We are depressed, come talk here, it's free

I feel you dude I get that shit all the time here. Just express yourself tho. I guess it doesn't matter what they think in the end anyways. We all gonna die like a bunch of little bitches.

On the server we don't judge

>everyone else has evacuated
>the streets are empty except for the howling winds and the vicious mist of high-velocity rain
>jumping and playing and hooting loudly and climbing on shit like you own the place
>fully expect to die at some point that day but don't care because your fears are drowned out by the noise
>later the storm subsides, and you're bewildered by your survival
>you're soaked and you look out at the ruin surrounding you
>somehow you've never felt better
I literally want this to happen to me. It would be the ultimate catharsis.

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i was typing something but this mouse has a back key on the side of it and it deleted it all when i decided to tap that little fucker so fuck the world and fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK HAHAHAHA I'LL TYPE IT AGAIN SOMETIME MAYBE SOON BUT I'M MAD

youtube.com/watch?v=Llkt3jnOX9Y
Post some goodmusic, anons :)

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I dont see how this is comfy. It just amplifies my sadness/melancholy

>talk
I don't even know what the fuck is going on anymore, there's nothing I could talk about.

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nice dubs also iktfb lol

youtube.com/watch?v=4gs51-czqq0
i'm happy this is not original

>melancholy
that's why it's so comfy in my opinion

Today is my last day of trade school. I really wish I can just skip and forget I ever attended this shit hole.

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i am too depressed to discuss with people around me because they're all lunatics

i have skin cancer and i'm not taking care of it

I FAILED LIFE LOLE

:( please take care of you

None of my friends are responding to my messages. I pretty sure everyone hates me.

Good taste saddos
youtube.com/watch?v=8UJLRuIs8mQ

>hadn't heard off mum in weeks until today when she wanted to ask for money

does it ever get less lonely?

I just wish I could stop wanting to be with a woman. If I didnt have the desire to be with someone physically or emotionally, I would have a real chance at happiness

based merfolkposter

youtube.com/watch?v=MTZVabjQqKI
good choice user(x)

I wanted to do it during maria.Stupid tree just had to fall infront of my entrance.

MTG's art has gotten pretty shit.

Everything is so tiresome
I'm going to end up becoming someone I never wanted to become.

The worst thing is I have opportuinities to have a gf, I just dont feel any attraction to any girl i meet because i can't stop thinking about a good friend that is a girl that doesnt like me back.

Are you me, or am I you? What was the point supposed to be?

I hate life so much I have been so depressed and lonely this month that I feel like throwing up from the sadness. Does not help that my birthday is Sunday which always gets me really depressed

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I don't think i can confidently say the same about the first half, but that second part 100%. It makes me feel awful.

We are one in the same.
I'm dead inside. I am no one. I am nothing.

Was there a discord for depressed and suicidal people? The link was expired long ago, does anyone have a new discord link or any discord at all?

>We are depressed, come talk here, it's free
has anyone ITT? ever gotten better?

bout to become a wagie
any advice

>Every time i post anything on r9k related to how I really feel i get ignored or extremely derogatory responses, meanwhile i see autist after autist sucking each other.
>
>I fucking hate all of you retards and hope you stay as miserable as me.
this

Feeling the happiest I've felt in a while, anons. Finally think I'll get the motivation to hang myself soon enough. Looking forward to it like nothing ever before. I don't want help, I don't want to turn my life around; I don't want to do any work or put any effort into it. Just want some fucking peace and quiet for a change :^)

This. It doesn't get better, user. Whoever says suicide isn't the solution is fucking deluded; it's the only solution, everything else is a temporary workaround.

Do some jumping jacks and drink some water

>studying one month focus in one exam because the asignature is really difficult
>studying really hard
>do the exam, I think this time I approve it, get out happy of the exam
>today they have given the note
>I failed, again
>again
>too depressed to focus in the next exam, I really don't like the university and the degree, I really don't like study
>considering left the degree and become a wagie

I'm seriously tired of this bullshit. I don't have motivation for anything.

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I'm so so sick of going outside of my confort zone and socializing only to flounder and make myself feel like shit. I'm seriously starting to think I'm too stupid and autistic to ever be able to communicate effectively, and it hurts because I know I'll never have the girl, friends, or job I want because I just don't have the skillset.

>This. It doesn't get better, user. Whoever says suicide isn't the solution is fucking deluded; it's the only solution, everything else is a temporary workaround.
I disagree, I think productivity is the solution

Accept the reality and keep going is the solution. There is nothing after death.

that won't help at all. ldar.

> no energy or desire to do anything
> no dreams or aspirations
> no, just forcing myself doesn't do shit
Productivity works for talented/healthy people.

Reality's gay gargage. Nothing sounds comfy as fuck, especially when my animal brain isn't there to be fucking bored anymore.

I only have a few friends and my best friend I'm pretty sure has been falsely accused. I have no idea what's going on, he can't contact anyone. This shit is killing me.

