/vent/ general

Just feel i move forward with a previous girl and start to see a new girl but now i cannot stop thiking about if i really love the new girl or i'm just use her to feel an empty in my heart

Attached: 1552419570269.png (821x661, 299K)

I thought i gto over my onitis after i got rejected, i asked her why she did so, gto my answer felt relieved for 2 days and immediatly relapsed. I DONT NEED AND WANT THESE FEELINGS PLEASE GET OUT OF MY HEAD

I have no clue... I obey all the laws, make sure all my lights work, tag doesn't expire until next year. They pulled me over one time because my car has a sticker on the rear windshield. Literally 100 cars drove by with bigger stickers than mine and he said "yeah, well yours is illegal." (It's literally just a Ford logo)... And then an investigator pulled up behind him and they tried to search my car for drugs (which I don't do)..

I'm totally loser. socially broken. here my story, I have crush on a girl, we are working in the same building. everyday I see her on the bus stop, then in the bus, sometimes we even share seat in the bus. sometimes I see her in the corridor. already passed two years, still not managed to tell her single word, even I'm 98% sure she is single (ofc I regularly stalk her Instagram and facebook). I'm struggling with my social disability and excessive daydreaming, instead to talk her, ask her something, I talk her in my mind. In my mind we are even married and have children. nobody ever knows how retarded am I

I just want a cat already so I can ascend

I might have inadvertently killed a certain general here on Jow Forums! OwO

Drink a beer, user... Or some liquor. Get that motivation and get some tooter!

discord
=|+|=|950|=|+|=
.gg/Bsyufq6

Attached: 10.jpg (464x463, 68K)

i want to kill myself because I am so tired of being stalked and gaslighted by them.

I quit Zyprexa because it numbs me and makes me unable to react plus it is designed to keep you under their control. I hear them talking about me and wanting to torture me but it is so tiresome it gets harder everyday. but I dont want to end up in hell

Attached: 1531886318983.gif (400x400, 529K)

I'm tired and alone and no one cares. I just to sleep forever.

I have been super depressed for the past 6 months or so, mainly due to wageslaving for 40 hours a week froom 7am to 4pm. Before the depression hit I had lost 70lbs with only 30 more to go and I was feeling pretty good about life. Now I haven't lost a single pound in 6 months and I've gained about 8 or so. I just hate getting up at 6 am and not being home until 5pm. Then hanging out for 4 hours and going to sleep to do it over again 5 days a week. It's horribly depressing and I don't want to do things like work out cause I feel like I have barely any free time.

Last week I told my boss I wanted less hours because I'm getting really fatigued working so much. The week after next I'm only workin 27.5 instead of the usually 40 and I"m really pumped. My total bills including a couple hundred spending money is about 1000 per month and even working 27.5 hours I'll still be making about 325 per week so it's all good. I'm gonna get back in the gym and keep working on this weight.

Attached: 16508694_1195231187198838_5741038005227080180_n.jpg (960x960, 105K)

Demons
Get right with Jeses user or they'll come for you

I hate my stupid life but I don't want to give up. I cried today. Idk

I have an existential crisis, I hate my job but it is the best paying one I've had and I am getting used to the money, but I still hate it.
Also I want to get to graduate school, but I am over 30 so that probably won't work

discord
=|+|=|1000|=|+|=
.gg/Bsyufq6

Attached: 20.png (360x500, 125K)

>quitting drinking
>had a very strong urge to drink yesterday
>almost did it
>been drinking so much coffee to mask cravings that is happening to me
>still feel like even if I get rid of all of these bad habits nothing will actually change for the better and I'll only come to be more aware of the situations that made me take them up to begin with
>kind of don't know what to do
>don't really see value in anything
>feel like I'm caught beneath the waves and always just a centimeter away from breaking the surface, but never can make it
I've been thinking about committing suicide in the summer but this is something that I do and I probably won't. I have this weird superstitious feeling that there is one (1) thing that is missing, like a key that feels so obvious even though I can't identify it, and if it was there everything would fall into place all at once. And I'm frustrated because I don't have that thing, whatever it is.

