>be me
>5th grade
>see the most cutest chick, find out she's in 4th grade
>a few months pass by and i get super infatuated but i dont even know her name
>find out that she goes to the same after school program as me
>ohyes.jpeg
>at after school program
>we have to pick up 5 pieces of trash and report to a supervisor in order to go play
>sometimes, instead of a supervisor, a student was in place to write down the names of people who have picked up trash
>to my surprise, SHE was the one writing down the names
>she had a pony tail and smiled at me, she wore braces
>spill spaghetti all over the place
>stutter and say my name
>go out to play, knowing that she knows my name
>happy as a motherflipper
>decide to get to know her more, bit by bit
>days pass by
>eventually find out her name through a friend since I was too much of a shyboi
>never heard of that name before and i fell more for her
lets name her L
>days keep passing by and I get to know her more in the after school program
>then, it was time for us to move up in grades
>on the last day of 5th grade, I ask L and her friend to sign my year book
>they do and L writes her name with a heart connected to the last letter of her name
to this day, I occasionally see her signature to remember memories
>6th grade comes along for me and L is now in 5th grade
>her body matured a bit, if you catch my drift
>She still goes to the same after school program
>one day, she was eating chips called Takis
>decided to have balls and ask her if I can have some
>I ask her and then she grabbed one from the bag and licked it and motioned it towards me
>out of nowhere, I grabbed it and ate it
>from then on, our weird friendship began
>We began playing together more often
>then came one day where I got mad at her because she was playing with another boy
cont...
Any robots here had a hardcore childhood crush?
Continue already retard
Orge
>she asked me what was wrong
>I lied to her and told her I had a headache
>L then stopped talking to me
>I stopped going to that after school program
>graduated and got promoted to 7th grade
>I still had feelings for her
>I then found her MySpace and added her
>we begin chatting again
>I once commented on a status she posted
>Supposedly, L's cousin found me attractive
>oh well
>add her too lol
>a new family moved to our apartment complex, and they have a girl that goes to the same school as I did for 6th grade
>I then find out that that girl is friends with L
>getanidea.lightbulb
> try to seduce L's friend to be closer to L
lets name L's friend N
>out of nowhere, N asks me if I want to go out with her
>lolwut.jpg
>say yes
>well that was easy
>days go by and I ask N about her friends
>she then tells me about how L is in a relationship
>heartbreak.rip
>time passes by and I begin to have feelings for N
>I feel conflicted and feel like if I'm in a fucken telenovela
>had my first make out session with N
>got pretty steamy at times but I never passed the line of making out
cont...
Takis came out in the US in 2006. 6th-graders are around 12. At the earliest, this means OP is now around 25.
Age checks out. Keep going.
Nice detective work boss
i hope the L stands for lead paint
>feelings for N grew stronger
>I then create a FB account and add L and N
>One night, when I was hanging out with N, she asks me if she could use my PSP to check her MySpace
>I give her my PSP and she does her thing
>My mom tells me to get inside, I then get my PSP from her
>So I get home, check my PSP and the PSP system saves emails and passwords that are input into the check in forms
>N's email and password are there
>decide to snoop around
>find out that N was planning in dumping me for another kid that lived in our apartment complex
>go to sleep crying like a little bitch
>wake up the next day and lock her out of her myspace and start messaging people on her friend list
>I sent mean messages to everyone from N's MySpace account
>I then broke up with her before she had the opportunity to break up with me
>N wanted me back but I now wanted L
>I then began messaging L a lot and basically turned into her emotional tampon boy throughout my 7th and a bit of my 8th grade
cont...
Middle school drama. Love it. Keep going.
I've got my money on Lucifer
>One day, I decide to tell L how I truly feel about her
>I told her like if I was telling a fairy tale
>wrote paragraphs
>I hit send and felt so fucken nervous
>after a few mins, I get a reply from L
>she tells me that it was the most beautiful and sweetest thing she has ever read
>but she didn't see me that way
>I felt like cold water was thrown on me
>I just replied with an "okay" but I was hurting
>meanwhile, N still wanted me
>I then went to high school and things kinda changed
>I still occasionally messaged L at times but I had found someone else in 9th grade
lets call the new girl J
>I met J in english class and she looked like the petite version of Demi Lovato, but whiter and with honey color eyes
cont...
Oof that's harsh :(
>not having it written down beforehand
I hope L gets railed by the whole football team in front of OP.
