Long story short I want the insurance money to go to my Ex and child need to know a method that would still allow for that
Suicide method look like an accident
Just dont
>want suicide money to go to my ex and child
what the fuck is wrong with heterosexuals? seriously
I'm not asking for help with not doing it. If I'm going to do it id rather them not being financially fucked because of my weakness. I can't take it anymore. I csntkrep doingtjid so please just hell me make sure they'll be taken care kf
Probably a car crash, don't crash into someone like a dickhead tho, hit a tree like Paul Walker or something
I still care about her I fucked up I was the reasonwe didn't work out. So yea. I want her taken care of and I want my child to be taken care of. I know it sounds weird that I want my daughter to be able to have a college fund and to be financially stable
>Killing yourself to help an EX
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How about instead:
>Get a job.
>Help your child.
>Tell your ex to fuck off.
>????????
>Live a good life.
I've been thinking about it problem isnif your going to fast or not wearing a seatbelt they can deny coverage. My best bet would be to drive off this ravine into this little Creek in the country I pass it on my way to see my kid every day. It's about a thirty foot drop into anywhere from a foot to 20 feet of water depending on the weather
Is this why you are suicidal?
What happened user?
How about you tell us why then at least
It sounds weird because you are trying to kill yourself over it, you fucking sperg. How about stay alive and help your daughter directly? Besides you don't know what your exgf might do with the money if you are dead. She can still fuck your daughter over if she wants to.
Dude I'm the one who cheated on her becausenicthough she was cheating on me we were engaged she said she wanted to break up with me and I feltnused and I just didn't want to be alone so I sexted this girl and tried getting with her my ex found out and said we were really done and that she was coming to tell me she wanted to get back together I'm the fuckup here. She didn't do anything I have a job i work overtime but I only make 9.75 thankfully my parents still have life insurance out on me.
I'm sorry you're hurting, OP.
But don't /wrists.
Show your child that despite life slamming you to the floor, you gotta get back and up keep swinging back. Seek professional therapy, go to your local city social center and ask around for help for information about financial assistance, housing assistance, debt forgiveness programs or whatever it is that you need.
Your sperm out of literal millions of other made it to the egg first. This means that you out of a million other potential people, won the lotto of life. You got the chance they never did. Don't waste this chance, my dude. You are a one in a multi-million chance and you WON. That right there automatically makes you worthy.
It's never too late to re-evaluate. It's never too late to re-build and re-create your life over again. You just need help sometimes and there's no shame in exhausting every possibility of getting that help before you quit.
Good luck, OP. I don't know what you're going through, but for what it's worth - I care about you and want you to be happy.
Okay I get it but how about you forget about your fuck-ups for a second and think about your daughter. You seem to care for her so suck it up, fucking do what's right and let her have a father.
I've been suicidal since I was eleven. She's the only person who's ever made it better and helped me to be able to take care of myself or tolerate myself. I used to be an addict and a drunk before I got with her. She never told me I had to quit.. but I wanted to because she made me want to live. I just can't anymore the guilt and everything the meds don't help or are making it worse I can't even tell anymore. they'll be better off without me. She is a wonderful mother.
You really gonna let your girl grow up without a father? You better get your fucking life together and be there for her, cuz she wont forgive you if you dont.
I'm trying to get help I'm on a litany of prescriptions for anxiety and depression I'm going to a psychologist here soon for the first time. Because I just can't do it anymore. But idk if I'm going to. Even make it to then. I feel like I'm drowning constantly. there's so much going wrong with me. I'm dropping weight because I'm not eating I sleep 1-4 hrs a day the rest I go to work then when I get off nightshift I go to my ex's to watch the kids till she gets off work at like noon or one and then I go and crash onxa couch or she lets me crash at her place then go to work by five or six . My memory is going. I've been fiendjng for things I've given up and I've beenxself harming again to dealxwofh cravings and suicidal urges I just can't take it anymore. The last time ixstsrted dropping weight I went from286 to 132 lbs within six months just because when I get depressed or anxiousni forget slash get so nauseas that I can't
Come on man fight. Do it for her, she didn't do no wrong for you to take her father
Have you tried therapy?
If so, how did that go?
She'll be better off than having a degenerate around.cjm still clean relasped when it first happened on pills but haven't gone back since. I'm trying my best to be there but if I can't be there I need them taken care of which is why I asked. I need to know they'll be ok if I'm too weak.
When I went my parents guilt tripped me and made me feel worse about it so I gave up on going.vim going to try again.butnidk even without that it didn't help. I couldn't open up. Too worried about being locked up in a ward or something
Shit get's tough but give therapy a chance, and if you can give your daughter another one. You have nothing to lose. If you are stll suicidal after that you can still go through with it. Just let het have a father. I got abused by my mother, if I didn't have my father to help me I'd most likely be dead by now. Just give her a chance OP
Stop trying to argue with him.
