So I fucked up...

Ayo, this guy gets it.

>So I fucked up, I was so overly desperate to get any female attention because I never had a girlfriend that when this girl showed me even a slight bit of it I ran straight to her and now we're dating.
You're young and stupid. You're allowed to fuck up. I gave my heart to a girl who crushed it on a video call. Just love yourself before anyone else.

>Thing is she's fucking mental, bipolar, jealous... everything. Every second day she's overly mad and triggered about something stupid like for example me not being able to call her on phone once because I was at in the bus and everything was loud, or the time she got mad over me telling a joke where she said she liked something on me and I said "well better look for that thing when getting the next boyfriend if we break up".
Is she spanish or white? Glorious Asian master race ftw

>And she's really fucking pissed when she is telling me the worst shit ever but still clings onto after than. She thinks we're going to marry and doesn't even wanna think about ever breaking up and said that if I do it to her she's gonna cry a lot and hate me forever.
A lot of people will hate you for the smallest things. Let her cry. Tell her to get off the cross and build a bridge and get over it.

>She even fucking cuts herself sometimes, she pushes every friend or person she has ever had away from her because she has moments when she's extremely rude narcissistic manipulative and just bat shit crazy. Even tried killing herself a couple of times.
Shes an attention seeking cunt if she cant go through with it. Tell her to admit herself for a week.

>What the fuck do I do I'm already knees deep in this, how do I break up when the time comes? I don't wanna break up yet but Jesus I feel like I'm gonna get murdered when I do.
Rape. If shes that in love with you, get all the sex you can out the way. Use that experience with your next nut case.

i don't know user, she did try it a couple of times in the past.
She's white, we aren't from a country where you can find other races.

I do tell her she's really insecure and weak once in a while when we're in an argument and she's doing crazy shit and insulting me the worst ways possible.

But how do I break up with her without her ruining my life when I do normally

>What the fuck do I do
Break up with her, retard. If you are going to let someone walk all over you, you deserve it.

>But how do I break up with her without her ruining my life
How will she ruin your life if you break up? What does she have on you?

ok listen here OP, to this problem there's only one solution:
as tarantino would say:
>DICK DICK DICK DICK, DICK DICK DICK
dont rape her tho

Look you can
1 dumb her and fk it
2 fkn speak with and try to find the source of the problem one has its motives, insecurelities , existential problems and try to cure her mental state , its hard but not imposible try turning to phylosophy and from here : stay with her or dump her
3 or take number 1

Be her slave. That's what you subhumans are predisposed to anyway.

Holy shit senpai are you me? Because I had the exact same thing. But I dumped her on Saturday. ¨

1/2

She was my first gf too and she had all the things you described - bipolar as fuck (like one day everything was hugs & kisses and the next day she outright hated me), extremely jealous (to the point I couldn’t say I like a particular female singers voice or give props to an actresses acting abilities) and got upset over the most retarded things (like me jokingly saying that I look good in that faceapp bullshit that turns you into a girl).
When I didn’t text for like one day - she got pissed. When my text were too short, didn’t have any bullshit kissing emojis or just "not good enough" she got pissed. When I didn’t reply to every nonsense thing on Facebook where she tagged me – she got pissed.
When I once that I don’t want kids she immediately took it like I don’t want kids with HER and just kept dragging this out.
And yeah, she even had the suicide attempts in the past.

I always tried to make her happy, so every change in the relationship had to come from me. I moved in, neglected my friends who actually cared about me, downloaded WhatsApp to monitor her like a baby, never kept her alone for more than 2 days and had to fugg her every 2 days just to keep her batshit level down.

It became a fucking chore. And It wasn’t making me happy. And no matter what I did, she still kept getting mad at absolutely frivolous bullshit. Its like every month you had to take a shower in insults and arguments and just fucking take it.

2/2

But last week I had enough. You can belittle a guy so much, that he just takes off and leaves. So on Saturday I packed up my shit, said my goodbyes and calmly moved out from her flat. There was a lot of crying on her part, but I just wanted to be out of there and out of that toxic relationship.

Now its Thursday and I keep getting angry messages like every hour (where does she find the fucking time?). She blocked and deleted me from all social media, but the texts keep coming. And they’re fucking vile. That I’m a piece of shit, a coward, a child, a dickhead, not worthy of her, that I never loved her, yadayadayada… I think you can imagine. I ignored them because I know that if I reply then I will be just fueling her. And my silence has to make her fucking fume because now the texts have turned into outright threats (like “you deserve to get beaten”). I’m not scared of her but I am scared she will do some shit to my house or key the car or some other crazy bitch shit.

Sorry for the blog post and I’m not telling you to do it this way, but you absolutely NEED to get out of that relationship. Aside from fearing that a brick will come crashing thru my window, I feel absolutely great that I’m no longer with her. People like this will suck out your soul. Godspeed user.

Where do I find a gf like that?

My advice op, enjoy the amazing sex, that bipo girls are famous for, then when you are done with her, just become clingy and jealous and she'll drop you herself.
I myself work at an acute psych ward and pick up bipo girls from there regularly, Sure, they can be a hassle, but if you know how to turn them off, they'd flake just as fast as get interested in you.

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Why do you type like a retard? Have you suffered brain damage?
This. If OP hasn't dumped her already he is a worthless subhuman who will never learn from his mistakes and deserves a lifetime of suffering.

bump

Fucking hell man that sounds horrible, why don't you just report her to the police?

The fact that OP is long gone from this thread but people still come and bump and write saddens me a lot.
There's really that many of you who experience this huh? Maybe I'm better off single, I hope you all make it work in the end!

Bipolar has nothing to do with what you guys are describing here. It's become some retarded catch-all term for emotionally unstable women, but that's not what bipolar disorder is. If anything the whole love you-hate you switching pattern called splitting is characteristic with borderline personality disorder which is something else entirely.