My first crush from preschool who I've always had feelings for died the other month.
>2st grade
>Already have a reputation for being a 'weird kid', I think this began when we were colouring in class and I made the grass purple and the sky green or something
>No friends, spend lunch and breaks running about the large premises of our school and collecting different kinds of leaves, insects, fungal outgrowths
>One day in an out of bounds area trying to feed centipedes bread crumbs to no avail, a frisbee lands here and a 5th grade girl comes chasing after it
>Hear a teacher coming
>The girl starts panicking, although the worst that could happen is a few detentions
>I gesture for her to follow me, and we hide behind a large compost bin
>Teacher moves past us
>She expresses her thanks and tells me that some of her friends thinks I'm weird, but she'll introduce me to them
>Her friends don't like me when she does, but they don't mind me sitting with her
>Some of the guys in my year and the year above start bullying me, only makes me latch more onto her
>3rd grade, she's in year 6, about to graduate
>She really gets into handball (not the Euro version, this thing with chalk squares where we bounce balls with similar rules to table tennis) and teaches me
>We play handball before school and during lunch almost every day this year with others, start dominating the (2x2) court since we always help each other out
>On the last day of school she's crying (not that out of the ordinary; most of my cohort cried in primary school graduation, too)
>She hugs me and tells me she'll miss me a lot
>As she hugs me her breasts brush up against my collarbone and I feel my dick get tingly
>I start crying too
>First remotely sexual thought in my memory
>I ask her if she'll visit and she says she will
>4th grade
>Chill since I'm good at handball and make friends with other kids who want to learn my handball technique
>Weeks pass and she doesn't visit
>Months
>I remember her surname (which was a rather long and unique one) and I find her dad's firm online
Cont
>so I tried to seduce J
>valentines week comes up and decide to send her flower, anonymously
>valentines day comes by and she gets the flowers
>decided to reveal my identity the week after
>write a note and tell her about the ordeal
>I give it to her and I got rejected again
>felt kinda numb but oh well
>was still talking to L though
>enter 10th grade and L begins to distance herself from me
>she invites other people to her 15th bday except me
>hurts,jpg
>I then just focus on my studies and on bodybuilding
>11th grade comes by and by this time, I had deleted my Facebook account
>I tried to seduce J again
>J tells me that she likes the Big Bang Theory
>decide to be like Sheldon and write a Boyfriend and Girlfriend contract and hand it to her
>she says no and for some reason I'm devastated
>go to the gym and start working out
>as I was sweating, I began to cry
>I then found my mom at the gym and then told my mom what happened and began crying
>I then show my mom the contract I had done and ripped it
>my mom saved those pieces and reminds me to this day how much a girl hurt me
>12th grade comes around and I'm in pretty good shape
>L is still on my mind and I was wondering how she was
>decided to make a FB again and search her
>I add her but we didn't message that much
>a week before 12th grade graduation, I get diagnosed with bipolar
>I get hospitalized
>I think I'm in freaken purgatory
>I then managed to go through the graduation ceremony, heavily medicated
cont...
Cont.
>There's a phone number, which I presume to be his personal one
>Call it, introduce myself
>Her dad lights up, says she talked about me often, gave me their landline number
>Begin calling her on school nights, she talks to me a lot about how high school (our schooling system is K-6, then 7-12 - no 'middle schools') is
>I talk about how things are at school, who's getting better at handball and who is still bad, and we poke fun at them and some of the teachers, laugh often
>The elephant in the room for me is why she hasn't visited the school in person when she said she will; 4th grade is almost over
>I never ask her because I don't want to sever the friendship
>5th grade
>I haven't seen her in person in a while now, but I start fantasizing about hugging her, kissing her and rubbing my penis on her thighs and buttocks (I thought this was what sex was, I was a really slow kid lol)
>These thoughts make me immensely guilty and so when I call her landline I start stuttering and I my sense of humour with her seems to fade
>She begins to stop answering my calls sometimes, and eventually she stops calling me entirely and it's always me who calls her
>One day I prepare a short speech about how I'm sorry for being difficult and how i was anxious for the selective school exams in 6th grade
>I call her and try to ease her into conversation so I could announce that I had 'something to say', but I found that I somehow managed to ease her into a much smoother conversation than the ones we had for the past few months, so I decide not to recite the speech
>We begin calling each other more often now
>November, she asks me if I want to stay over at her house during Christmas
>Absolutely ecstatic, say yes
>Early December she reveals to me her family's changed plans to visit cousins upstate
>I'm absolutely devastated, actually cried
>No interaction for weeks (we have a long Christmas break) because she didn't give me her cousin's landline number
>I create an instagram and add L there
>we then begin chatting there
>I then ask her for her ex's number (i was good friends with him. knew him since elementary)
>Idk why I asked her for his number but then she began questioning me why
>I then call her a bitch and to just give it
>eventually, she gives it to me but then blocks me
so fast forward to now and I've created another FB account. I've added her but she still hasn't added me back nor deleted me or blocked me. Sometimes, I feel like messaging her and saying sorry but that sounds too beta. I also have concluded that I'm just in love with the memories of her and that's it. I see her current pics and I don't feel the same way about L anymore. In the other hand, I still feel like contacting her to catch up. But like I said, I'm probably just in love with the memories of her. So what do you guys think, should I message her? I'm pretty sure she has, or is, riding the cock carousel so yeah. I've also adopted the MGTOW philosophy because modern women are just not worth it. I've seen her Twitter and she's now a huge Liberal and supports feminist ideas. So yeah, to conclude, I am just in love with the memories of L.
