I can't stand the loneliness anymore, sometimes I go months and feel fine, sometimes I manage to last a couple years, but I'm sick of this, I'm sick of having absolutely nobody except myself, I'm so lonely, I think about killing myself every day, I don't know how to make friends and I want a girlfriend.
I can't do this anymore, I'm trying to just bee myself and do self improvement and stuff like everyone says but I can't take it, when will I be good enough to have friends and a girlfriend, I can't take it anymore
Every few months it hits me that despite all of my hard work nothing has changed, and this has happened my whole life
>Elementary school ending, about to start middle school
>I can get a fresh start now, and start being normal
>Middle school ending, about to start high school
>I can get a fresh start now, and start being normal
>High school ending, about to start college
>I can get a REAL fresh start now, and start being normal
>College ending, about to move away from home for work
>I can get a 100% COMPLETE fresh start now, and start being normal
>Worked for a few years, about to get settled in to my new life
>Okay now maybe I'll be able to start being normal now, any day now
I can't do it, please tell me how to do this, please tell me how to make friends and get a girlfriend, I can't take this anymore