He has to decide for himself. If you want to help you have to guide him, not tell him what to do.
Shut the fuck up you faggot, get of the pills, stop taking the fucking prescription shit, because it doesn't work, buy melatonin and get your sleep schedule on track, start to force yourself to eat and spend time outside. And start exercising.
I dont give a fuck about you but you can't let your daughter grow up a) without a father or b) with a failure, so fucking get your life back on track. Do it for her, everything.
>attach helium balloons to pistol
>go to beach
>shoot self
I'm this poster.
My father is an ex-convict and he did all kinds of drugs, and he was there when I needed him the most. Stop listening to your parents, try therapy and give life another go man shit gets better I promise and if it doesn't come fast enough you can just off yourself after. Come on man.
I'm trying but I can't describe how I feel. It isn't just this. My memorys going my bodies going. Two of my teeth are turning black from negligence because I can't bring myself to take care of myself. I feel like I deserve to fall to pieces and I'm trying I've been taking better care of myself the most part cnot as much lately but before I was. I m terrified I'll be my parents to her. I love her more than anything j just need them to be taken care of. I was planning on leaving tapes in a safety deposit box that would be entrusted tocher mom so that she could play them for each occasion .. honestly she'd be better off if my ex found someone good and never mentioned me I'd just be an ex and she'd have a dad.. it kills me but to spare her id. Be ok with it
>cjm still clean relasped when it first happened on pills but haven't gone back since.
That's good, OP.
> I'm trying my best to be there but if I can't be there I need them taken care of which is why I asked.
It sounds like you care about your family.
>Weak
Going through relapse and all that... Personally, I don't think that's weak at all. I'm not sure even I am strong enough to get over drugs... Even get away from them enough for relapse to happen.
Cut your own parking brakes. It will seem like murder. Or go kayaking into the sea, sneak a gun and some weights, kill yourself with weights attached and you'll be considered lost at sea. Make sure you tell people you're going kayaking and seem excited about it
You seem like you care. Just give yourself another chance man, your daughter deserves someone who cares about her.
Melatonin doesn't work I've tried so many natural remedies. I've been an insomniac since around age 10 or so I try to but I just puke. i don't gag myself or anything. Two or three bites and then I'm in the bathroom dry heaving the last of it. Because my stomach feels sofucked. I don't have time I essentially work a twenty hr daybeteeen watching the baby and work and I'm trying to find anything thatll help medicine with psychology is kind of a shotgun method of trial and error. And if I went off all of my meds rn I would off myself from the withdrawal I'm on Ritalin ( I don't abuse it speed was never my thing ) Lexapro buspar and citalopram except for the Ritalin very high doses. Been going to a gp trying to go to a legit doc for it
This is WHY you go to a professional, though. You have all these things happening and no answers. They will go over things with you and help you learn how to deal with these things one step at a time until they are no longer causing you pain. That's their job.
Go to the doctor. Tell him everything you told us and ask for his advice or information to resources and specialists. Harvest as much information as you can.
Good luck.
I went on citalopram and it caused me those exact symptoms I couldn't eat and i would vomit really easily. Get off of some meds man they are poison.
Theyre all I had. They were the only reason I kept going. A strong person wouldn't of done what I did and wouldn't need what I need or have the issues I have man. If I was strong I wouldn't be considering suicide enough to be posting for advice on execution when she broke up with me I had a mental breakdown. Almost killed myself decided instead to try pretending I wasn't alone. ended up self sabotaging and fucking it all up then she found out.
When I go without them (because I normally will sooner give my cash to my ex than use them for my meds) I end up horrifically suicidal. Like I'm not there at all. .
Citalopram is fucking toxic man, it is what is causing the puking and the loss of appetite. Stop taking all of the meds they prescribe, most of it is fucking poison that disables all feelings.
Shhh, Satan - nobody rattled your cage. You'll probably get your due, but be quiet and let the angels try to do their job before then.
I'm not saying get off ALL meds you clearly need mefication, but there's something not really working on that combo if you are not eating or sleeping. Just fuck you parents and give therapy a chance, let them guide you through meds.
Well I think you are strong, in any case.
But have you tried therapy?
Aren't you already???
It doesn't disable feelings. For me idk what it does but def not that I'll talk to my doc about the stomach issues
If you dont know what it does, then why the fuck are you taking it?
Worse it reminds me of when j kicked opiates cold turkey. Mentally speaking
It might help at this point I just don't know if it does or doesn't or makes it worse or what
You were able to kick that habit, you where able to push through that time, so will you this time.
It might make it worse
I was with her only reason I could or wanted to only reason I'm not back on it is my daughter
Do this too for her then