What's the point if you're just tired all the time?

Recently I've been leaning towards less and less depraved porn, sometimes I'm disgusted by it altogether. I hope we'll make it, user.

do you have BPD fren? That is my guess as you have constant mood swings from one post to another it seems

I don't know, I'm not diagnosed with anything. Maybe I'm just seeking attention this way.

ill give you all the attention you want.
i dont really have anything better to do honestly, not that giving you attention is bad

Thanks, user. My massive ego appreciates it.

i feel like it will help you but idk, even if its not the best thing to do long run seems like it now.
Did you look at the website rev I recommend yet? is ok if you havent

say fren what kind of music do you like? if any?

Sorry I went to sleep veey tired and lost the link.
I do listen to a lot of music. I like ambient, metal (especially folk), sometimes electronic music. Right now I felt a bit nostalgic so I've been listening to the soundtrack of my first ever vidya UT '99. What about you?

if you are tired you should sleep fren. How much sleep do you get a night? Does that affect you in uni classes?

the music I like is more chill and maybe ambient is what youd call it
Its hard to describe so theres two examples of my taste I guess
m.youtube.com/watch?v=69IlbU4wsoo

m.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfa5MQfrfSM

I usually get 4-6 hours. I barely attend my classes anyways. I like the music you posted. I'll save it for my nightwalks.

awe thanks i really only listen to night walk music and sometimes classical because it calms me down. Do you just sleep through classes? Or just stay in dorm room?

I stay at home mostly. Sometimes I'll just take a bus to the city and wander around before returning.

In fact that's what I'm doing right now haha.

you live at home than? so you dont have to worry about roommates? Lucky, do you live home alone? i dont like wandering around my city especially in America people try to bother you, nor is wandering around any more interesting than sitting in my room

Yes I live alone in a house that my parents own. Right now my dad is with me, but most often I live on my own. So no worries abour roommates haha. I'd have a hard time doing that. I live in the suburbs/countryside so there aren't that many people when I walk at night.

it is night for you right now? figured it was like a evening for you right now idk why. So your parents own 2 houses and let you live in one for free but your dad is visiting for some reason?

It's 5pm right now. My parents bought the house, but it never worked out. My mom lives in Norway right now and my dad would often be somewhere abroad too. Since I'm studying here I kind of just occupy the house while they're away. It's pretty comfy, I like living like this.

start doing things that result in more energy.

sleep is a big one:
>get some paper books
>turn off all electronics at 9pm
>get ready for bed, comfy jammies, brush teeth and hair, whatever you need to do
>read book for an hour
>get up at 7
>go for a brisk walk, or go to the gym if that's an option

diet
>stop drinking calories
>stop eating big carb meals
>eat less sugar

exercise
>move around, get your heart rate up for a little while and work up a sweat
>move around, your heart circulates blood, but only moving your body circulates your lymphatic fluid
>stretch a lot
>get off your seat every hour if you're on your ass all day

this stuff will increase your energy, after that, it's just a matter of finding something to do with your increased energy

do your parents travel abroad often than?
that does sound very comfy though
do you have to maintain the house though like cutting grass and such sence you are only one there typically?

Thanks for the advice. I'm doing pretty much everything wrong haha.
Yes they do. It's pretty common to have your family live abroad here. I do have to take care of the home, but it's not that bad since I don't get many visitors anyways. The biggest pain in the ass is heating in winter. I wish we just used gas.

you use a fire place for heating in the winter?
am sorry you are alone most of the time fren even though typically I enjoy it every once in a while I want someone there.
that user is probably right about what to do seeing as how I do the opposite and I have no energy
I lack motivation more so than energy

Sometimes I use a fireplace, but most often it's a furnance. I'm pretty anti-social so I don't mind being alone. Tell me abou yourself. What are you studying?

well right now i plan on studying mechanical engineering. I am only in my first year though so that could change I guess, I am in mechanical because I like knowing how things work along with the money i am guy who wants to go to space i spend most of my time doing nothing, playing video games or anime even though its boring and makes me depressed because I know im wasting my life.
dont really have friends but thats a given

How old are you? Mechanical engineering is a very good choice. I hope you go all in and succeed. I'm pretty jealous as I feel I've already wasted a lot of time doing nothing. Don't be like me.

im only 18, i have a late birthday. I dont care about success in the field just money. I only choose the degree because im hoping it can answer questions I have about how the world works. You shouldnt feel jealous about me at all. I have nothing worked out and know absolutely nothing about what Im going to do. Ive already wasted much of my life, out of 24 hour day spend 5 hours sleeping and about another 15-16 hours being wasted doing nothing but hating myself but not doing anything to change it

Don't despair. 3 years is a huge amount of time. You could me an entirely different person when you're my age. I don't want you to end up like me. Please take control.

you still have 2 years though too.
and i like this lifestyle its better than pretending to be happy and liking life without any fufillment

I know. I kind of like it too, but it doesn't get better. Eventuallg you end up larping as a girl for attention haha.

i wouldnt want to larp as a girl for attention the attention i get isnt really there its for someone else not me. And i like talking to nice people online instead.

What are yoh up to right now? It's almost afternoon where you are, right? I'm just taking the bus home right now.

just watching youtube friend i really like the channel exurb1a

The titles of his videos look intriguing, I'll check him out when I get home. Now I wonder where my passion for science go. I remember being that nerdy know-it-all kid. Fuck how time flies.

*where my passion for science went
I swear I'm not retarded. Me do English g

his videos range in topics but mostly are sciency to metaphysical or philosophical topics at times too. You can still have a passion for science. You can change your major if you want even if you dont enjoy what your in.

