Are you redpilled yet anons? i'll tell you about my first gf

are you redpilled yet anons? i'll tell you about my first gf

p1
>be me about 19 years old, never had a gf before
>solid 8.5/10, muscular, foreigner in the country, philosophy nerd, just shy with girls
>one day one of my friends (let's call him metal) tells me this one girl is really into me
>wants to introduce me to her, let's call her alt
>1 head shorter than me, short white hair, glasses, alt-girl
>likes philosophy
>she smells like a second-hand shop
>the moment she sees me she turns shy and walks away
>introduce myself to her
>have to do something important so i leave them for a bit to return later
>see them later again
>friend and girl whisper
>"come on he's shy you gotta ask him"
>girl turns red af
>"user do you want to buy me a coffee?"
>brain stops working
>"uhh yeah i can i guess. like here? i can make you a coffee? you wanna go somewhere? what kind of coffee?"
>we decide that we're going together to a small cafe nearby
>there she kind of cuddles up to me looks me in the eyes and asks if i'll buy it for her
>holyshitwhatisthisfeeling.png
>completely fucking overwhelmed by that sensation i buy her a coffee as if in a trance
>we sit and talk for a bit, kind of hard to find common topics but thats ok
>she's so fucking cute holy shit
>later on we go back to our dorms she comes with us
>go to the toilet to take a piss
>come back and alt all nervously asks me where i've been
>mygodthisfeeling.jpg
>in our room she sees my to-do list on the pinboard wall
>"get a gf" written there like 5 times
>she reads it and laughs and says it's really cute
>soon she leaves and i accompany her to the train

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p2
>we end up meeting up a couple times with other friends around
>we're going with metal to a shop to buy piercings
>on the way there want to touch her but idk how
>idk guess i'll put my arm around her
>she shows no resistance and even comes closer to me
>the rest of the way we just walk with my arm around her all the time
>she's so soft and warm
>the smell of second-hand clothes also has it's charm
>we arrive at the bus stop and as we're waiting for the bus
>she fucking starts hugging me
>just tightly hugs me and let's out a little mm
>heartboner.jpeg
>first ever time i felt that sensation

p3
>fast forward to winter holidays
>we're going to a party at metals place
>crashed at his place for basically a week straight
>alt also comes and starts cuddling me in his bed
>we just lie there and cuddle for hours
>i'm in heaven
>we start drinking a bit
>alt turns her face towards me and kisses me
>got no idea how to kiss but i'll just go along with what she does
>we start making out heavily
>she finds out that i'm ticklish and tickles me for fun
>she says that it's just so pleasant to hear me laugh
>the whole time we kissed she was on top
>one time she tickled me i grabbed her hands, turned her around and pinned her down
>start kissing her aggressively as fuck, while holding her hands down
>metal is passed out beside us already
>we make out heavily and tumble around the bed
>she gave me hickeys
>i take off my shirt
>want to give her hickeys too
>she says "no user there can't be any traces. lower there can be though"
>she takes of her shirt and unpins her bra
>holyfuckingmotherofgod.png
>look at her breasts, they are beautiful and small
>don't really know what to do with them besides looking so i just keep kissing
>squeezed one boob but the sound she let out made it seem as if it was unpleasant for her
>she's on top again and giving me hickeys
>slowly kiss her body downward and try to unpin her belt
>"do you wanna fuck me user?"
>"that depends, do you want me to?"
>"i don't know..."
>"let's find out." and kiss her again
>we make out for another hour or so and fall asleep in each others arms
>nothing more happened that night

p4
>during the winter holidays we once went to a party at a friends place to take dxm
>she loves dxm
>thought it was a good idea to mix alcohol and energy drinks and enough dxm for a 3rd plateau trip
>had the worst fucking trip of my life
>heart beating like shit thought i was gonna die any moment and then lost consciousness
>it was hell
>over and over again i mumbled something like "life is suffering. suffering is meaning" or something like that
>start talking about my brother who has been a shutin neet for almost 6 years and almost start crying when i think about his fate
>alt calms me down every time
>she also had a bad trip and we calm each other down and cuddle and make out
>i think i love her
>she has to leave so she can't stay the night
>accompany her to the train station
>we both robo-walk there trying to support each other
>fast forward to my place
>we're about to take acid with my brother, a friend and her
>my friend and her don't know each other, my brother doesn't know her and the friend
>the first time they met they took acid together
>there are no problems with communcication and we vibe pretty much instantly
>we're having an awesome fucking time listening to tool and shpongle
>the lamp in my room is the best thing to look at during the trip
>the light from it just kind of flows like water
>generally we looked at lamps in the house all the time and admired how perfectly they were positioned
>my brother is having a bad trip because the reality he's in has consumed him
>she tries to find out why he is like that, neet and all
>says he looks like a young varg vikernes
>the trip turned into a whole existential psychotherapy session with him telling everything
>i took shrooms with him before together, we both had a bad trip but i was able to pass through and achieve different stages of bliss
>he got traumatized by it p much
>he talks about how he's always paranoid
>tells her about a girl that's really fucked him up mentally

