>be me
>cute lil' femanon, freshly 18
>not really an incel or a sperg, desu
>just got diagnosed with ADHD, knew i had it for a long time
>constantly tired, like passing out
>unable to pay attention to anything
>brain is just.... broken.
>boyfriend is really supportive about it
>mom is accepting her only daughter is flawed
>mom is the only person in the family that believes in me.
>pursuing neurosci and forensic pathology.
>started college a semester ago
>absolutely pathetic
>i fail most of my classes, mom is disappointed
>she tells me how fucking useless i am
>shows me how much money she pays for college for me
>we're broke
>i'm sorry, mom
>i start to get more depressed
>originally slept 16 hours a day, now sleep more
>chronic fatigue and depression make it impossible to be awake
>realize how pathetic i am
>all my friends have stable jobs and are smart
>i'm dumb as shit
>way too high of a dream
>realize my mom is now pitying me and pretty much saying i might need to file for disability due to my inability to stay awake for more than two hours
>idk whats wrong with me
>i can't follow any of my dreams
>cry myself to sleep every night
>consider killing myself
>realize i'm too pussy to do it, mom will be sad and boyfriend will probably follow suit
>sit in the shower often to just recharge
>can't get up from the floor sometimes, sit in a towel and just close my eyes
>can't sleep much either, so it just is a cycle of hell
>studying is strenuous. still trying to get meds.
>realize meds won't help my sorry ass
>lost all hope
>just alive to make sure my mom and boyfriend don't spiral into a worse state
>can barely hold myself up
>still trying, though
>my body doesn't work but my mind won't give up
>smile through it all, tell my mom i'll try harder and tell my boyfriend i'm alright
>i think they can both tell i'm breaking
>gonna keep lying to them. it's better that way
>tell my mom i'm gonna kick ass. she's happy.
i'm sorry, mom. i don't like to lie but it's better this way
Idk where to post this so yeet
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>femanon
maybe you should've actually studied instead of spreading your legs every weekend for chad at all the frat parties. tits or gtfo.
Thanks for posting this thread user, gave me motivation to study more for my economics final so I don't end up like you
You need to take baby steps. Forget about getting a degree. I know you feel like you have to do it, but you have to work up to shit like that.
Get a job, do something that's a lot lower impact but will get you into a routine. Wait until you become dissatisfied with that work and then, now you're out of your rut, go back and finish the course.
You just need to start moving a little at a time.
the irony of the matter is, i was never really a slut. i never quit studying. it's just college that is whooping my ass. it hit me hard with not being medicated earlier and not caring for my mental health too that piled on me. i still have time tho. as for taking baby steps, that's the plan. i'm working with my dad in construction for now, i had a reception job over the summer and i'm starting emt school. so it's not... horrible. i'm getting there. i'm just upset that i have to lie to not make everyone around me resent me, yanno?
>realize meds won't help my sorry ass
Um, why not? You clearly have something medically wrong with you, like some kind of chronic fatigue syndrome. In addition to depression resulting from the asskicking its given your life and your ambitions, probably. You need to see a doctor, or another doctor if you've already seen one. It may take a few to find one who realizes that you have an actual problem. Also, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself for something you can't control. I mean, if you had cancer and were going through chemo would you kick yourself for being unable to complete a college degree?
>i'm just upset that i have to lie to not make everyone around me resent me, yanno?
Why do have to do that? Why would they resent you if you said "I'm trying my hardest but I don't know if it's good enough and I feel miserable?" If they really care for you they'd want you to be honest so they can support you.
btw im a girl owo
that really didnt need to be part of ur post
Don't lie for their sake, they know that you're suffering and they're there for you. Remember that they care about you.
And it's good you've got work, just try as best you can. It's really all you can do.
i've been seeking help recently. it's been a little rough, and i don't like depending on meds. seems like i'm gonna be given something however that fixes both my possible SEID/CFS and my diagnosed ADHD. i have researched CFS, and while i understand it, i'm concerned that it won't be fixed by meds. you have a good point, i shouldn't be kicking myself over a mental condition. I dont want to accept it, just be fixed and live life normally. thank you, though. i needed that.
I WENT THROUGH THE EXACT SAME THING but without the adhd (I was tested twice, didn't have it)
I actually have narcolepsy!!! see a sleep doctor!!!!
I want to say it's a good thing you're a girl and you should take advantage of that fact to just become your boyfriend's narcoleptic pet,
But on the other hand I sympathize with you, it saddens me to hear about people failing college, and also you remind me of my sister who is currently having trouble with college because of a medical condition.
