Can we get a good old self-hate/regret/resentment thread? What do you hate about yourself the most...

Can we get a good old self-hate/regret/resentment thread? What do you hate about yourself the most? What have been your biggest fuck-ups in life? And most importantly, why is other people's fault, but never your own?

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I really hate my body. I was bullied in my school and never really got over it. Im currently at the gym and loosing weight, but I hate myself for not doing so earlier. Wasted my entire schoollife

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I hate that I'm ugly and socially inept. I could probably do things to improve those things, but I'm also lazy with very little self-motivation.

I hate that I wasted all of middle school in my room and did basically the same in hs but I have one friend. I hate that I have stayed virgin till 23

I didn't take care of my dog and left her in a separate room sleeping all day when she got smelly and old. Now she's on her last days and I feel like shit for leaving her alone when she was healthy.

Why didn't you just wash the dog?
Did you turn your life around? Are you in college?
Are you in college now? High school doesn't matter anymore after you graduate.

I hate that I never held the right convictions and stuck to anything meaningful. If I had just did what I wanted to do and never gave a shit about anyone, I would have lived a life worth living.

she had a chronic mouth problem.

though, to be honest what initially made me stop keeping her in my room was that she would suck her ass constantly and i couldn't stand the noise because of my neurotic character.

I agree with this; I did the same thing. Perhaps we can start now.

>Did you turn your life around?
No but I might be able to have sex soon
Are you in college?
Jus graduated and mostly wasted college years.

What I hate the most about myself is being eternal pushover. In the end when shit hits the fan I ultimately let other people walk all over me.

No, I'm 30 years old and I wasted almost every year of my life between age 11 and 27.

>What do you hate about yourself the most?
My outie moles.
>What have been your biggest fuck-ups in life?
Probably not quitting school after 6th grade (that's when you have to switch schools here and it's considered mandatory).
>And most importantly, why is other people's fault, but never your own?
Because they insist it's mandatory.

I never did give a shit about anyone, so I became a skinnyfat incel faggot with undiagnosed autism and likely several other mental problems.
Being true to yourself and sticking to your principles isn't a good idea for everyone. For robots, the predisposition towards being an idiot who eventually finds his place on Jow Forums is just too much to overcome -- Even if you had done what you wish you did, done what I had done, you would still end up here. The game was rigged from the start; Even the convictions you held (or would hold) as absolute truths would later be revealed as complete lies.
Some are just doomed to fail. I keep that thought in my mind, always.

Being so shy and regretting not taking chances in life, taking so long to open up to others because paranoid, wasting years caring about what others think of me
This too famaladingdong I wish so much I could grow a pair

Same and I also look pretty young for my age so nobody ever takes me seriously

i hate that i can recognize my flaws but can't seem to change no matter how much i want to

What did you even do, faggot? Sticking to your guns doesn't mean staying inside and playing video games. that's not what he's talking about

it's not going to happen by magic you stupid fucking nigger, you actually have to put in constant effort and fail until you succeed

>What do you hate about yourself the most?
Besides my goose eye and the absent 2 inches shy of 6 feet, my inability to remain in contact with anyone and how I push everyone around me away, isolate myself and then wonder why and cry about it.
I also hate how bad I am at studying but Im just not cut out for anything other than manual labour where the job exists in front of your eyes. It'll probably be fine once I finish uni.
>What have been your biggest fuck-ups in life?
Letting her go.
>And most importantly, why is other people's fault, but never your own?
My parents let me play vidya all day every day my entire childhood. I grew up on WoW and we'd sit in a room, 4 of us, they'd smoke pot and we would run dungeons or something. I didnt even play wow like a mmo. They never pushed me in anything. They never told me off. They barely even made meals. Whenever I told them I was unhappy with something they encouraged me to smoke dope, which I never have.
Of late, I've often thought about cutting contact with them entirely but since they've never actively harmed me I dont think I could bring myself to do it. If I ever have kids, though, I cant imagine letting them be around my parents for any length of time.

>nobody ever takes me seriously
Useless to get worked up over this.

I regret not fessing up to someone when I had feelings for them. Wondering what could have been is so much worse than trying and getting shot down. I also hate that I've got no motivation to stick with the important things because everything seems fucking pointless.

Im in college yeah but I dont socialise

>Wondering what could have been is so much worse than trying and getting shot down.
key life lesson here
this applies to everything from relationships to work and hobbies

Very true. Its too bad in my case I was young and too fixated on the outcome and what people would think to realize this.

I'm 23 and scared of running out of time. Yet I can't channel any of this fear into anything productive. The fact that I've already fallen behind people who've never had any issues just makes me want to try even less.

What makes you assume that you didn't waste years 28-30?

It goes both ways though.
I asked a girl out about 4 years ago after orbiting her and she said no (obviously). She stopped talking to me a bit afterwards and I still think about her to this day, wishing I had played things differently.