p5
>his trip gets worse
>we decide to change environment to just change the vibe
>sitting in the kitchen making some tea
>everything stabilizes and we return to my room to watch tigtone
>alt starts having a bad trip and writes with a friend on the phone to get out of it
>if it works it works
>we marathon tigtone, listen to some music and eventually go to sleep
>nothing more happenened
>in the morning i wake up together with alt and we begin the day by making out

>fast forward 2 weeks later
>back to school
>alt's mom is kinda crazy and doesn't know about us yet
>she doesn't know anything about her daughters life pretty much
>whenever she goes to meet me, she tells her that she's meeting some friends or something
>one weekend, her mother is going out for the night
>her grandparents are still with her at home though
>alt asks me if i want to climb into her room through the window
>fuck yeah
>we meet up in my town and go to her via train
>lives very close to the train station
>climb into her room through the window
>messy, trash everywhere, things written on the wall
>she's all red
>my god she can't be this fucking cute
>we lie down in her bed and she plays some music
>she has depression and likes music like lil peep and teen suicide
>real depressing shit, not my type but ok
>she turns off the light
>we start cuddling and making out
>basically dry humping her at this point, almost coming but turn back at the last moment
>she tries to take off my shirt
>take off my shirt, she takes off hers and unpins her bra
>"too many layers"
>we make out more and more intensely
>"hey user?"
>"hmm?"
>"can i blow you?"
>brain turns off
>"what? uh yeah sure i guess if you want to"
>she starts to jerk me off through my pants
>unpin my pants and lie down
>she takes them off and starts jerking off my dick raw
>does it really hard tho so it's painful
>"aghh, calm down, you're breaking my dick"
>she giggles and and goes down on me
>ohhhhmygod.png

p6
>this feels so fucking good i can't believe it
>try to hold back
>tell her "alt i wanna be inside you"
>"noo user, we can't. i won't be able to relax"
>remember she told me her ex raped her
>"i'm having so much fun user, seriously this is amazing"
>right
>fuuuuucckkkkk it feels so good
>i can feel it coming
>"alt i'm cumming i'm cumming"
>expect that she stops sucking me off
>she goes down harder
>cum and she fucking swallows it
>she keeps sucking afterwards
>we cuddle for the rest of the night unable to fall asleep
>want to kiss her but don't because well she just swallowed my cum
>fall asleep for like an hour
>wake up and kiss her
>ask her if she wants to blow me again before we go
>enthusiastically she says "yes! right now?"
>"yeah sure if you want to"
>we start making out
>her mouth smells like dick and cum
>she blows me even harder this time
>cum within like a minute
>she swallows again
>she keeps sucking me while im soft
>"this is really relaxing user"
>"if you say so"
>slowly turn hard again
>"don't move him so much user?"
>"huh?"
>"i read somewhere once that guys got this muscle so they can move their penis, try to relax"
>"guess i'll try"
>getting sucked after cumming is even better
>she makes me a coffee and brings me some cake from the kitchen
>we soon leave, she gives me 'the stranger' by albert camus and i go back to my dorms
>later we go out on some normal dates
>no succ or anything
>she comes over to the dorms
>after a while, she stops wanting to come over saying the dorms are an energy vampire
>ok i guess let's meet in the city
>her depression and mental illness are getting worse
>her life is slowly spiraling out of control
>she often says she just wants to leave it all behind
>one day i went to meet her, she reeked of alcohol and was drinking wine in a cup with straw
>she once had this dream of this apartment with her gay best friend

