Post the place you have felt the most centered and happy. The place you could die happy in. >be 16 and a loner in highschool. >be 16 and intrested in cybersecurity. >no internet at home. >shitty old dell laptop used to play runescape and browse Jow Forums. >usb drive loaded with 32bit backtrack 5r2 iso file. >computer lab teacher would let me stay until school closed alone in computer lab because home be awful and he could tell. >use schools internet connection and computer to scan internet for nullable sites. >use backtrack to upload shell to shitty sites with sqli vuln. >learn about webdev and php from 16 to 18. >changes the course of life forever. now thinking back on it that computer lab saved my life. growing up in oakland is shit. people die or end up in jail getting raped till they die all around me. Thinking back on it now at 22 if it wasn't for that computer lab in my highschool; I would have most likely taken up drugs or ended up working at walmart for the rest of my life until I killed myself. That computer lab and the time I spent in it those 4 years in highschool changed my life for the better. I think when I die, I want to go back to that computer lab. that would be my heaven.
that sounds comfy m8 there was a park my friends and I would spend all of our time in before everyone individually went off the rails miss that place
Dominic Ward
why wait until you die? why not nurture other people going through similar situations with their own safe computer lab space? there are probably volunteer positions for at risk youth interested in computer science.
Joseph Ortiz
I love going to parks that are empty in the summer time. just going there smoking tabacco and listening to feint on my headphones.
>goodtimes
Hunter Young
I've never seen a school computer room like that without CRTs weird feel, man
Austin Ross
The academy I attended in my last 2 years of high school. It was the only time I actually enjoyed going to school as the teachers were nice, rules were relaxed, I got to do a lot of computer related stuff, the students were accepting of loners, losers, outcasts, and LGBT (I'm gay and in the South). Despite being a loner initially I managed to acquire and become the leader of a large group of friends. It was also just before I gained a large amount of weight, developed back problems, and developed mental problems so bad my psychiatrist thought I was bi-polar for half of university. I also had no expectations of me at home aside from go to school and do course work. I also could more easily identify with my age as I'm 24 but mentally I'm still like 16-18 and accidentally refer to myself as a kid and feel like I'm doing something illegal when I buy smokes or alcohol.
I always thought university and "the real world" would be better but reality just has made me miserable.
Jason Barnes
>why wait until you die? why not nurture other people going through similar situations with their own safe computer lab space? there are probably volunteer positions for at risk youth interested in computer science.
there was an opening at my local computer store. I was thinking about just applying part time and sharing the method i use to make monero(crypto) online.
i dont know. one of the things that got my intrested in cyber security was reading articles about APT groups on the internet like Lazarus Group. Those guys made 89 million dollars just by spear phishing a bank in the east and using the swift terminals inside the bank to wire millions to accounts in manila.
reading that and reading the old milw0rm and lulzsec documents made me take an intrest in cybersecurity. started using python 2.7 and py2exe to write this exe that once it executes it use AES encryption to lock a windows users files and then it uses gmail's smtp lib to send me the encryption key it generates to lock them and drops a txt file inside the users desktop that will open once the files are done being locked.
once its locked, it opens the txt file with my email address and if they want the key to unlock the files; they have to buy monero and send it to my wallet.
it fails 9/10; most people reformat the drive. but those 1/10 it works; I get paid. I just need more people to spam the rtf file with the exe hidden inside so we can make more and more monero and get out of this shithole state called california.
I was thinking about trying to use the computer lab and the younger kids I see going there alot to use the computers to play LoL as a way to help them and help me make money that way online.
I do want to teach them python. it was something that has made me a pretty good amount of money in my early adulthood. although I dont know how receptive they will be to the idea.
Lucas Peterson
probably stay away from the l33t hacking if youre trying to inspire the youth. just my two cents. it could be important to those kids to see someone from where they're from make a good amount of money. I'm sure they're interest in python would be peaked if they knew it was a lucrative skill to have.
Luis Martin
>I'm gay and in the South feel you there.
I grew up in a pretty fucked part of northern california. Im hispanic/white mom is mexican dad is was white. all the beans in the area hated anyone who didn't act like a thug and "repped" the "block".
they hated me because I played runescape and liked anime. it cant come close to what it must feel like being gay and growing up in the south. if the stories I hear online are true; it must suck.
i would try and find an online community in discord or irc. most are very welcoming to LGBT and they are actually pretty cool people in general.
I never really had a group of friends. Even my cousins growing up hated me because "your not really mexican because your dad is a gringo" and they say brown people cant be racist? Yeah I hated the mexicans growing up in my neighborhood and school. I just take comfort in knowing most of then are either dead or in jail because of the path they chose to take.
and it doesn't matter if you are a kid inside. look at your parents user; do they look happy being adults? I much rather be a kid forever if I could then be an adult. kids are not assholes yet.
