I think I just hit rock bottom Jow Forums
>got hit with a cold last week
>followed up with a fever because i’m weak
>spent 3 days recovering, masturbating to ((porn)) and playing vidya
>went down the rabbit hole
>continued to spend two more days doing same thing
>deciding to stop from now on
What’s the lowest point youve ever reached on your journey, Jow Forums?
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>a couple of days of being a degenerate
Holy shit man if that's your lowest point I think you're doing okay
I stopped going to uni for three months, did nothing but drink pot after pot of coffee and play fallout new vegas, while relistening to old episodes of cumtown. And I mean I did *literally* nothing else, barely even eat(bc the coffee blunted my appetite) and didn't even jack off. Still went to gym occssionally, but made zero progress and actually backslid on a few lifts
The worst part? It was easily the happiest I've ever been in my life
Gotta say, if that was the lowest point for you then you're doing okay.
Storytime chief?
>lowest point
>got sick and masturbated
Oh nooooes
I killed my dog because he annoyed me so much and I masturbated 3 hours later.
that isnt too bad user, you gotta change your outlook on life a little. each morning when you wake up write down 3 things you are gratefull for. See it from a different perspective.
despacito
How'd you kill it?
sleeping pills inside his food, enough to kill a man.
I didnt wanna torture him or that he feels pain.
its funny because I used to be such a big animal lover but animals just annoy me today.
Sorry lad, but you are mentally ill. At least you had a slight clear moment when you decided not to torture it.
Seek help
The girl who I loved more than anything else I've ever known left me in late 2017. It was probably a really dysfunctional relationship, I was more her father than her boyfriend but man, it worked for me. Her leaving me fucking destroyed me, like legitimately changed me permanently. It took me the entirety of 2018 to properly get over her. I spent the first quarter of the year wearing nothing but black like some generic emo faggot, barely eating, didn't exercise, barely left my room, didn't feel any positive emotion. The rest of the year up until probably August was basically the same but not quite as severe. Real recovery started in about September when I finally accepted she was never coming back. Even now i still get the occasional twang of sadness when I think about her.
>Sorry lad, but you are mentally ill
why should I seek help, i feel happy.
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because its not about happiness, being a sociopath is much more degenerate then beeing a faggot, seek help
Christmas just gone. I didn't go to the gym for nearly 3 weeks, and ate terrible food everyday, not even over the Christmas-New Year period, just everyday. I felt fuuuucking awful, it's been good to get back on it.
Finished up last year with 3 big runs and an 18km march up a steep 1000m hill by my house. Knew I wouldn't get to the gym, so I just relaxed and didn't drink too much. Got back to the gym two days and felt something out of wack, like I needed vitamins. That night hit by the flu. Two days later I feel like going for a run again, almost. There are going to be dark times. Just try to do something productive, not damaging. go for a walk, stretch. read a book, learn about penguins on youtube because one day you might have children who want to know about penguins.
my entire life has been a rock bottom and i can't improve it no matter what
Well, OP.
Imagine all that being the bigger part of your teenage years.
>develop allergies, not sure against what, have had a cold on and off for about 1 1/2 year; cant do any of the sports and outdoor activities I used to do like hiking, bicycling, cyclocross etc; only lifting is OK but with little progress; doctors still clueless
>developed cyste; had a 2nd asshole for months and couldnt do shit
>quit long-distance relationship with gf - other option would have been to marry her (visa issues) and I did not want that; never met anybody new
>got tricked into terrible PhD position; surrounded by the worst ppl I have ever met in my life and hate every second of it; not getting anywhere with my research because my lab is a trash allover; totally hating my job but I keep on doing it because I will have a PhD title from one of Europes best universities and salary is OK since Im in Switzerland
>Most bad habbits I overcame came back: started vidya again, failed nofap and started being porn addicted again, started occasionally smoking again (used to white trash-ish person until I made it)
>depressive mood all the time; cant sozialize; did not make any friends since moving here; alone all the time
I just started recovering. Im able to lift my mood through
>lifting
>nofap
I hope doctors will make some progress as well. And in 2 1/2 years my PhD is done, will be earning six figures afterwards. But currently life is hard.
What are the blue things on the table next to the beer bottles and TV?
I tend to go through a really black pilled phase every two months of so where it’s hard for me to even get out of bed
That had better be a Chihuahua you sick fuck. How can u kill ur best bro when there is nothing wrong with him?
Been there bro, although mine lasted for 5 years because she could never quite let go of me completely. She didn’t even fuck around or anything because she just doesn’t care about anyone.
I know that feel bro... I try to take at least 1 vacation a year(10-14 days), when I do nothing but playing vidya all day, happiest I am for the year, but the snap back to reality hurts... girlfriend, work etc.
Grandfather died back in September (on the 11th to add salt to the wound) after being bed ridden most of the year and basically a vegetable after a major stroke. I went on a fuck it bender of fast food, alcohol, and porn; gained about 15lbs and overall felt like a piece of shit. Back on the horse now since I really can't risk sliding back to my old weight cause I will inevitably gain more and really lose control. Grandpa would want me to be better than my vices.
I need that too. Although, flying somewhere warm and cheap and living in a rental car does it as well. I just take some books with me (fiction, not text books which I usually read) and drive around discovering the area, eating in OKish restaurants and sleeping in my car when I please.
New Vegas is sick, but I just can't get into Cumtown. Their personalities are grating and it's not very funny. Any episode recs?
You need to find a fulfilling job. I'm still a student but recently I had a period when I had to do work at home and could work 10-12 hours ez, slept 8h and it felt like a holiday because I had a break from seeing other people and ate whatever I felt like. I chose a pretty hard career but I can't imagine wagecucking, it would kill my soul
you're a sick fuck man, that dog loved you more than any thot or gymbro ever will and you betrayed his trust in the most permanent way
I feel you bro. My grandpa died over a month ago and it fucking hurts but I tell myself that I need to look forward to the future and better myself. I didn't start binging, actually worked pretty hard but it was emotionally crushing
i would use my gains to murder you, and it wouldn't be sleeping pills. I'd bash your head in with a dumbbell
Absolute bullshit, Coldsteel.
Sick fuck. Even if you didn't want him at least give him a different home or to a shelter.
>It was probably a really dysfunctional relationship, I was more her father than her boyfriend
how? can you elaborate?
ive always wondered why wojak has hockey gear in this pic. i know it implies he plays but ive never met any other players that seem like >tfwnogf modes. it opens a lot of questions about his lore was he born in canada and forced into it like ameriburgers are with soccer? does he like the game but have distaste for the general douchebaggery surrounding the atmosphere? is it his /cope/ and reason to lift?
autistic i know but thats why wojak pics are so powerful
dude I know you are emotional but I'm the last person on Jow Forums you can fight with.
Well I can't complain about my work, I changed it last year and have an unlimited home office, flexible hours, not much supervision... but that's a double-edged blade since often times when I don't have too much to do I found myself procrastinating on the things that I should do... anyway I am reading up on investing - stocks/forex so that will hopefully make my 9-5 more interesting