I FUCKING HATE BEING A BPD GIRL SO MUCH

I FUCKING HATE BEING A BPD GIRL SO MUCH.
>r9k robot bf left me back at the start of summer
>have a huge mental breakdown, like full psychotic break, hallucinate and shit
>he agrees to still talk to me or keep me around
>ignore everybody else for him so i never move on, even though he doesnt respond i still message him every single day pretending he still loves me
>finally he recently removed me and said go away/hes not interested in me/etc
>too depressed to leave the house or be with family, cant do anything
>whole computer filled with pictures i saved to show him, pictures of our chatlogs, pictures of him
>i had even cut his name into myself
>he wont talk to me
it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts
i dont wanna live anymore

i dont even have the worse traits of bpd when i love someone like switching and lashing out and being a bitch outside of when i get jealous, i just have really heavy obsessive love and that should be a good thing if someone knew how to return it

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How's being 15 years old working out for you, you dafy cunt?

Shit like this is the reason I doubt my doctor diagnosing me as bpd

Wouldn't you be better served to go to /soc/ or reddit with this bullshit? Half of us loathe you and the other half will disingenuously blow smoke up your ass.

where do you message him?

Can I be your bf since he decided to be a bitch?

>have a huge mental breakdown, like full psychotic break, hallucinate and shit

I never believe anyone who says this shit

>it's not my fault

God I missed r9k girls.

Kill yourself you goddamn children

Fucking babby

Obsessive love seems awesome, but BPD girls sound scary

why do we sound scary? i think bpd girls only are scary if theyre prone to switching and lashing out at people

discord

i thought you guys would understand me maybe plus i hate soc normies

well

everyone has different symptoms

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>switching and lashing out at people
That's why. Even if you don't think you do that, there's a chance that you do. I'm not gonna hang with someone who constantly flips out on me for no reason and makes me miserable.

this is really truly the most devastating stuff in the world i want to die so bad

Would you message me on discord femanon?
anonfrombpdthread#3903

>fembot her...... *BANG*

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I don't have any experience so I can't say much other than learn to make peace with being alone.

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>I FUCKING HATE BEING A BPD GIRL SO MUCH.

Aaaaand
into the trash it goes :^)

Sure, if you want to obsessively love somebody you can love me.

Thundy#8497

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>if someone knew how to return it
thing is you only get that attached to guys who treat you like shit; look at who you currently are obsessed with. im not attacking you, im a girl with bpd too.

Lmao OP is actually 15 and you got thristy ass niggas in here hitting up a 15 year old.

reported.
15yo "girl"

>i had even cut his name into myself

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BPD is the type of crazy no one wants to deal with.

e-dated a fembot BPD girl for 5 years a long time ago. That's how I know your greentext dilemma is bullshit.

You conveniently left out the parts where you deliberately shat on both him and the relationship and pushed him away by being a massive shitcunt whore didn't you?

You wont fool me or anyone else who has any sort of experience with BPD girls. But lucky for you theres always a surplus of desperate retards here who will buy your sob story and think you're just an innocent victim.

Look, heres one right here
Everyone laugh at this idiot.

no, that didn't happen at all user

>You conveniently left out the parts where you deliberately shat on both him and the relationship and pushed him away by being a massive shitcunt whore didn't you?
They always leave that out, of course. And they leave the part where they can switch between guys at the drop of a hat too.

Why can't you just stick with one person and explain the situation to them? I wouldn't mind acting however she wanted me to act, under the condition that she doesn't leave me or cheat on me.

>thing is you only get that attached to guys who treat you like shit
Why exactly is this?

You're lying, and the worst part is that you probably believe youre telling the truth. IMO, that is the most fucked up thing about BPD girls. You have the ability to take things that someone has said and/or done and purposefully misinterperate them in order to spin it into something to rationalize your shitty behavior.

You are a dangerous person, an emotional vampire always seeking out new victims whether you realize it or not. Your vagina makes it so much easier for you to lure people in too.

Girls with BPD should all be locked away.

Because they're crazy, what kind of a question is that?

Can BPD girls get better?

Reminder that bipolar women are broken people and need professional help. Do not enable this person, she will destroy you.

