How are you holding up bros? Doing all right?

>not grooming your little nephew into being a model wife

i got an exam tomorrow
not sure if i'll pass
maybe i will

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Ignoring calls and emails from one job in the hopes they fire me. Apparently they've scheduled me to renew a certificate Wednesday. I won't be going.

Other job might give me some work this month, not enough to live off but I've got some money saved. I'd get more hours if I had a driver's license and car so I've been practising everyday for an hour or two with my mother.

Not in an ideal situation but I've got 3 months being frugal until it's panic mode. Will probably have to find new job.

I'm doing great! Happier than a pig in shit today. I love money, I bought a new vape, the dentist said my wisdom teeth are going to replace the ones I got exracted, I'm quitting smoking, I had a burger
Thats it
Still the underlying "What is going on with my existence" vibe but it's like dumping a bucket of glitter on a turd today

Working out the final kinks in my suicide plan. Shame after seeing some neat stuff at E3 and such to be excited for, but I don't have anymore time left in my life anyways, so oh well.
>about being rejected.
Meh, you never know. Could go well. Do you know the girl at all, as in, are you already friends? What gives you the impression you're going to get rejected? It's not very special to be awkward, not everyone who gets a gf is turbochad. You'll probably still get rejected, though.

I really love this girl but she doesn't love me back and she wants to stay friends even though I made her promise to one day have something serious with me

I dunno...I'm sitting here naked, drinking Capri Suns and watching VHS tapes.

Not so bad. Might jerk off later because I don't feel like pillow talking gf.

>suicide plan
Tell us more, why does it need planning?

>are you already friends?
haha, hell no I'm too much of a shut-in to make friends with a girl. We do see eachother regularly though, she does know I exist and she made eyecontact with me at least.

what are you watching? i'm a bit of a tapehead too, they are very comfy.

not too well desu, i keep thinking i might go "missing" but its looking more and more like a viable option

>Tell us more, why does it need planning?
I live in butt-fuck nowhere. I'm home alone most days, so it's not an issue of discretion or strict timing, I just need an efficient way to kill myself that doesn't involve buying something suspicious as my family as threatened sending me off because I want to die. So I have to do it without a gun or a noose. I just have to get a little creative, which is why it needs a plan.

>hell no
Yeah I feel you there. Never had any friends irl and never had a female friend online, so I can't give you any advice on what to do there, unsurprisingly. If you don't want to cry or spill spaghetti, you could just go in with no expectations, just assume she's going to reject you and it'll be a lot easier to say what you want to say, and be done with it. Like pulling a tooth, you know?

>Doing all right?
Not really, but it's okay anyway.

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Why is cleaning and deciding which old stuff to throw away so hard. I consider myself the opposite of a hoarder but some of this stuff I haven't used in years might actually end up being useful, I guess that's hoarder mentality. I've got a shoe box full of mail and old pay stubs I have to go through and organize, usually just send it all to my mother to be filed away.

Podcasts are great for cleaning and organizing.

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You make me feel a little better. Sorry, I'm not sure how to put this
I don't want to tell you what to do, and I know well that for most suicidal people there's no other way out. But you seem like you still have some light, so it feels unfortunate.

I have had a mental breakdown 3 days in a row now. Feelsbadman

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Can't stop avoiding things I need to do and instead agonizing over it all day.

Depending on that other guy I might be freed from life soon, maybe even in a few months.

Finally finding some suicide partner who wants to go out with the same method.
Now it depends on whether he will send me an email or not and whether he trusts me or not as reliable suicide partner.

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Just DO IT. Now. Stop procrastinating.

If it was that easy it wouldn't be a problem

I was watching old Bubblegum Crisis tapes. Now I'm watching Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2

I woke up this afternoon, made my bed, made coffee, got on the computer.
Emptied all but one round out of the single mag for the single pistol i own and i intend to shoot myself sometime later today, if i can find the motivation to

What are you avoiding exactly?

Mostly checking my email and all things that could relate to the emails I may or may not have received

I'm alright.

I've been struggling with rapid weight loss and hormone issues because of my thyroid condition that has flared up significantly in the past month, and it has interrupted my goals and my life, like my romantic life, and joining the military, etc.

So now all I am doing is trying to cope by going back to being stuck in my room, taking medication, trying to gain weight, and just making sure I get plenty of love and affection from my online friends while hoping my family is patient with me. They sure as hell better be, since we had to call 911 the day after my birthday.

It just sucks because i've struggled my whole life with not knowing what to do, not having any opportunities, and i've been working so hard on following my dreams and being who I wanna be. I've got such drive. But now I've been reduced to a "robot". (Ex /b/tard) I don't like feeling powerless or just being forced to wait.

Another day that is probably 'successful', while I can't give a shit about it and another scar on the soul from another lonely eve.
Ja, doing all right I suppose.

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Jow Forums is ttrying to mess with me it is not funny

i will break up with my girlfriend soon of 3 years. i live with her in a foreign country and may become homeless afterwards. she will tell me i owe her a lot of money (her parents pay for our vacations and let us stay rent free at one of their apartments).

she is my first gf and i love her so much. but she screams at me like i'm a dog sometimes. i'd say i deserve it sometimes since i am pretty lazy and stupid, but i think this sounds like an answer an abused dog would give. so i believe breaking up must be done.

i worry so much now about how much i'll hurt her doing this. to the point of suicidal ideation.

at least there is a nice rainstorm to listen to now.