>finally stop being a fucking robot, get to point of sex and dick does not work at all

you sound like fag

I could be perfectly normal. Have friends, have a girlfriend.
For some reason I do not want to. I wish I could, but there's a part of me that decided to die alone and I'm unable to override it. I'm nearly 28 and khv.

I hate that I'm severely socially autistic and inept. I hate that I am unattractive and undesirable. I hate my tendency to destroy relationships.

>passed up an opportunity to move to the city with my dad and go to a private math academy
>instead stayed in the public school system in a town with my mom and brother
>mom and brother wound up bullying and neglecting me in turn
>got verbally abused by very bitter and angry teachers in the public school system
>lost interest in school as it was boring as shit, catered to people 40 points of iq below me
>had my soul shattered and became extremely depressed
>got betrayed by my friends who tried to climb the social ladder (but failed cause they were losers)
>completely emotionally destroyed by the end of HS and became a neet
>only now recovering at 26 years old
>things might be 100% different if I made a different decision there
I've been very lazy, cowardly and deceitful in my life and it's bitten me in the ass. I largely blame my shitty family for my failures, which is appropriate, but I have to pull myself up by my bootstraps now. I'm doing it but it's hard and seems very unrewarding. Progress is so slow.

>What do you hate about yourself the most?
Being short, not having a job, wanting to kill myself after the slightest interference with my lazy ass lifestyle.
>What have been your biggest fuck-ups in life?
Asking underaged girls for nudes (I was their age at the time) and when they said no, pressure with hundreds of dollars.
>And most importantly, why is other people's fault, but never your own?
This world is fucked, life isn't fair, and I want to die. If it wasn't for the people around me, my life would be my own and I could choose death. But no, this one angel, that heaven is against, comes and save me.

God loves to laugh at us

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>why is other people's fault, but never your own?
For I am another

I don't really hate something physical about myself but I hate my personality. I fucked up a lot oportunities in the past because I'm too serious and introvert. Fuck that shit, I hate myself for that.

My mind cause I fuck up everything. I'm never satisfied, I always end up depressed, anxious or both. I think about death all the time yet I panic whenever I think I might die. I got a gf, we argue all the time because of my paranoia yet I'm afraid of losing her. I'm back on antidepressants but it barely works right now.
I was the smartest kid in town until I was like 13, then I turned into some sort of introverted anxious mofo. Fuck me.

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i overthink everything about myself & my identity. its not because im smart, if i was smart i would spend my time thinking about things that are productive

>What makes you assume that you didn't waste years 28-30?
I started a business and made 200k

>The fact that I've already fallen behind people who've never had any issues just makes me want to try even less
I totally get that feel, but when you're 30 you'll look back and realize that this problem was in your head and that you should have just sucked it up

comparing yourself to people who are 1% ahead of you (in the grand scheme) is fucking retarded and just going to hamstring you

What I hate the most about me is my lack of self control. I've quit all the worst, but I still find myself doing the dumbest shit in the name of good feelies. Biggest fuck ups were probably wrecking my body with ridiculous amounts of psych meds and drug/drink as a teenager. I also cut my arm when I was 16 (self harm, like an idiot) and I look like fuckin Frankenstein now. I blame my mommy.

not him, but what do you mean?
yeah obvs there's nothing that can be done to fix it, but it still fucking sucks to be seen as such a noodle whom no one ever respects or listens to, try as I may to adjust my character

why do you blame her, user?

Typical sob story. She molested me (technically rape because there was penetration, even though Im a female), verbally and physically abused me. Made me troubled.

All my life i wanted to be a biomedical engineer but i fail in the degree so i have to change to computer science but i still want to work in the medical and biological sector i could do it even if the people know i'm dont a biomedical engineer?

The one thing I hate about myself is my lack of a clear identity. I can fit in with just about everyone because I've done so many different things and I know a lot about a lot, but I never bothered to step back and define myself. I used to like vidya and 16 years ago I would've called myself a gamer but degenerates and normies ruined my hobby. I would say that I like films and Television but normies ruined those too. I honestly don't know what I am. Sometimes I'll zone out and think about what I am meant to do while I'm alive and I've come to the conclusion that I was never meant to have an identity or fit in. The only thing identify with nowadays is my dream to have a family and work internationally but that will likely get pulled out from under me in the future. I don't hate society, I just don't belong in the modern western world. I just want to roam the planet doing societies dirty work because unlike the people who currently do it, I don't care about rejoining society when it's all over.

Sorry for the wall of text, I think about this type of stuff a lot.

you sound like me from 7 months ago

I just totally fucked myself out of a good job that I was waay underqualified for and was very lucky to even get. My behavior is too strange. Everything is hard for me. I want to die. I don't even want to be understood anymore.