I can tell how young you are from this post.

I personally think it's some form of low self esteem. A bpd girl's ego has never been fully formed because of childhood trauma. It feels comfortable for someone to treat you like shit because you anticipate it from whatever happened to you as a kid. You are just trained your place is to try to appease someone either: abusive, emotionally unavailable, or who you can tell for sure will abandon you. A lot of bpd girls replay stuff like trauma. Choose a guy who looks/acts like their abuser because in their minds this time around they can 'change' it or fix/correct/heal it. On top of it being what they know and fundamentally where they have placed their sense of value in society. Whatever role the bpd girl assigns herself in life (often as a slut or whore) she pigeon holes herself out of massively low self esteem. A lot of people don't think bpd has low self esteem. Just like Elliot Rodgers though any kind of bravado they pretend to have is fully a larp. They just have to act like they have something to hide the fact that really they believe deep down they have or are nothing.

All of this can be fixed FOR SURE though. I fixed most of this within myself; as a personality disorder this is sooooo much easier to treat than something like schizophrenia. So people saying bpds are unlovable are dumb. Typical fear of mental illness and the unknown.

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no, never. they can only smooth over the symptoms

One of my neighbors is a BPD. She fights with everyone, yells threateningly at her daughter, and thinks she owns the place. Shes been here 5 years and never forgives or forgets.
The easiest way to trigger her to ask something uncomfortable like "don't talk to me."

Bpd is borderline personality disorder not bipolar. Originally

wow that really makes me feel like shit actually. i noticed that my mom did this while raising me and she complained that her mother did this too. im never having kids

oh wow you seem like a solid put together self aware person thats very impressive

That sorta makes sense. I can't really judge someone for having mental illness (that'd be awful hypocritical)
I still probably wouldn't want to date one though unless they really got their shit together, from what I've read chicks with BPD are terrible partners.

>I can tell how young you are from this post.
What do you mean? You say that and then you proceed to show that you're self-aware and you've fixed things, so it has to be possible to reason with them, some of them have to be like you.

Yes and no. I have yet to see a BPD person actually take responsibility for their illness, recognize it is unhealthy and work towards methods to curb those toxic behaviors through helpful therapy methods. Most of them just fester in their illness and then pull shit like this about how hard their life is with BPD. It would be interesting but I doubt it's workable because working on an illness is being able to admit you are at fault for something and not everyone else. That is like the one key thing that anyone with BPD doesn't do. So probably not.

Reminder you're fucking stupid and don't know what the fuck BPD is. Borderline personality disorder, not fucking bipolar.

I just want to love a BPD girl and help her be happy.
I know they're not monsters, it's not their fault somebody hurt them.

Trust me, this is my post:
BPD can be fixed easier than genetic mental illnesses such as schizophrenia which can only hoped to be managed at best. The reason for this is bpd is behavioral rather than completely neurological. Don't get me wrong there can be neurological damage IF the underlying childhood abuse that caused the bpd is extensive enough. It's still easier treated than most mental illnesses. If you only have bpd you are lucky compared to some. It can be a gateway to even deeper understanding of your reality since if you have bpd you've been dualistically given the gift of deep emotions and possibly deeper empathy. But will never become a gift unless you can redirect your compassion onto yourself first. That's how you fix your moral compass that tells you who is worthy to pour your deep love into.

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>I just want to love a BPD girl and help her be happy.
Same, but she keeps doing increasingly bad things to me in hopes that I'll go away and unfortunately when I go away, I'll really go away if you know what I mean.

here. The reason is because they need intensity in a relationship to shake off fears of abandonment. They need constant reassurance that you're emotionally invested, even if that comes from volatility which they often create.

Yeah I wish I had a BPD gf alright.

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They are literally monsters. They are mentally ill and it is their fault somebody hurt them. See you're fucking stupid and you're playing into their little game of "I'm innocent, dindu nuffin" bullshit. They did things, they refuse to admit they did things and pretend that everyone else is the transgressor against them.