I can't really offer support or encouragement though. I think life sucks too much to tell you it will get better.
i talked to my mom about seeking help for the majority of issues, and obvi she thinks im making excuses. naturally i dont blame her. it makes things rough tho. i feel like a burden however, dumping all this on others. i'm sure that people have that same sentiment, i just think twice before being like "I HAVE PROBLEMS REEE". it's a shitty way to justify my behavior too.
>cute lil' femanon, freshly 18
stopped reading after this sorry
OMFG REALLY? i should, that actually makes a lot of sense?????? wtf
atleast Im not a codependent uninteresting slag
it was honestly a jest, i can see how that peaked disinterest. like, joking with myself. im actually a little pos
yeah it just sounded really weird. srry.
i appreciate that, thank you. hopefully it's more of a phase than anything and after adjustment and some help otherwise it'll stabilize. the work helps. i'm in volunteer EMS, it's therapy for me.
pfft, haha, yeah, honestly i'm getting there. i sleep all day and most of the time he just joins me or works with me in bed, since both our jobs/courses are mostly computer-based.
realistically you can't say life will get better, because life is unpredictable. i understand. i wish your sister and you good luck tho, bc at least that will help... or placebo. who knows? just smile :')
When in the goddamn shit will you normies get the FUCK OUT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
LOL it's okay! i appreciate the... constructive? criticism. i don't post much so... eh.
>yeet
>18
i literally read this in my head, bass boosted, and the fucking screech playing. that was rich.
thats cute. you're cute. that was hilarious, i'm sorry.
u sound nice so i think we should be friends! im a fembot too and ive always wanted more female friends. here:
LaVenus#7419
I started out thinking that way. "Oh well I can't blame them because they just think I'm actually a piece of shit with a terrible personality, surely that's the logical conclusion to reach and not that I have an actual, legitimate health condition, even with the diagnoses of professionals telling them I do." The more you think about it, the less that reasoning holds up. It basically comes down to whether they want to have faith in you as a person, even if they don't understand the things you're experiencing.
LMAO I PROMISE???? i don't know how to tell you unless it's showing my ID? but i'm not gonna get fuckin stalked or some shit. lmao yeet. bitch.
>LaVenus#7419
>DISCUNT
Well it wasn't a phase for me, but working your way out of it by yourself is a million times harder. As long as you've got people to lean on and a family that cares about you, you'll be fine.
you know, that was actually very reassuring. i guess it's a matter of them, not me, you're right. there's only so much i can do in my power
thank you. you're right. i'm going to a counselor on campus, and they have a support group. maybe i should try that?
this post made my night, ily user
If there's anything you can do to get out of this hole, try it. It's got to be better than feeling the way you do now, even if it doesn't work.
You have the opportunities, don't let your own self doubt take them away.
i still do not accept the fact that you're a clear newfag
lurk ffs
go on Jow Forums in the meantime
be glad i'm doing this instead of saying "TITS OR GTFO"
you're wonderful. thank you for this. sometimes it helps to talk.... definitely helped talking to you.
eh, i lurk a lot, always got shy to post. sorry to be at your 'tits or gtfo' mercy. .-. cute tho.
I have a penis and that clearly states that I am superior to you
LMAO i go to a liberal af university, please come up here and say this to random women here. i'll fucking pay you. that's hilarious
I stopped reading at boyfriend
leave address.
-she isnt single, i dont care lehkshfksh- you're adorable. cx
sounds sketch.
Good luck, user. I really hope things turn around for you soon.
I stopped reading when I realized it was a namefag
good point
but i mean
do you want us to go troll your university
yey
no
maybe so
thank you! that's something i needed to hear
perhaps. my uni is named after a search engine. good luck.
get rid of social media and lock your smartphone away
>be 18 year old senior
>regularly look up true crime on school chrome books tied to my account like a retard
>today a few kids saw me looking at parkland shooting
>now I'm having a actual panic atack because I'm worried the school will get tipped off on me and think I'm a school shooter in the making and look at my history and think it more
yeah that'll do it. damn kids and their phones.
youtube.com
In new-york i'm killin thots
riding on my block
postin your threat
YO THOTTIE, YOU WANNA COME OUT HERE?
IM SCREAMING OMFG that, suCKS
>Lmao I go a liberal univeristy
I will fucking nuke your university in a last stand david of galliatih stand off you fucking thot you are nothing to me
i hate how spot on this is with what my ADHD brain does on idle
Okay I'm assuming it's not any university in Canada, or at least the prairies in Canada. so fuck that.