Isaiah Cook
Happy places huh? >Old HS computer class. I miss that place and my old teacher. >my friends dads garage I worked on my car for a few months in Really the only two places i can honestly say i smile when i think about
Ethan Lee
my happy place was the choir room in high school. i always stayed after on the last day of school. i was really close with my teacher and he was my father figure during my teenage years. most of my friends were in choir and it was the one place where i felt comfortable and excelled. im glad i got to spend so much time there. i was a teachers aide and in the top audition choirs and all that shit. felt more like home than my home. i miss those days. never know how great you have it. i cant believe that im 21 now
Brayden Hernandez
Honestly highschool. Everything just made sense. Got up at a certain time, went to classes and ate, everything on a certain time. There was some order to the madness. Having just turned 25 looking back I still want to go back, more and more with each year.
>probably stay away from the l33t hacking if youre trying to inspire the youth. just my two cents. it could be important to those kids to see someone from where they're from make a good amount of money. I'm sure they're interest in python would be peaked if they knew it was a lucrative skill to have.
the only actual job that I have is being a desk jocky for a day care center managing their officer software and website. I'm "The computer guy" in the small company. most of my job is running patches on server inside the main office and driving around to the 2 other locations when the computers are having a problem. sometimes I make the computers slow by using my LANvisor to remote into them and overloading the ram with a heavy exe so I can stay on the clock and earn more hours since its only part time.
i dont know if most kids in inner city oakland are too intrested in doing that type of work for shit pay to be honest. I mean sure its better then working at burgerking or being a rent-a-cop at a mall somewhere; but I feel like my pitch to them has to come from a place of making it out of the ghetto since most deep down all really just want to leave this shithole city.
I feel like it has to come from the same place it came from when it was my turn. my line of thinking at 17 was "I want to be good at hacking; and I want to make money doing it, so I can move out of oakland and see paris"
>I've always wanted to see paris.
Thomas Butler
To add on, I had friends, I had a life, hope, truly felt happiness. Messing around on Jow Forums, care free, if I was to die, I would happily die there. My dream is to one day return as a teacher, work there. Just want to be back where I belong.
Dylan Lewis
> it cant come close to what it must feel like being gay and growing up in the south. if the stories I hear online are true; it must suck. It sucked but each year that I was in school it got better as social conservatism lost increasing grasp on people and thus the anti-gay sentiment began to wane. I'm also fortunate in that I'm not a "fag" so unless I tell people I'm gay or they see me with a boyfriend they won't know. It's still a toss up though on how people will react as the range spans from 0 fucks given to the person going full Jow Forums and it generally being impossible to tell who will react and how.
>I never really had a group of friends. Even my cousins growing up hated me because "your not really mexican because your dad is a gringo" >and they say brown people cant be racist? >Yeah I hated the mexicans growing up in my neighborhood and school. I just take comfort in knowing most of then are either dead or in jail because of the path they chose to take. You sound like my buddy I had who was half-black and half-white but was dark skinned as fuck. He liked anime, runescape, and all that shit and it made every black person he knew fucking disdain him as some kind of race traitor.
>and it doesn't matter if you are a kid inside. look at your parents user; do they look happy being adults? I much rather be a kid forever if I could then be an adult. kids are not assholes yet. It's not really that but societal expectations and requirements. People look at me and see a 24 year old adult man with a university education and expect me to behave accordingly. The only thing that's really changed with age is I'm generally calmer and less prone to procrastination. However, by many people's definition I'm still very immature and struggle to do anything considered adult and am judged for it. I have yet to determine if the calm I've experienced with age is due to age or because my soul has been kicked out of me by reality.
Ian Thompson
>Honestly highschool. Everything just made sense. Got up at a certain time, went to classes and ate, everything on a certain time. There was some order to the madness. Having just turned 25 looking back I still want to go back, more and more with each year.
yeah highschool in general for me was pretty bad. I did alot of weed and drank too much during the summer. it was a pretty dark time in my life. then my dad died and we had to really struggle hard.
but all I knew was that all I had to to was wait for the bell to ring and I could go into that computer lab and sit there for 4 hours by myself and just learn shit and not have to think about anything but that. it was awesome.
Elijah Roberts
This is literally the only place on Earth (ironically) that I feel safe and secure, being on a plane.
>behave accordingly. thats society knocking on your door. just remember you only have to open that door for about 8 hours or so. if only we could be teenagers forever.
>It sucked but each year that I was in school it got better as social conservatism lost increasing grasp on people and thus the anti-gay sentiment began to wane. I'm also fortunate in that I'm not a "fag" so unless I tell people I'm gay or they see me with a boyfriend they won't know. It's still a toss up though on how people will react as the range spans from 0 fucks given to the person going full Jow Forums and it generally being impossible to tell who will react and how.
i hear garbage like this has only gotten worse since 2016. This shit needs to fucking stop. I fucking hate seeing people who are actually homophobic coerce youth into believing this garabge by using pop culture i.e memes and image boards to spread this garbage.
Im sorry you have to go through this user, no one should have to hide who they are because it bothers some autist Jow Forumstard.
