Is anyone else here a /empty person/?
I don't have goals, ambitions, talents, or motivation. I just sit around at home looking at the internet and day-dreaming 24/7. I don't want to do anything, nor do I have the talent/ambition to succeed in anything. I feel like my soul is just a meaningless black dot. Unhappy with itself, but unable to become anything else. I will always be nothing.
yes, lack of interests and opinions on things is what's hurting the most imo
Yup just an empty husk
pretty much yea. i'm just a wasteful mass that shouldn't have been brought into existence
I'm kinda the same way, but it's because I'm a right hand man. I am not meant to lead anything, not even my own life. I'm smart and can be a hard worker, but not for myself, as it just seems pointless. I have a friend that I kind of treat as my leader, but I don't see him often enough for this dynamic to really have a good impact on my life. Plus he's always so wishy washy and never really sticks with anything. I have put many hours into multiple projects we were working on together to improve our lives, only for him to abandon them and leave me hanging. I don't take offense to it, he can do what he wants, but it just sucks that I don't have someone more dedicated. I wish I had a gf that was passionate about something that I could support. Most women don't seem all that driven, though.
this and also a brainlet
yeah im similar user, i am pretty much entirely soulless. i wasnt always this way but i gradually lost all passion or ambition. i dont have any particular goals other than to be able to enjoy isolation. incredibly low energy as well.
i did have an intense love for playing music. at around 16-17yrs old i discovered this interest. unfortunately i had very little access to musical instruments, i had cheap poor sounding guitar that i played religiously all day every day for years, and if i ever could find a piano somewhere id always try playing/learning with it, but in particular most pianos were locked up or off limits to random strangers. theres some program that places pianos around train stations here for the public to use, but i was usually too embarrassed to play them for long as you would quickly gain a crowd of onlookers if you played there and without fail someone way better would immediately come play and while that was nice experience it never led to me getting much practice in. anyways most of those pianos are broken now because dumb poor people ruin everything. bunch of retards who cant play and have no respect for it would just abuse those pianos and destroy them.
i was more passionate about guitar back in the day, now i have roommates so theres very few opportunities to even play. still i guess thatd be the closest thing i have to any talent or genuine hobby.
was also really into programming and maths for a brief period and i studied religiously and would spend a lot of time doing programming challenges and stuff like project euler. but all interest gone now, and with maths i just hit the point where i am too stupid to progress any further. so i sit and rot away every day.
being this on top of being introverted is hell. all we have is our special interests and when im not interested in anything its hell.
I am kinda extrovert, I just spent a good day outside with people, but when they left... I had to go back home and do nothing... no life goal, no fun, the only thing that I like is having social interaction and it is hard. what do ?
Yea this existence is fucking brutal, I've been a neet since graduating highschool 6 years ago fucking hell.
Realize it's all escapism if you're not actually enjoying it. Try to move to different boards and read other's posts instead of feeling the need to comment on everything.
Yes, all this, but I'm happy about it. Fuck people, fuck society, and fuck "goals" there is no inherent meaning to anything desu, and anyone that tells you otherwise is lying.
>I will always be nothing
Yep, and I aspire to be nothing more.
I joined the AF thinking it would change me but now I just want to kms more than ever and do the bare minimum
I only have one ambition, and that's indulging in escapism where I can pretend I'm not in a shitty world in a broken mind.
I have this exact same problem, and discovered one thing.
Everything will seem very boring on the surface, you have to dig into the surface of something to find anything interesting
Scratching at the surface is painful, you will have to suffer
>Everything will seem very boring on the surface, you have to dig into the surface of something to find anything interesting
based redpill of tread
People will probably still see you as an edgy kid even if you're an optimistic nihilist, it really gets on normies nerves when it shouldn't bother them.
Pretty much, but look at all the fucks I give.
I feel like thats part of growing up when you're not easily impressed/interested like a kid.
That just sounds like depression sapping your motivation to do anything.