YOu wanna talk down to me roastie? at least I'm not the fucking loser whining on Jow Forums get fuckt
you piece of roast beef go back to arbys
do it. i don't fear the void of death. just make it count.
>LaVenus#7419
Spoke to this person and it's some sort of catfish who tries to pass as a brain damaged, young girl, most likely male and surely mentally ill.
I don't know what to do I'm fucking dying
I went and hung a noose in the woods behind my house, getting very tempted to hang myself. I'm sorry to post this in your thread but I'm on a iPad that crashes every time I chose a pic, thus making a op thread impossible
>just make it count
Actin like I'm some stupid school shooter cuck fuck you bitch I'll fucking rape you be quiet
no but it's close to canada
do it kid, do it. :)
The anime picture should have been your first big hint.
Please anyone respond
I'm having a mental breakdown
thank you for the warning! i'll look into it.
>mentally ill
>male
do it
You gunna say that to the wrong nigga one day.
I ain't that nigga, but, trust me hoe
you gon get fuckt
usually what works for me is to take deep breaths, count to ten, rethink, and go have a meal or something.
You do not belong here. Go to advice or some shit. There was no reason to mention that you are a woman other than for attention. You have a mother and boyfriend who love you even though you keep letting them down. Try to better yourself for them and quit being a lazy faggot who vents on r9k like me. Be thankful for what you have. You really do not know how good you have it to have people who support you. I doubt you will even read this.
yeah it will but since you apparently don't want actionable advice and just want orbiters to cry on, just keep on doing the same shit you always do
no, i read it. thank you. it's harsh advice but that's what gets across. you and many other anons on here have let me realize that despite everything, i need to keep trying. i hope you can pull yourself out of your rut too. thank you.
hopefully one day i'll be able to post here showing that i took everyone's advice. :)
Made me smile
Ty, I'm gonna go eat some chicken Alfredo
I don't think anyone will report me, and if no one does, they have no reason to look into my history. They have so many kids at that school with so many accounts with people regularly looking up porn and shit and god knows what. I'll be fine hopefully
yeah, they usually look into the whole history rather than the single instance. so if you're exhibiting behavior akin to researching, it shouldn't be a problem? enjoy your alfredo yo
to everyone who posted funny/supportive comments, thank you all so much. it made my night and actually helped me understand a little better some perspectives. it's bittersweet to see that i'm not alone, and to those suffering from the same issues, good luck. i'm taking y'alls advice. i won't be so hard on myself and i'll seek some help aside from meds. i'll talk to my mom and boyfriend more honestly about this. you've all been a big help. this was refreshing. thank you. goodnight. :)
None of this will help restore your wasted virginity.
Just fucking kill yourself, normie whore.
Nature obviously wants you dead anyways.
Get shit on incels :)
You're only bitter because you don't get any pussy
>white knighting random whores on the internet
Cry more virgin
if youre actually that tired you may want to get a sleep study, severe sleep apnea can easily cause that
so just get disability and stay at home because you're a retard op.
i mean you'll be a huge burden to those around you, but you already are now
>boyfriend
Kill yourself
Haha more virgins
KYS yourself you man children
Grow up. :).
>You're only bitter because you don't get any pussy
>Using a picture of a video specifically making fun of people like the poster
This is some top quality bait, I gotta admit.
Thanks, I try to be original, u 2
Femgroids and shit from shoe soles beta orbiter plague this place. You will all get the rope.
I honestly thought I was the only one with ADHD that had that same chronic fatigue/sleepiness shit, too.
I do not have it while I'm on my pills (vyvanse), but the morning I stop taking them I immediately get tired and go back to sleep despite having had 12 hours of sleep. Taking naps helps for a few hours, but the fatigue just comes back.
You have to get yourself adderrall, vyvanse, ritalin, whatever. It is the only way you are going to be able to stave off this fatigue. Trust me. I personally recommend Vyvanse as I have experience with it. If you think you cannot afford it, I can show you how to enroll in their aid program, and since you are a student with no job you can get it for $60 a month versus the $320 it normally is (for me anyway).
Please take care of yourself user.
White vein Kratom. Won't hurt to try it. Best of luck.
Let me give you some critical advice so that you dont get into this situation again in your life. If you have a boyfriend, do not talk to other men. It is one of the most humiliating and disrespectful things that you can do to a man to seek emotional support or any kind of support from him while you fuck another man. It essentially communicates to him you put him in the same category as women. Dont even think about it ever again.
Jow Forums was the correct place for this
>pay for college
Get fucked amerifags, college is free in my country