I don't know if I'll ever truly enjoy something. Right now I'd just like to stick with something regardless of wwhat it is.

You shouldnt stick with it if you dont enjoy it imo that may seem obvious but its true.

I don't know what else to do with my life. I'm probably too retarded for stem.

i am too im in some special engineering thing that doesnt require math really
im actually okay with the physics side of science but i didnt like it

I wish I took all that stuff seriously back in highschool. So much time wasted.

i didnt take seriously either and im fine i guess? you will be too

Still, we could be so much more. I could be fluent in 5 languages right now had I taken my goals seriously.

you are fluent in 2 languages? that is more than me :(
the only thing that is stopping you is yourself.

>the only thing that is stopping you is yourself.
Very true. I always hope that tomorrow I'll wake up a super motivated normie without weird complexes.

i do too. But i dont think id be happier with a life like that because it would all feel meaningless

I guess I agree. I refuse all advice to seek therapy or medication because I'm so afraid of becoming someone else.

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you should do what you think is best. I never told family about my weird paranoia out of fear theyd drug me

I never did either, although I'm sure they're aware to some extent. It helps that people keep mental issues to themselves here.

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i like talking to you it is nice, especially about this stuff cause I dont really tell people this

Tell me more about what's bothering you. It seems like I only talk about myself.

i dont mind if you only talk about yourself is nice to hear other people talking.
But ive said that bothers me really i think
Did you hear about the guy in New Zealand?

Yeah. I watched the whole video. I'm 100% sure he browsed Jow Forums. It's crazy to think we live in the age of meme-spouting terrorists.

yeah he came from 8 chans pole but still they are practically the same thing. He had some weird logic and reasoning

It was weird to watch a livestream of a mass shooting. Especially the past after the shooting where he's driving his car. I wonder what goes trough your head. The deed has been done, there's no coming back. Did he wish to turn back time half an hour just a bit? Did he just not care at all?

he has his manifesto if you want to read it. Not that im pushing his ideology on you. I dont really agree with it myself

Eh. I'm all too familiar with the Jow Forumsack line of thought. I doubt it's anything too interesting. Just inconsistent rambling.

do you play video games friend?

I used to. Haven't played anything in a while. I played RuneScape, Unreal Tournament '99, GTA:SA, IV and V, Red Dead Redemption (probably my all time favorite), some Minecraft, Total War (especially the original Rome with mods), Age of Empires 3 (yes, not 2. crucify me haha), Star Wars Battlefront etc. What about you?

so you only play games on computer?
i have a PS4 which has the classics pretty much such as shadow of colossus, doom, rainbow six siege
nier autonomina
I only have a garbage 400$ 2 in 1 pc so I play older rts games. I also play minecraft cause its fun to just do nothing, I also find war thunder really fun too.

I used to own a PS3. I played RDR, GTA and Gran Turismo on it. I now only have a Lenovo Legion laptop for studies but it's powerful enough to run most games just fine, in case I ever want to go back to gaming a bit. I was thinking of getting a PS4 just to play RDR2, but it's probably not worth it. I just don't feel the same joy from gaming that I used to.
>war thunder
That one's great too. I played only a little but liked it a lot.

Sure thing! I love Discordfriends! Mind giving me your name, age, rough location, and occupation? I might reward with some raunchy pictures for this... wink wink...

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where do you get all of these pictures do you drawn them yourself?

These are just selfies that I took.

you can be honest user friend :)

But then the magic would be ruined. I'm sure someone will tell you soon. It's not exactly a secret.

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What's the point if you're alone all the time?

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I'm destined to be alone because unconditional love only exists if you're an attractive female.

do you draw them? I would reverse image search to know for sure but Im lazy. Maybe I shouldnt know I do like magic tricks... either way they are cute

isnt that lust though not love? Lust is a more powerful tool also

They're from picrew if you really need to know.
I don't care either way. I'm not a very loving person anyways.

just take a big nap dumbass

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>implying I can sleep when there's so much shitposting and baiting to do

your not a unloving person i think.
Have you tried getting a pet to love? For me it is freshwater sea grass currently at my house not at dorm. Its weird but its always there for me

Yes. I have a Jack-Russel. I didn't choose to have him, but I care for him and would never harm him.

see you are a loving person just for certain things though :)
it is harder to love women though they have emotions back too

When I larped, I had the nastiest personality ever and I was still swarmed by desperate orbiters. It's amazing how much attractive women can get away with.

i know that is true. but you can still try to find someone...if you want to that is. She would have to be unattractive though as only 10/10 chads get the pretty ones

Yeah. I have little interest in caring for someone. I'll see, maybe if I start doing something with my life for once.

its too hard to want to change life, I want to change but i dont want to change enough that I actually do

It seems like it shouldn't be that way. If you started taking small steps today, over time it would become much easier. But starting is so hard.

that is exactly right. For me I just lack the motivation. I think Im too nihilistic

>I think Im too nihilistic
Unironic nihilism is terrible. I hate myself for kind of buying into it.

true it is a plague on our society and imo is what causes the increased suicide rates in western countries

Probably. My country has one of the highest suicide rates in the world. People's outlook on life is always so bleak and defeatist.

>People's outlook on life is always so bleak and defeatist.
Be the difference then you stupid faggot

Give me a way to become a real girl (female) and we'll talk.

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No, I don't want to enable you anymore. Face it your dick will never turn into a vagina, not in this life, not in next one, not even in your dreams. No matter how much you avatarfag. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN GIVE UP.

It can certainly for him happen in the next life. Just not this one

I know. All I can do at this point is play pretend online. Maybe scam a few orbiters, but that's it.

my grammar is shit :(
how do you think youd scam them through discord?

Tahf feel when sad in public