>You sound like my buddy I had who was half-black and half-white but was dark skinned as fuck. He liked anime, runescape, and all that shit and it made every black person he knew fucking disdain him as some kind of race traitor.
I once outed myself as a RS player when my family came over and asked if they wanted to play video games; I asked them if they wanted to open an RS account and one said; >no because I want to have sex one day. fuck those normies.
Noah Hill
>why havent you been to paris yet? its expensive and I have never been given enough time to do so. also I dont speak french and would be lost if I went there.
I just really want to see the tower. it was my wallpaper growing up for the longest time and it still is most days. I just need to save a few more and I will be able to afford it and go.
something about dying in a plane crash seems oddly conforting to me. it sounds weird but if I had to choose which way to die; id be in a plane crash over the ocean.
Landon Ward
Actually this. I only ever feel good when I'm on a plane or bus or train because its the one place where you can just sleep and still technically be accomplishing something.
Andrew Garcia
>my happy place was the choir room in high school. i always stayed after on the last day of school. i was really close with my teacher and he was my father figure during my teenage years. most of my friends were in choir and it was the one place where i felt comfortable and excelled. im glad i got to spend so much time there. i was a teachers aide and in the top audition choirs and all that shit. felt more like home than my home. i miss those days. never know how great you have it. i cant believe that im 21 now
highschool at times seemed so bad but if we only knew was was waiting for us after graduation. holy fuck I wish I could go back.
>thats society knocking on your door. just remember you only have to open that door for about 8 hours or so. if only we could be teenagers forever. True
>i hear garbage like this has only gotten worse since 2016. This shit needs to fucking stop. I fucking hate seeing people who are actually homophobic coerce youth into believing this garabge by using pop culture i.e memes and image boards to spread this garbage.
>Im sorry you have to go through this user, no one should have to hide who they are because it bothers some autist Jow Forumstard.
Yeah, it generally got worse with the rise of the AR and began a rapid climb around 2016/2017 with a resurgence of social conservatism among the youth. Mostly it's because it made those who were homophobic no longer feel the need to hide or feel bad about their negative feelings towards gays. What really made it a bit hard to sort was that for the most part you could bank on anyone 25 and under being accepting of it or just not caring but now anyone 20 and under could secretly be some 14/88 Jow Forumstard. It's the whole thing that Generation Z is very impressionable and easily manipulated via memes and edge. It also doesn't help that social progression is seen as the main stream so you get the enticement of naughty counter-culture. The problem is, it's isn't just silly memes and counter-culture until you're old enough to know better but has actual consequences on peoples lives.
I don't hide who I am though. The benefit of being 24 and 6ft at 250 pounds with a fairly athletic build so people generally aren't confrontational about it.
>I once outed myself as a RS player when my family came over and asked if they wanted to play video games; I asked them if they wanted to open an RS account and one said; >no because I want to have sex one day. >fuck those normies I'm lucky in that my family doesn't care about what I'm into. They see it makes me happy and that's all they care about.
Jaxon Collins
>Yeah, it generally got worse with the rise of the AR and began a rapid climb around 2016/2017 with a resurgence of social conservatism among the youth. Mostly it's because it made those who were homophobic no longer feel the need to hide or feel bad about their negative feelings towards gays. What really made it a bit hard to sort was that for the most part you could bank on anyone 25 and under being accepting of it or just not caring but now anyone 20 and under could secretly be some 14/88 Jow Forumstard. It's the whole thing that Generation Z is very impressionable and easily manipulated via memes and edge. It also doesn't help that social progression is seen as the main stream so you get the enticement of naughty counter-culture. The problem is, it's isn't just silly memes and counter-culture until you're old enough to know better but has actual consequences on peoples lives.
the truly scary shit about all of this is this user.
alot of this garbage is propagated by these assholes and kids on this site push it out in masses. it sucks.
Jaxon Hughes
Big Bend National Park My mom temporarily forgot about her shitty job, my dad's face was lit up. The skies were so expansive and I didn't have to fall asleep to the sound of traffic and bright suburban lights. I hope I can return for one of the longer trails before I an hero.
My dorm room, friends over constantly and none of the negativity of my parents. Love it so much I could cry, just good times and gettin fucked up with the guys.
Matthew Long
>I fucking hate seeing people who are actually homophobic coerce youth into believing this garabge by using pop culture Sodomy is an execrably depraved sexual act which you've been corrupted into accepting by this perverse hypersexual society you live in. It is beyond despicable and practicing it makes you worthy of death, especially if you are the one sodomising other men, thus actively desecrating their human dignity. What is absurd isn't "homophobia", what is absurd is that such an abomination is actually tolerated, celebrated and promoted, while in reality, you should simply be bludgeoned to death for pushing youths to commit such atheistic disgusting filth, enabling the continuity of your vile lifestyle.
Your self-pity is pathetic. You are in the wrong. Wake up, humble yourself and free yourself from the shackles of this depravity before it is too late.