>think to myself "alright, maybe if i talk it out it'll get better"
>start to immediately lose track of what in the actual fuck is the problem with me and get skullfucked by a torrent of guilty, sad, hateful memories all at the same time

this is exactly why i ignore all of this. everytime i need to tangebly describe something that's bothering me i have to dive deep into that dark sea of repressed ideas and i'm never sure if i'll be able to make it back to the surface again. and least not whole, feels like i lose a little of myself everytime.

i'm on the fucking edge of whats wrong with me, i don't know what lies beyond here but i feel like if cross over i won't even be "Human" anymore.

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I won't be here in 3 months the wait is making me stressed.

>Productivity works for talented/healthy people.
Take drugs dude. I started taking modafinil and it changed my life. 30's NEET to six figure salary in literally one year.

went to hang out with the few friends i have last week, to play some good ass tekken you feel me?
they brought along and introduced me to their friends, the ones they knew before me. in the end i felt fucking horribly out of place, like some sort of trespasser even though i've known these motherfuckers for 5 years now.

since then they've all gone MIA and i can't get it out of my head how fucking worthless i am. i've thought about ghosting them but i think i'd rather live in the illusion that they want me close than the confirmation that they don't even care. But the worst part is this: if the group suddenly disbands, everyone has an "OG" friend group to go back to, everyone but me. and since i realized this shake this feeling, you know the one, that feeling that its all happening again.
i'm gonna end up alone again, won't i?.

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you will end up alone wether you like it or not user.But I wont leave you if you staay.

>In the United States, an application to market modafinil for pediatric ADHD was submitted to the FDA, but approval was denied due to major concerns over the occurrence of Stevens-Johnson Syndrome in clinical trials.
>picrelated is stevens-johnson syndrome

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the code is expired anongog

if ur depressed take MUSHROOMS. they are the most potent anti-depressant in existence, and basically the safest drug in existence

they are a tier 1 drug for depressed virginal robots. i take it every 2 months for my depression, and i have ZERO depression, where as before i was so depressed i couldnt get out of bed. dont take SSRI's or anti-psychotics those things turn you into a zombie and kill your inner soul

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Yee. I miss Carl Critchlow. All the new stuff looks like rejected concept art for some Warner Bros. movie.

supposedly SJS is more likely with aspirin than modafinil when I looked into it
I haven't managed to find any reported cases on reddit or Jow Forums so far, it's a pretty common drug available OTC in most countries other than the US

anyway i'll take that risk vs. being a loser.

I'm a new comer to mtg so idk who that is but yeah I hate the new cards.

>started writing new book
>didn't plan plot in advance, only vague idea of what i want to happen
>gonna let it evolve naturally, which is entirely contrary to my usual method
>essentially "sad kids get a second chance, to give up everything and go to a magic place and try their luck there". More vague, nondefined tolkien type magic rather than anything carefully laid out with autistic rulesets. going to have a larger plot behind it when i pin it down.
i just feel so sad right now, and i can't cry. this is the only way to get the feels out.
Feels bad man. I'm at high risk and had some questionable moles, a few of which seemed to be growing, got them taken off and tested, turns out I'm good. For now.
It's not a good way to go.

What do you do for work and how did you get in such a good position so fast?

Looked into it and it's a controlled substance in my country. There is no salvation :^)

>had an idea for a book during a manic episode
>same basic premise as yours
>sad kid wakes up one day to find someone sleeping in the corner of his room
>weird shadow dude
>turns out it's his handler
>every human has a handler, and they basically function to prevent humans from accidentally or intentionally crossing over into other dimensions
>his fell asleep because it got so bored with watching his life
>he has wild but also very melancholy adventures while being pursued by his handler, who needs to bring him back to the human world or else it will be in trouble with its boss
>wacky characters and surrealistic stuff
>wrote it all down in a text file
>don't know where that text file is or the hard drive it is on

My brother asked me to go out with him tonight and I said no. I'm conflicted on if i'm right to feeling guilty. I've been isolated for the 7 years now and my social skills have completely dissolved by now, so I'd probably just stand around like an autist and just make people uncomfortable.

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Can't get a script for adderall or vyvanse or concerta?

This is know a hurricomfy thread. One of my favorite parts of the year, normies just don't get it. The destruction, disruption of normalcy, the absolute change in lifestyle, the excitement of waiting and watching it coming and waiting for the power to fail.

Always nice to walk around before it gets too strong and enjoy the wind blasts too, as well as the sound of the wind at night.

thats a bad feel user
sorry

Kind of. I'm happier now but lonely and unhappy with my place in life. Just no longer suicidal or feeling like I'm going crazy.

The underdogs always end up coming out on top, it's because we've been kicked down and know how bad defeat tastes. The experience given to us through failure will ensure we become our very best.

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Why doesn't she love me back, user?

Sometimes it's nice to dream a little bit, but you always have to come back to reality at some point.

i really want to kill myself. every step i take to "better myself" ends up just making me wish i was dead again. i have not felt genuine happiness in years upon years, the only reason im still alive is my fear of the afterlife and my mother guilting me to not kill myself. how could you or any of my family care when you dont even know who i am. its my fault for staying closed away from them all but why do they feel any connection to me, is it pity or just a dumb longing to get to know someone related by blood

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No one has a discord for depressed anons? i'm lonely as shit and want to talk about death with people

I hear that shit just makes it worse long term, no?