p7
>"even when we won't be together, you'll always be welcome there user, because you're simply an amazing person"
>"what do you mean we won't be together? i'll always be with you alt, i'll never let you go no matter what happens"
>"don't even say that. half a year ago i thought the same and look at me now, i'm already with another dude."
>"..."
>"does that mean you don't want to be together with me?"
>"i'm just not ready for a relationship."
>"this is my first relationship too, we just gotta learn. what are you afraid of?"
>"i'm afraid of hurting you."
>"i can handle it. you'd really only hurt me if you cheated on me. we can make this work."
>we go home
>next date
>thought she was gonna come to the dorms but turns out she changed her mind at the last minute
>get angry
>tell her that it's really frustrating for me that she wants to be outside somewhere in the city sometimes and that it started to always have to be on her terms
>we have a small fight but it's quickly resolved because effective communcation
>we sit down somewhere
>"i love you alt. i will always love you"
>she smiles and says "that's so stupid user. you're so stupid. you're making things harder now."
>"what do i make harder?"
>"..."
>next day
>meets me at the mall
>sits down with me somewhere
>looks down and doesn't say anything for a solid 5 minutes
>"alt what is it? you can tell me anything? you have to tell me"
>she starts crying
>first time i ever saw her cry
>"alt please tell me what is the problem?"
>she looks at me, shivering, crying unable to hold herself together
>first time she looked me in the eyes in a long time, usually she always looks down
>"we can't be together user."
>heartbreak.png
>"why, did i do something wrong?"
>"we're both just not ready for a relationship. for... this..."
>"we can make it work, we just need to talk about it"
>"i'm sorry user. i'm sorry and it's really hard for me to say this but... i'm not your girlfriend anymore"

underage, normie faggot, fuck off

oreganoo

p8
>"i understand. i will always love you and there will always be a special place in my heart for you"
>"i love you too user. i loved you, i love you and i will love you but we can't be together"
>"why does it have to be like this"
>she cries and cuddles me and then leaves

p7
>two days later i meet up with her to give her back her stuff and get some closure
>i just wanna know WHY and what will be now
>a big party is planned like 4 days after this meet and she'll be there so i wanna get closure
>we meet up, give her her things, she says why are you giving this to me?
>asks me if i hate her i say no
>we talk a bit and it turns out she really isn't the type for long-term relationships
>let's just love each other but not be together and do what we want
>ok
>meet up with metal later
>kiss her sometimes but she doesn't seem to want it
>part ways later
>fast forward to the party
>had no contact with alt from there on
>kind of destroyed kind of happy
>day of the party she writes that she misses me and loves me
>at the party i'm nervous all the time because she's gonna be there later
>get drunk as fucking shit
>she arrives, hugs me first, completely shitfaced too
>tells me she loves me and kisses me on the floor
>later there is an afterparty at another friends place
>i'm going to metal later so i'm not going with them
>at this point the relationship with her causes me more pain than anything
>hear that she cuddled her gay best friend
>ok that's cool i guess he's gay
>after the party at metals place
>he gets a phone call, tells me to wait in the kitchen
>that's weird, normally he has no problem talking on the phone around me
>come back to his room
>he tells me that he doesn't know if he should tell me this
>"i heard alt sucked off jake in the toilet at the afterparty"
>heartbreak2.png
>i need to digest that information for a bit
>she sucked him off in the toilet?
>that can't be true

>that just can't be true
>the dudes known as someone who rapes drunk chicks (so let's call him rapist from now on)
>write to him
>he tells me he doesn't remember
>and even if it did happen it's not your problem
>tell him he's a fucking coward and can't even be responsible for his action
>write some more ugly shit to him
>he ignores me
>call alt
>"i heard what's going in the party. you forgot your glasses didn't you?"
>"yeah i forgot them."
>"and where did you leave them?"
>"in the toilet."
>"because you sucked off jake."
>silence for 2 minutes
>she hangs up
>writes to me on messenger that she was drunk and didn't know what was going on
>keeps writing "i love you"
>"i'm cutting contact with you. thanks for everything"
>"i love you. i love you. i love you. sorry for everything"
>found out about that 10 minutes after she wrote i love you
>block her
>fucking destroyed

p8
>next day
>go to school with metal and another friend let's call him memes
>in the train alt calls me
>"i just wanted to say sorry. i'm so sorry" in a weak cryey voice
>"you sucked off rapist. it's over" and hang up
>one day passes
>overhear a rumour from a friend
>she didn't only suck rapist at the party
>but also my very close friend guitar
>right before the afterparty he tried to convince her not to love me
>"don't leave him alt. he's the most wonderful guy in the world"
>go to kitchen and ask him directly
>"yo. did alt suck you off at the afterparty?"
>"yes. are you angry at me?"
>heartbreak3.png
>break down and run into my room
>first time i cry in 8 years
>fucking katharsis and pain
>let it allll out
>cry and whisper "why god why. please no not like this" for a solid 30 minutes
>metal comes in and comforts me
>says it's kind of his fault because he introduced us
>it's not his fault at all
>next day
>feel a lot of hate and anger, need to let go of it somehow