I wish I didnt quit basic training. That was my ticket to a good life, was going to go military intelligence and live life on ez mode. Then me being retarded and realizing I was probably going to have start over from day 1 when I should have already graduated, said I was depressed. Now I have this permanent black mark, no recruiter will even think about letting me try and get a waiver. I have a good asvab score and qualify for every job in the military, and NOW I'm physically fit. Just because I cried depression to go home though, I am pretty much barred from serving unless a war breaks out.
If anybody reading this is planning to jump straight from NEETdom into the the military, don't be a fuckup like me. Even if your legs are shattered and you have to spend a few weeks on crutches and have to watch your company graduat. just stick it out rather than pussy out and go home.
Law Enforcement is also pretty much off the table for me too. Once they see I didn't pass basic, they ask why. And once they hear it was mental health, they show me the door.

just want to git gud enough at music production. I also want to collab with Chad Marco when I git gud

Fucking KEK&sons

I recently found out that the girl I have been crushing on for almost a year likes me back. The problem is that shes polysexual, and I'm neither good looking enough, nor confident enough to be in a poly relationship

Fuck, this site is full of filth and seems mostly like an echo chamber of negativity, but I always come back because there is no other better no committment place to come to, to feel a sense of community. If there is a better place, please leave in reply. Pretty sure its not a rule to mention other websites here.

this makes me feel like a piece of shit because my problems are really petty but

the biggest thing is my fucking next door neighbor who says i'm selfish and making me all about it just because i keep asking him every once in a while to turn down his fucking tv or loud music or whatever the fuck so i can go to sleep at night

i can't fucking help getting up at 6 or 7 in the morning for my shitty part-time job, i used to be a NEET who slept all day, i never wanted this shit but here we are

but he kept trying to talk his way out of it saying it was probably 'carryover noise from upstairs', if it's them then why the fuck do i only hear it in one area through my bedroom wall and not the ceiling or somewhere else in my apartment or some shit

he says i'm self centered because he made all these accommodations for me that i never fucking ask for, i just ask sometimes to keep it down a bit because i have to be up in the morning but he makes it sound like i'm constantly harassing him about this shit, which i'm not, i hadn't contacted them or complained in like two fucking weeks because i thought this shit might go away if i ignored it like i often do

i just want to sleep, i can't do 4-5 hours a night, i need 7 or more, i hate this shit

and i feel like shit for disturbing him too since i just want to play vidya and be left alone

i cried myself to sleep because i'm a fucking wuss who couldn't handle one (1) mild confrontation what the fuck

Attached: 1342151308083.png (846x564, 152K)

I get treated like shit at school because I'm unattractive, introverted and I guess awkward. Behind my back by other girls but also directly to my face by boys. I'm becoming deathly afraid of anything that involves putting myself out there because of it. The last time I did a class presentation a group of guys literally laughed at me among themselves while I was trying to talk.

I've come to not expect much sympathy here but I also don't have anyone I can admit this to in person.

pornhub.com/

EARPLUGS

EARPLUGS
EARPLUGS
EARPLUGS
they're like twenty for a buck, or get some headphones and brown noise or coffee house jazz or rainstorm sounds FUCK y'all dumb

He's in the wrong, not you you weak prat, and he full well knows it which is why he tried justifying his actions with emotional manipulation. And these issues aren't petty, you require sleep to function and people fucking with your sleep is unacceptable.

No, it isn't going to just "stop" one day, these cunts will do it for as long as they think they can, if you have a local authority to contact do so, if you have to bang on his door everytime he's asleep or threaten the cunt to get this to stop do so.

It's OK to to get upset user, I've had similiar issues in the past and I've had to kick off despite hating confrontation myself, best thing I can suggest while you're dealing with this though is going to a few boxing lessons and hitting the gym to get your confidence up, looking a little more intimidating never hurt anyone either, but the way the world is going right now "being left alone" just isn't an option you're going to need to learn how to put your foot down and kick a nigger's ass.

Don't tell them then you tit, say you twisted an ankle, or met a girl and decided you wanted something more local but still wanted to protect people.

The army are bootlicking fags anyway, you dodged a bullet, form your own destiny,

I cannot come to terms with how stupid I am. It keeps me up at night. I have stopped doing my hw because it reminds me of how dumb I am. Going to class makes me feel like everyone is watching me. I have hardly been sleeping at all lately. IDK. I just can't figure out how to do things well, or why I should bother doing them at all.