I will tell your dumb ass once, but I'm sure you won't listen because just like those niggas who think they want an unkempt and unwashed woman, you think you want this, but you don't.

i would be your bf but im already lowkey in an online relationship with a QT russian girl so tough luck heheh

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I don't really care, I have to kill myself eventually one way or another, so why not like this.

>thing is you only get that attached to guys who treat you like shit
That's all women

Find what you love and let it kill you. That's a good way to think about the world.

Don't be afraid anons.

BPD is just extreme female brain.

I had a bpd girlfriend (male/crazy-insane-trans) she fucked me up and emotionally abused me every day and now I'm a shell of my former self 8 months after it all happened I'm still not over her and I endlessly search to replace her because the pain of not being with her makes me want to kill myself, which I plan on doing within the next year, nothing gets better once a bpd girl fucks you up anons, stay the fuck away from crazies.

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>I endlessly search to replace her because the pain of not being with her makes me want to kill myself

This. BPD girls will get you addicted so fast... I keep looking for someone just like her.

>BPD can be treated

You're an idiot. First of all that is a very broad statement because the severity of BPD varies wildly from case to case and the difference between a mild and a severe case is night and day.

Those with BPD often avoid treatment or don't stick with it long enough to see results. This is because it's in their nature to build disdain and distrust for an individual the more they get to know them. This is commonly referred to as "Black & White" thinking. Either you're a Saint or a Spawn of a Satan, and since no one is perfect, everyone ends up being a spawn of satan after a time.

This is why a literal team of therapists and psychs are often used for treatment. It takes a lot resources and most places are just not up to the task.

BPD can be treated with dialectical behavioral therapy; you don't need an actual therapist for those practices.

yup, I'll never find another sa******, I literally only meet people because I see a potential of her in them, but it will never be her, god I fucking hate being alive

I tried to explain this to someone and then they first started treating me like shit and eventually stopped talking to me.

can i cure bpd with my penis

Just never tell normals your diagnosis's. Doesn't even matter what it is, if it is social anxiety or bpd; normals aren't into psychology enough to even know the difference between those things, they just see someone ''''insane''''!

sounds shitty.. sorry you had to spend your christmas like this too
I'm a BPD gay guy I've dealt with the obsession. I haven't talked to my ex / FP in forever. he totally abandoned me and treated me like nothing. sucks i didn't spend my christmas with my him.

can someone else whos been through this answer me does it ever stop? do you ever move on after all the years? I've just wanted blow my brains out every day for as long as i remember

>DBT
>You don't need an actual therapist

Okay.

Because you won't kill yourself this way lol. This will just give you a taste of something that might placate that feeling of suicide and then your life turns into chasing that fleeting feeling of romance again but now as a 100x more fucked up person because of the BPD bitch you were with.

Sometimes even getting the taste of something great is enough to give you a will to live and suffer.

>Sometimes even getting the taste of something great is enough to give you a will to live and suffer.

This. You can't handle knowing what you are missing out on. BPD girls will give you everything you didn't even know you wanted then take it all away.

I am dating a borderline chick rn. A little tip for you fags. Never emotionally invest and always keep distance. they like to do the push/pull thing and they only push if youre being a beta bitch. Treat them like shit and act like you don't give a fuck and they will always pull.

youre welcome.

No I tried to explain it to someone who had the symptoms.

You're not BPD if you haven't moved on to another favorite person with no remorse.

They were probably really young is my best guess. Young people with bpd really struggle.

>Because you won't kill yourself this way lol.
Wanna bet?

The classic
>Your case doesn't fit MY personal story, you don't have mental illness!

BPD males don't have that same luxury as females do. That's why BPD girls are so dangerous because their pussy enables them to replace with ease.

Please leave him alone. I used to have a male bpd friend and I just know you left out many things. His version of the story was that I rejected him despite the fact that I claimed to love him, that I was deceitful, awful friend. In reality he was a fembot collector, he ghosted me like five times, he told me he wants to rape me almost daily when he was in a bad mood, he would constantly lash out on me and want all my attention even when I had to take care of my dad and had exams. He used to call me ugly (but if I didn't send him at least one selfie per day he would throw a fit) and berate me constantly.

Sorry what's the point of being in a "relationship" if you have to roleplay a retarded piece of shit 24/7 again?