I sit around and "just do nothing", but I am not unhappy about it. I don't think it's pathetic, I think others might find it pathetic, but that's just their opinion. I like to consume informative media such as books, videos, and math. Interacting with others takes more effort than it's worth. Yet I'm relatively happy, which is even more clear when I'm not in depression.
You're just depressed, not soul-less or whatever you think.
>I don't have goals, ambitions, talents, or motivation. I just sit around at home looking at the internet and day-dreaming 24/7.
Same. I'm assuming it's due to the negative and cognitive symptoms of my schizophrenia. I got though college somehow, but these days, I enjoy nothing and do nothing aside from memorize Japanese vocabulary for an hour a day. I want to make indie games, but I can't bring myself to practice drawing even a little bit.
>practice drawing
I'm going to give you a bit of tough love. When it comes to the fine arts, you either got it or you don't. If you're not naturally talented at art you will always be bad. You can waist years and years practicing, but even with all the form and technique in the world, it'll still be mediocre compared to someone who was born lucky with aptitude for art.
>If you're not naturally talented at art
Oh fuck right off. That's a huge insult to real artists who busted their ass to get to their high skill level.
Talent to that degree does not exist.
Not the user you replied to but you're crazy. Drawing anime porn isn't fine art, and anyone can absolutely learn how to draw well. Even then, drawing is the mechanical realization of ideas you come up with. So the reason the best artists are good at whatever they do is because they studied composition and learned what the best of the best have done before them.
Einstein wasn't naturally good at math, he had to learn years of complicated maths he didn't understand to be able to come up with E=MC^2. He was extremely intelligent, and learned math in school quickly, but he wasn't "naturally good" at math. Same thing here.
Your skills are like a muscle, you need to train them and make them work together to achieve specific tasks. A runner doesn't lift to get faster.
I'm just a useless mass of flesh that sucks up resources but then again I didn't ask to be snatched from the aether and forced into this meatbag.
>Oh fuck right off. That's a huge insult to real artists who busted their ass to get to their high skill level.
Most successful artists are talented people whom work very hard.
It's not that I don't have them, it's just that I don't have and can't obtain the means to realize them so I gave up and dissociate from anything to do with them to protect my fragile mental stability.
>you will never [be or do this thing]
threads worsen my depression.
I'll always be nothing because I can't be anything.
>I'm a right hand man
No other combination of words in the past few weeks had clicked this hard in my head. I feel what you are saying. I'd spin it around though : when I was in my late teens, looking for a way out of my shitty life, I did lead what you'd call a clan once. It was on a roleplay platform, I didn't become the leader per se, but a guy took me under his wing because he liked the way I did things. He trusted me, made me climb the rank ladder in his faction, taught me a thing or two about being social. I even led during important events in his stead until he asked me to come on teamspeak one day. He wanted to make me his right-hand man. Wanted to let me implement things rather than listening to his general orders. Months later he went on a vacation, and people trusted me to make things run in his stead. The guy came back a few months later, I thought he was dead or just left entirely. He was pleasantly surprised with the way things ran, was proud of me. Said I did a better job than anyone could have, himself included. We continued for a while and then he left the entire clan in my hands. It was great. I don't remember how long it lasted, just that I led the very last faction on the server when it closed down. To this day, I don't know how I pulled it off, why I was so good, and why I couldn't replicate it. In real life, words don't come out, I'm a side character. There, I was excellent. I miss it. I'm convinced I just need someone to trust me, to take me under his wing. I'd be great. I'd become as good as him. We'd be best friends. I'd mean something. I'm not made for this world.
I've got goals, ambitions and a natural talent for processing things at a higher rate then most, however I've got no motivation to do anything
This be like me..
Companies would kill (more) children to hire people like you. Study something related to CS or Economics and go live the wage life.