Anyone here taking topamax?
Currently taking it to offset the bing eating remeron is causing.
Also read about it being useful as a bipolar treatment.

What am i in for with this medication?

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Here, I'm shitting up this board with my blogposts today for catharsis. This thread fits the theme. Don't care if anyone replies or whatever but please just read it so I can pretend to connect to someone, anyone, online.

>Asked user's for advice on what to do awhile ago about girl I really like
>before texting her i saw online that she's been dating a different guy for 2 months
>Asked for more advice
>Told to just focus on myself and start bettering myself
>Try to do that
>Still can't get over her no matter how hard I try
>Think about her everyday
>Lots of other stuff going on too but she's all I think about
>Depression getting worse
>Anxiety and paranoia getting worse
>Loneliness getting worse
>Porn addiction getting worse, if that's even possible at this point
>For the first time in years I'm starting to fantasize about suicide again

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I'm playing a losing game with my own head. no matter how i yet resolve to accept myself and the world i am in, i always find nothing but frustration, hatred, isolation, and disgust internally and externally.

i can't even talk to the one person who really listens because they have started to cry when i even graze the surface of the darkness inside me.

I'm actively pushing away the people who I'm close with because i feel like I am spiraling towards a psychotic meltdown and i don't want them to see that. they don't understand and take it personally which makes it all worse.

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I just got rejected by the 1 clinical PhD grad program I applied for. It has lower standards than many other programs in this category and my research interests matched perfectly. Basically, if I couldn't muster an interview here, I was right to not bother at other clinical PhDs.

So nice to know I never had a chance getting the only career I've ever truly wanted since I was 10.

>i am an anime girl irl!
Cringe

I know what you mean, only problem is I know if I did have another shot with a woman I'll just end up fucking it up somehow and make her hate me almost immediately.

This board is not depressed losers anymore lad. Those have all left around 2017. Its now homosexuals, redditors and kids from Jow Forums. None of these people are robots, so its not normal you feel the way you do.

He did tons of great art, stuff like Phyrexian Arena and Duress.

>>i am an
Where'd you get that?

Can someone hug please, aren't going to sleep tonight to get back on book schedule. Feel so useless. I hate being complimented because I know I'm going to disappoint people inevitably but people seem to thing that it encourages me, I can't say anything without seeming weird. I just want to hug someone and cry.

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Thats the message. I go to liquor store, i put anime girl in liquor store, wow look how much anime girl looks like me im an anime girl.

yeah right, thanks, user

Some authors get rejected dozens of times before getting their novel published. It's a piece of advice in book writing guides not to get discouraged over the process.

I don't know if that helps you.

Apply to the other ones and keep reapplying because that is a path that may contain success.

It occurs to me that the decision process is opaque and you don't have access to it so your conclusions over being rejected could be entirely false. "Oh no we have less money this year throw out these applicants without reading."

I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE ON THIS EARTH ANYMORE PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME IT GETS BETTER I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE PLEASE I DO NOT WANT TO DIE BUT I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE PLEASE HELP

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>Looked into it and it's a controlled substance in my country. There is no salvation :^)
look into adrafinil which is a prodrug - motabolizes into modafinil in the liver
alternatively some people just break the law and it's not a serious offense IIRC

All you think about is the past and wonder what you did to deserve this pain. No way to ever escape and never realize what the actual problem is:

You are weak. Being weak is simply a refusing to grow. You led yourself to this position with nobody to blame to yourself. You can't make decisions, because you're too stuck in the past, thinking about your bullies and fantasies with girls you were too shy to talk to when you should be taking action to what's in front of you and making the decision your past self wish they did. It's a loop. Live in the present and break it.

>nobody even replies
this is a sad day indeed

Genuinely might end up killing myself. I see no future, I've overcome all lot of 'crisis episodes' and even though life has improved recently, my long term prospects are still shit and possibly there is crisis in the near future. I dont want to put up with it anymore. Once upon a time I told myself that if I kept holding on i could eventually have something good, but it's not my lot in life. There aren't too many obstacles and I am sick of the trouble.

The only thing that gives me hope is that's if things get too bad I can finally take the plunge and get myself put into a metal hospital and *maybe* getting set with a new life. But what kind of aspiration is that? How many people think this way? It's a tragedy, nobody should have to think like this. Every mistake I make is magnified a hundred times. I have no family, I dare not make friends. I'm alone in this world and even those who should be neutral are against me.

Hope is a fine meal. A man can live a long time on a bit of hope, but I haven't none and the rumbling is too great to bear. I'm conflicted as to whether I should go out with a whimper or a roar.

Come here user *soft, unexpected hug*. Women are memes though if you like feel free to try. Seems the emptiness is forcing you to select a target to invest un-tapped energy in thereby preventing you from entering nothingness even if it means substituting it with despair. *pet* you're doing as good as one can and I hope you do not wail in your cirumstances but strenghten yourself and get good at something, too tired to say something that isn't cliche.

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if you take it infrequently and in low doses, and substitute other drugs on off days, it's helpful