Then why the fuck did you continue to talk to him?

ahh why even bother waking up into a world like this. Life is a horrid rollercoaster

That really doesn't sound like something you do with a "friend", are you sure you're not the BPD here?

BPD girls are wild in bed my dude. also theres nothing retarded about it, its playing smart. You can have feelings for her just never show it cause as soon as she senses weakness and feels stable she will tear it all down.

>are you sure you're not the BPD here?
Yea this is exactly what I was thinking.

So basically, she doesn't actually love you? Then what's the fucking point then?

>BPD Girl
>Girl
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There is no point, the retard has roleplayed a sociopathic shithead for so long in his quest for pussy that he now thinks it's appropriate to talk like that in polite society.

yeah that is true. The reason I got into such a rut was because he guilted me out of talking to anybody else, but it was ok because he made me happy and nobody else did. That's one thing among many other things but it's so hard to remember that when I could just remember that he made me happy

I feel real guilt and shame regarding how amused I was by reading this comment.

I didn't, when he started to act like this I cut him off. He was really kind in the beginning, so I thought his case of BPD maybe isn't so severe.

We had a very intense friendship that almost turned into dating. Nope, I don't have BPD.

oh I thought I added that he was bpd too in op and thought you meant on his behalf. Nevermind

I don't think you understand the condition. Of course she loves me, she says it all the time she is obsessed with me. But as soon as I make myself vulnerable she'll do a backflip and hate my guts.

Try dating one. You'll see what I mean.

>I didn't, when he started to act like this I cut him off. He was really kind in the beginning, so I thought his case of BPD maybe isn't so severe.
Oh ok. That sucks, but I guess you can never really know someone

>Try dating one. You'll see what I mean.
Yeah I'm gonna pass, that sounds fucking terrible
If she'll leave you if you're vulnerable, then she doesn't love you. A partner is supposed to be someone that you can actually be vulnerable around.

You're talking like people with BPD are normal people with normal functioning brains.

>>whole computer filled with pictures i saved to show him
This is the worst. I have so many topics for conversations that I was supposed to have with them but didn't, that I pretty much have an entire relationship where these conversations actually happened in my head, and they don't because they ignored me every time.

Idk if I'm bpd but I know I'm mentally ill as fuck and I'm almost the opposite of this. I require the guy I'm with to be a pathetic vulnerable wreck at all times that I can hyperactively control otherwise I don't like or trust him at all. I would be as obsessed with him as OP is with her guy only I would never show it and just bully him constantly while claiming he's the one who's obsessed with me. My life is rope or cope shit 2bhonestfam.

I'm not even sure if the girl in question has it, but there is one thing I can't deny, and that is that she has been a great companion over the years. The rest of the stuff that has happened between us is bullshit as there never was any romantic relationship established between us, not even a LDR.

I have already proven to myself I can move on and detach myself from her if the right girl appears in my life, till then she has a role to play which I'm grateful for, as I'm sure I do as well.

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They aren't, and that's why they'll never love you.

Honestly your story sounds like what a BPD would say about their ex friend/romantic interest. I'm pretty sure I have the same stuff being said about me, and I acted very reasonably considering the circumstances.

I feel for you user, really im absolutely covered in pain, sorry you gotta go through that too

>They aren't, and that's why they'll never love you.
there are other things a person can offer beside love user.
stop focusing on that.

This sounds like a fetishpost

Guys shh my bpd gf is sleeping now. Im back from hell but only for a short while

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But love is the main thing they are supposed to provide in a relationship. That's the point.
Without love they are just a friend or a fwb

Hmm, yeah, I understand your point of view. It sounds kind of absurd when you put this all together.
I am not BPD though, just autistic

I used to just save every interesting thing I came across on the internet into a file, and then when they showed minimal interest in talking to me I would talk to them about it, but after a while the frequency of them being online and the amount of time they were willing to talk to me dwindled, and the pile of topics grew, so I stopped doing it, and instead just imagined that I had the conversation which is even more tragic because it's like having an imaginary friend and in reality they don't give a shit about you or the imaginary friend you've constructed, since none of these interactions actually happened on their side.