Lol thats how these stories always end bruv
Cont.
>Start feeling extremely resentful and upset
>Believe that she actually knew about her family's vacation from November and was just leading me on
>When she comes back and I call her again, all my bottled out dumb ass 11 year old anger comes gushing out
>Mad about how I've not seen her since 3rd grade despite her promises to visit
>Mad about how I thought she lied about her Christmas plans
>Mad about how she had family to visit while my family was much more fucked up and we didn't do visits
>Ensuing argument, I want to apologise almost every few seconds but I only get more mad and start insulting her
>She hangs up
>6th grade
>Moody and mopey as a 12 year old could be
>Start strongly fantasizing about her, both physically and violently. I thought about punching her in the stomach while kissing her
>Receive no call from her for weeks, I decide to take the initiative to call her
>Her dad answers, asks for her but she refuses
>Try again a few weeks later and she agrees this time but calmly says she wants nothing to do with me
>I plead, practically beg over the phone
>She says that she's changed, and that I'm a 'little boy' compared with her and that it's stupid to maintain a friendship, regardless of whether or not we had a fight
>I tell her I love her
>At first she scoffs, but then exasperatedly asks me why I have to make everything so difficult
>I repeat 'I love you again'
>She hangs up
>7th grade
>Enroll at an all boys private school
>Around this time Facebook is coming more and more into public consciousness
>I made an acccount under the name of a girl a year above me and added my now in 10th grade crush, to learn about her, see how she's going etc
>She finds it weird that a girl 2 years below her is interested in her, but being a teenage girl she likes the attention and so attentively talks about how things are
>I never press about me, but I kept on hoping she'd mention something about me
>So what do you guys think, should I message her?
Message her what?It was over when you asked for her ex's number and called her a bitch.It was even more of a beta move than the 'sorry' that you wanna say now.
I would keep trying to contact her but not obsessively. You're probably right about being in love with the memories, but it doesn't hurt to try. Apologising isn't bad either. If you do get in contact with her, it's probably the best bet. Also, you can't group all modern women together. Theres someone out their for you even if its not any of those girls you talked about.
Yeah that was a pretty shitty move. I wouldnt say it's definitely over tho
>I made an acccount under the name of a girl a year above me and added my now in 10th grade crush, to learn about her, see how she's going etc
>She finds it weird that a girl 2 years below her is interested in her, but being a teenage girl she likes the attention and so attentively talks about how things are
>I never press about me, but I kept on hoping she'd mention something about me
Biggest mistake a man can make,trust me you NEVER wanna know too much about a person.
Honesty I lost the best girlfriend I ever had to her older brother killing himself during homecoming. I really wish I took a different approach. I would just drop it, As much as it hurts. I would type more but I'm about 8 shots of whiskey in. Best of luck user on whatever choice you make.
Cont.
