Fucked situation (worth the read)

>have friend but not really, just some guy I hung out with, he's like 5 years older than me
>friend is a player and sleeps with women once and throws them aside
>friend fucks this mutual female friend of ours
>at the time I barely knew this girl and didn't give a shit about her
>we are both 19
>actually found her quite unattractive honestly
>she gets tossed aside and is a sad cunt about it
>due to a shitty situation I end up relying on this girl for lifts and shit
>naturally when you're stuck in the car with someone you get to know them
>over the course of half a year I really get to know this girl
>fuck, we have a lot in common
>fuck, she's actually kinda a cool person
>fuck, she's gone out her way to do a lot for me recently
>eventually she moves on from and gets tinder
>wasn't sure how I felt about her at this point
>felt a little jealous seeing her on her phone on tinder all the time
>spontaneously decide to ask her on a date
>fast forward 2-3 months
>things are now getting pretty serious between us
>have caught myself feeling in love with this girl
>for some reason I find her incredibly attractive now
>debating letting her take my virginity
>she makes me feel super happy
>but I'm a little disgusted she hooked up with our mutual friend

The thing is... I can get past it honestly, but I am afraid if I commit myself to this woman, in a few years to come I might grow bitter and resentful over it?

I have no fucking clue how I'm going to feel after we fuck, and I'm afraid I'm going to break my own heart here.

Do I fuck and just lose my virginity cause it means nothing anyway? Do I spend years and years with this woman? Do I leave now, even though we've gotten comfortable with each others families?

alternatively I can kill myself

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She sounds like a whore, but if you're happy with her then go for it

I don't think she is necessarily, I think she was just manipulated in this situation. But I don't know her full sexual history, so I could be wrong.
Thing is man, we are close enough now I could ask, but I'm not sure I'd wanna hear the answer.

Its this uncertainty that's scaring me

I forgot to include some context, but I'm not perfect myself. I have a few things eating away at me, and that was partly why I let myself fall in love with this woman. We can be fuck ups together.

wtf op? You said its worth the read. This some basic boring shit. Why didnt you fuck yet?
>debating letting her take my virginity
Dude its just fucking. Your holding your virginity to a pillar. Its not even a real thing holy shit.

You cropped out the part where I said I don't really even value virginity anymore
But yeah I knew if I said its worth the read people would read it and give me advice lol

I don't value your opinion much tho

Don't overthink it. My first gf was a huge whore, but I thought she was gorgeous and she was the only one who'd have me. I fucked her and it was lots of good practice for better, hotter girls.

Just don't get her pregnant.

>I don't value your opinion much tho
Okay? and you didnt say you dont value your virginity.
>debating letting her take my virginity
This just proves you put it on a pillar.
Anyways who tf cares she fucked your friend? Your the only one bothered. People have sex boohoo

Lol nice bait but I've been here too long

what? how is it bait?

You're being contrariant about irrelevant things that I don't actually care about lol

dont be proud for being on this shitty ass website for too long dude.

how? Im telling its not a big deal that your girl fucked your friend before you got together and that your virginity shouldnt be something you value or w.e
Thats literary what you posted. Like dude?

baiting me into replying to the bait

not proud, its just the shitty truth. About to turn 20, first started posting at 13. FML.

im not baiting bro i swear. Damn fr 13? Ive been around since i was 18. 19 now. So like around 8 months ago.

Yeah it really fucked me up, won't lie. I didn't even realise it until I turned 18 just how much damage over exposure to porn, gore and memes can really do you.

Which is actually one reason I love this girl, she's so innocent, shows me Facebook memes on her phone and it melts my heart. Inspires me to be a better person.

>I don't think she is necessarily, I think she was just manipulated in this situation.
She spread her legs for a manwhore. Ergo, she's a whore.
If you can't keep it in your pants before marriage, you will also be a manwhore.

damn. Thank god I didnt get into this at a young age. At least now im old enough to know those things and ignore them. Then your good bro. Keep on dating her. Its w.e that your friend was with her before you guys met. As long as your both happy then its all good.

dog this site is 16 years old there are people who started in their single digits and in their late 20s now, entire life lived on Jow Forums.

This is a dark place.

>2012
lmao newfag

wow. this made me feel better about my life. thanks user