Oh good, this is better than making a thread.
Even being a recluse I liked looking at anime girls.
But even that is dying now. I've exhausted it and I don't know what I like anymore. For the longest time cute anime faces were an aesthetic I wanted to surround myself with.
That's not the case anymore and I have nothing else I like. No, 3DPD won't work either.
Anyone else gone through this?

Attached: 1491650804866.jpg (1000x1000, 145K)

That happens to me all the time. It's happened for over 10 years for me.
My most memorable example comes from when I was about 7.
I was in bed, trying to fall asleep, when I suddenly heard Bugs Bunny call my name. Turns out it was just a random sound

I second this. I want to relate to people without the filth. I've tried forums and more standard and "acceptable" sites. These people might as well be aliens.
I relate to people here but I get a feeling that nothing good is coming out of posting here.

>I'm not insane, it's everyone else that's out to get me
Just take your meds you fucking retard

Loneliness. I spend nearly all of my time alone, both at work and at home. I get along with the people I work with, but I have nothing in common with them. All they seem to talk about is sports their families, where they're going on vacation, or complain about random things. I'm don't watch or have any interest in sports, I'm not particularly close with my family, and I've only left my city once in the past four years for about two days. I do have some friends left, but most of them are usually with their gfs and/or spouses, which I completely understand.

Maybe I really am too different. Maybe I really am supposed to be alone. It is what it is, and there are worse fates to be had for sure, but knowing that doesn't make me less lonely.

Attached: 1481117446510.jpg (500x280, 48K)

>be 23 year old kissless hand holdless, never touched a girl except accidently when walking past, virgin
>talk to girls, can make them laugh, seem to be into me, ask for number/out always busy always have boyfriends. "how bout next week?," busy then too, "week after?, take a hint.
>parents feel bad for me, mom finds this one girls number I was into in highschool.
>fuck it I'll text her
>shes really nice and we text back and forth quit a bit
>talking for a month now,
>Build my confidence
>"hey I was wondering if you were dating anyone atm
>her" I am accually, for 7 months now, how about you are you dating anyone?
>
>
>
>"no."
>mfw

Attached: 929.jpg (393x829, 259K)

i want a close group of friends again. all my old friends became really shitty people and i ended up drifting away from them. i never leave my room to hang out with people and its so fucking empty. please god i want friends again.

Attached: 253F4A38-43FC-4811-97CE-31D463A947EF.gif (590x443, 1.05M)

>Girl has recently rejected cuck
>Conga time
>Become great friend within next few months
>Confess love
>Fucking says she's not interested in anyone and going asexual
wtf am I doing with my life at this point. Everybody hates me and keeps me in their time out of pity.
Fuck me

Attached: download (1).png (205x246, 9K)

>10 days left to hand in report for our group computing project
>Also need to demonstrate the application we've developed so far next Monday morning
>Bunch of researchers will be watching and asking questions
>We got good responses and feedback last time we presented to a smaller group
>Already implemented most of the changes they requested, things are looking okay
>Friend/partner decides to add some retarded, broken feature that NO ONE requested
>Tell him immediately why it won't work unless we spend a huge amount of time rewriting the script to accomodate
>Tell him we need to prioritise fixing what we already have and writing our report
>He says we can remove it if I want, it's no big deal
>Several minutes later tells me about how he'll be working really hard over the weekend to fix it
Holy shit dude, fuck the new feature
If I end up seeing a new commit on our shared repository and a bunch of new, awfully formatted lines I'll be really pissed off
I know that at least some of the researchers are just gonna be confused by this dumb fucking feature

Most of my friends have been drifting away from me for a while now and I don't really know why, but it feels like absolute shit. I'm in love with my best friend but I'm too much of a fucking coward to actually tell her, so I'm sure it's just a matter of time until she just discards me as well.
Also I've been a NEET for about a year now, lost my scholarship so I can't afford going to uni anymore. I've been thinking about living off the money I have saved up and killing myself when it runs out, not like anyone would even miss me anyway.