>I get hasty and ask, on the fake account, "what about (my name)? I remember you guys were close in primary school" or something along the lines
>She says something in a very dismissive and succinct manner like 'yea that was when i was a kid lol' or something like that
>She talks about a male friend's upcoming birthday party
>I search on Facebook for the page for the event, it says the address
>Intend on going there just to get a glimpse of her in person. Although I've not seen her since she was in sixth grade her Facebook photos showed me that she became a really cute teenager
>On the day I go and autistically sit on a bench facing the house waiting for her to show up
>Cars start coming and teens pile in, some of them give me the stink eye
>She eventually arrives and she's even more beautiful than she is in Facebook
>Later when the sun starts setting and everyone is going in and music is playing, I try sneak a view of her through the window
>Get apprehended by some teenage boys who threaten to beat me up
>I say "I'm looking for (her name)"
>One of the boys gets her, I think she scowls at me (it was dark so maybe there were more emotions I couldn't see) and asks me how I got here
>I stutter incoherently
>One of the boys asks if she wants them to beat me up, she tells them to get lost and they go back inside
>She told me that I was being really creepy, that I embarrassed her and I should never go looking for her again
>I'm silently crying but she can't see or hear it because it's dark
>Next morning check my fake Facebook prof, she's blocked me
>8th grade
>I'm practically obsessed with her, I use my real FB prof to look at her public photos as often as possible
>Start jacking off to her and each time I do I feel extremely guilty afterwards
>9th grade
>I called her landline and asked to talk to her, pretending to be a male friend from school (I learned their name through a public Fb pic)
You sound like a cuck boi
Cont.
>I asked her how she was going, and that was all I wanted to know
>She says she's sorry our friendship didn't work out and then says she's busy studying, and hangs up
>Call her again a week later and ask if she remembers years ago when we hid behind the compost bin and then became the school's handball champions
>for a few minutes we actually have a good conversation going, but she hangs up quickly because she 'needs to study' but I could hear the sudden shift in tone in her voice
>I call her the next day, her dad says she doesn't want to talk to me in a very cold tone
>10th grade
>I find out what uni she goes to and I go to the uni on its open day, hoping to see her
>I don't want to talk to her, only see her
>I find her, and follow her, she doesn't notice me
>She was wearing jeans with a tight black sweater
>Took tonnes of creepshots
>Went home, jacked off to them, felt extremely guilty and punched myself in the face, incurring a nose bleed, then deleted them
>Recover them from my deleted photos the next day, post them on /b/, get off at other people making lewd comments about her and jack off again
>Feel extremely guilty, delete all the photos again and then empty the trash this time, and punch myself in the dick
>11th grade
>She has a boyfriend now
>I take their couple photos and photoshop my on face on her boyfriend's, set it as my phone wallpaper
>12th grade
>Drunkenly actually add her on Facebook, she actually accepts
>Turns out her boyfriend cheated on her, she's really sad
>I become her shoulder to lean on for a few days
>Seems like she's voluntarily disregarding all the fucked parts of our history
>1st year of college
>I enroll in the same uni she goes to, we actually meet and she shows me around, gives me lots of advice on how to do well in undergrad, etc
>She meets a new guy who is objectively shorter and uglier and less fit than me, but is 5 years older
>I get her number, we text sometimes and reminisce on childhood
Cont.
>Currently 2019, about to begin my second year
>She still has a boyfriend
>We still text sometimes and grab lunch together on campus
So yeah I dunno lol
You sound like a nigger faggot
never had a crush or felt love in my love. it's a weird feel
like I found girls hot before but I never felt in love or thought about them beyond that
*or fell in love
had a bit of a autism moment there
Idubbbz is that you?
what? dont get this refernce
you were 100% wrong in the friendship just so you know.
>first day of kindergarten
>see prettiest girl in class
>get feels
>never talked to her
>think about her all the time and wish she would be my gf
>5th grade
>still have a crush on her, still never talked to her
>one of the kids in our class asks me if there's anyone in our class i like
>say it's her
>shithead says he's going to tell her
>deny everything
>go a step further and convince myself not to like her anymore because we weren't friends and i didn't know anything about her
>mfw it actually worked
>6th grade
>we talk over myspace a little
>had a cringey anime profile picture even though i wasn't really into anime, just thought the character looked cool because he had blue hair and sunglasses
>she sent me a message asking why i didn't use a real a picture and said "you should use a picture of yourself because you're way cuter than some cartoon character!"
>feel absolutely elated and upload a real picture the next day
we ended up going to different schools after that so we didn't talk as much, sometime in high school i added her on facebook but i didn't send her any messages.
she's married to some chad and i think they have two kids now.
since we were never all that close i'm not really upset about it, but i've had a few other crushes since then on girls who i had actually become good friends with but none of those worked out either
I sniffed a boy's ass in 3rd grade because i thought he looked like a girl.