve ice cream coming out of you, it's working.

To think I had clumpy painful sausages or rabbit pellets coming out of me a couple days ago. Whew!

Nice joke. Hopefully it's a joke, right... right?

You're not a sociopath, you're an autist kek

I need you to choke me harder and more frequently
Please, you introduced me to this I want more
More please

The way you caress and pet my neck just before you start squeezing
The way you kiss me while doing it
The way you stare into my eyes
I need more!

>coworkers: haha wouldnt it be funny if you and X got married

(X being another coworker... who was in the room)

i didnt know how to react at all. i actually do like this person

I never thought sex was a big deal until I got with you, T. I never thought I could cum from dick alone so I stayed out of dating and sex because I didn't think anything could make me cum except myself. You rocked my world this body is yours you clearly know what you're doing I cum every time several times. I love you

That's not what I meant by "misandrists". Run-of-the-mill feminist tumblrinas who are just biased towards their own sex because of political correctness are not misandrists. Actual misandrists want to kill all men without mercy and post "research" on why men are objectively genetically inferior and why that makes guys inherently malicious. These "people" believe all men are retarded beasts that cannot help but be disgusting useless pigs, all because daddy abandoned them when they were little girls or because their low self-esteem could only attract abusive boyfriends. They do exist and I've seen them with my own eyes. Sound familiar? They are and do exactly the same shit as misogynists that have blogs such as "womenarestupid.net", they're both annoying scum that only makes the world a shittier place to live.

You should die

One time I had a kid come over to my house and tell me that my house was small and boring. So then I told him that my house was small because I had an amazing secret basement full of games and toys that I never tell anyone about. This kid wanted to see it really badly at that point, so I told him to wait outside the basement door so I could get the games and toys ready for him. I took a bucket of glitter mixed in with super glue and set it up on the top of the basement door. I gave the kid the cue to come inside, and when he opened the door, I stabbed him.

It's her job to handle people's urine sample, jesus. Don't be disgusted at every natural bodily function, especially in a medical context.
But I'm glad to see at least one optimistic guy improving his social skills. I'd say that you don't need to practice something that should come off naturally with a girl that is your type, though.

>Seriously, you are a mistake of nature. I can't imagine anyone liking you.

And here you just resort to argumentum ad hominem. You're attacking my character rather my argument, because you have nothing to attack my argument with.

For
Whoops

Please don't do that

Ok.

You're neither of those things, you're nothing more than an attention whore.

Why are you ignoring me

To each their own, I guess.

Im larping.

Real sociopaths can't love

You mean RPing.

You were my teacher and that's all that is but your gaze felt electric. Soon you will be a memory of the past, an unforgettable fantasy.

And the reason you haven't killed yourself is...?

Have you seen my pearls?