Drugs, Depression, Paranoia and bad coping

i think im finally going insane

Attached: 1553304603146.jpg (262x263, 9K)

My brain doesn't work anymore, I have many things that I need to vent but I can't collect my thoughts enough to know what they are, just that I have lots of things wrong

Attached: 26611e364b3c0f44c0e5f792e6ad75a7.jpg (662x712, 38K)

I'm planning on saving as much money as possible to live life free from worry for a couple years around my late twenties/early thirties (in early twenties now) before killing myself around mid 30s or so

I was pretty content with this plan because I'm still really indecisive when it comes to anheroing now, but each day seems more and more miserable and I find myself thinking if I were dead right now then the future wouldn't even matter, if I die anyway what's the point in waiting to live life the way I want to?

it's pretty dumb, but I don't have a lot of external distractions so I'm almost permanently stuck inside of my head having this debate

I am a normal fag. I have a girlfriend, a high paying job. Not too ugly. I have no real connections, with anybody. I feel completely alone. This is the meme you guys sold me on. It doesn't get better.

I'm about to make my final hurrah. I'm abandoning my home town and going off into the unknown 1500 miles away. I don't know what else to do, as I have officially been anxious/depressed half my life, and my last idea is to drastically alter my environment, its time to make or break.
If I cannot survive and thrive, then I must be a failure as a man, so my only option is suicide.

People are revealing personal medical information about me behind my back. Talk about me behind my back. I'm the butt of jokes. I go on the internet and people are making fun of people like me. I've developed a leather thick skin but even that dies a death by a thousand cuts. Even now I consider myself worthless.

I work harder than everybody around me. I screw up more often than other people because I'm doing more work than other people. I get in more trouble all the time and other people don't. I got lectured for 90 minutes straight by a supervisor after fucking up. I don't complain.

I got sick with some illness I've never had before and my feet and hands started swelling. I did a 3 hour commute repeatedly with my feet hurting so so badly. I don't complain.

I have so many health problems. I was talking myself out of killing myself every day less than a year ago. I'm disabled. I have a laundry list of mental health problems. I have physical health problems and it hurts whenever I go to the bathroom. Some of the problems affect my appearance. I'm too poor to fix these problems and the only way to fix them is hard work. As far as anybody is around me knows I'm perfectly healthy. I'm sick so often that being honest about when I'm sick will cause people to resent me and detest me. So I don't complain.

I've told myself throughout life others have it worse than me so not to complain. It's bullshit and I know it's bullshit. Few people have it worse than me. It's simply the truth that my life sucks. I recently learned that the vast majority of people have never been depressed. It blows my mind the shit other people don't deal with.

I've spent enough time on this loser website to know that nobody really gives a shit about your problems. I know that sitting around crying about anybody who works on Jow Forums while living on disability brings you to a point where you suffer so fucking much you're forced to either commit suicide or change everything.

I told a girl I liked her, and she was fine dating Ms, she just needed time to get over her ex's shit. But like a fucking idiot I am I made her feel uncomfortable by flirting with her.

Im so convinced I managed to fuck it up in less than A WEEK

I think the biggest thing I've gone through in the past year was going from completely numbing all the pain of my illnesses through force of sheer denial, avoidance, and drug abuse. Then completely confronting all that pain. At the same time. Because numbing failed.

It's this alternating world of concentrated suffering and being amazed at what I'm actually capable of. I'm both far more fucked up than I ever had the courage to admit to myself, and far more resilient in the face of all that shit. It turns out years of suffering numbs you to suffering.

I don't even mean that in an SJW relativist "I'm so brave because I overcame how shitty I am" way. I mean I get shit done that other people fail at. In spite of them having it so fucking easy in life. Or maybe because of it. Sometimes I'm confused as to how people who have it so easy in life can just piss it all away. Then I remember that I would be just like them if I had the option. They don't have to compensate for being fucked up from birth. They don't have a chip on their shoulder or anything to prove.

I just wanna smoke grass again, but I form a unhealthy obsession with it and it sucks.

Attached: discord__discord (456)__1551471362518.png (128x128, 24K)

I want to turn a fat virgin girl into a friend with benefits once I do get to fuck her, but she wants to date and will be upset when she realizes I took her virginity with no intention of meeting her family