Pretty much. I just don't care about anything and I don't see why I should care. It's not like things would go right if I tried, it's just wasted effort
Must existence really be about something? Part of me says yes but forcing yourself to be someone is just not right. I have seen people visibly break at the attempt of creating an identity that they only hold up for the sake of it. I honestly want that too often, but I'd rather have defining life come to me and engage with what really matters. Sure sucks to sometimes feel like boring empty garbage without big pic core, worse than npc tier, but trying to be someone is just exhausting. Honestly I'm kind of on a trip of self discovery and the most important aspect is to let things flow. All the added thoughts of meaninglessness, pressure, judgement come and go and I guess in the end it really doesn't matter, that's why these rare moments of cosmic unimportance can be so satisfying they take some pressure.
Overall I guess I'm in a position as most people here. Wanna be yourself without really knowing themselves
Would they ? I can't speak in front of people to save my life, and numbers elude me. Sure, I did manage the clans' budget for some time, but it had nothing to do with treasury in a big or small company ; the numbers were rather easy to deal with. A million here, forty k's there, 37 cents and a calculator. No need to work equations or to understand hard-hitting math with the lives of people at stake. I could be a secretary, but then again, you need to be good with people. I need to be miles apart, or not in front of someone to even say hi. We are on Jow Forums after all. Sorry, I don't mean to be insulting or rude, you seem to be trying to help and I thank you for that. I'm just no good, is all.
I'm kinda confused or better surprised.
Isn't this what most people here claim NPCs to be?
I know it's just a troll meme but was there a spark of projection and hypocrisy in it?
>most people here claim NPCs to be?
Everyone's an npc that's the joke, it's just funny to see people so insecure around the concept of being one.
My motivation is to find myself and what my motivation is.
I'd definitely recommend keeping a diary to everyone ITT who is at a similar state. It helps a ton.
Honestly I wish I could relax more and not keep thinking about existential angst.
Maybe what I want is way simpler than I believed and I'm just overthinking
OP is a player character, except he's in spectator mode. NPCs can't be spectators and vice versa.
help me to remove women rigths away, they ruined all, tiem to punish them, begone the thots, tough even if you don't want then atleast don't marry, go to anture becoem strong learn to kill animals to survive, kill people to survive
>cope
Original doubles btw
Hey listen dude, it's the digits of truth. Think about it.
I don't trust nobody except trips
Not a day goes by where my dad doesn't yell at me about going back to school or getting a job. It's all so tiresome.
I have a job but yeah. I had cancer and that was my defining moment. Everyone gets one small or large then they become empty
I feel like I'm a retiree and I'm 23. Like I'm waiting for death. I can't even explain it. I know it sounds edgy and stupid but i don't mean it in an edgy way.
Sometimes I wish I was because then at least I would belong to a community of people like me. I. Just so fucking average that I dont stand out in any way
boomers need to be fucking genocided
>Dude just get a job hahaha lmao it's so easy dude back in my day I could get a job no problem hahahaha
My escapism is drugs and reading about shit on the internet, maybe some vidya, maybe communicate fucked up with people i would never do without something in the system. Sobriety sucks, i have no idea what to do. Im closer to 30. Gonna kms by 40.
That's a lonely path you're setting yourself on.
What do you do there? Orig comm
right now theres a girl that sort of gives me attention
literally 100% of my goals are centered around her (eating better, going to the gym and actually studying) but she is slowly losing interest and becoming meaner
I had a nightmare the other day where she cucked me and I felt such dread I dont think I could handle it if she actually did it
I will no doubt kill myself when she inevitably dumps me
you should maybe try to get into the FGC (Fighting game community). I used to feel like that, but once i started playing tekken 7 and going to tornaments, the people there started to feel like friends and family. You don't even have to bee that good either. I would probably reccomend starting out with Smash Ultimate.
Yup, no drive to do anything here. Im killing myself later this year
Yes. I am currently working on perfecting myself in small ways hopefully one day illl love myself
My only wish is to one day farm shrimp, and thats pretty far from heppening