The majority of people had a good childhood

autism isn't real and just an excuse. Its simply a negative feedback loop.

>you have bad experience socializing at a young age
>instead of trying again, you accotiate socializing in general with the bad experince and avoid them.
>you don't socially develop at a normal pace from lack of practice
>as time goes on you get farther and farther behind.

STOP IT. STOP IT GODDAMIT I DON'T WANT TO BE ALIVE ANYMORE

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you have no idea how many broken people live amongst us.

At least god does not trap you in a small town. It is worse than anything anyone has experienced on here

damn I almost forgot about you today.

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something reinforced those behaviors at a young age. He could have worked through them if he was strong enough.

But i'm on probation for being autistic

Duck you my rural racist life rape is not funny

The majority of people are born with a silver spoon. Not me, never was. But their wealth is built on the suffering of others, and does not always guarantee long term stability. I've stopped caring about that, though. Because my time in the gutter taught me empathy and expedient improvisation. They can't live without their material luxuries, but I know that if I'm able to pull through, my success is guaranteed because of my developed life skills and genuine support from other comrades in my situation.

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Are you me?
Origuini

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At 16 I became psychotic from extreme depression and now I am a schizo.

>might have had drug and alcohol using parents
>possible 'physical'abuse
>mentallly abused
>witnessed some pretty fucked up shit
>definitely dd not develop like othwers
That's as much as im going to put out there

At least you got to experience higher forms of reality and cool hallucinations, right?

according to op its your fault letting your past drag you down.
>all your fault
it was totally my fault that parents have beaten/shouting me everyday
its definitely my fault that my father is a refugee
its totally my fault that my family is dirt poor

Source for any of those?

How do you define perfectly normal? Is someone who does robot job at a factory for 40 hours a week and hates every minute of it normal? He

Attain status
Aquire wealth
Disregard social norms
Rape and kill young women as a revenge for all the years of pain during youth
Also kill shitskins

god
living in a small town is death
I really wish someday I have the capacity to go on a murdering spree and make it noticable, whenever someone dies here its talked all week, so if I get a couple of people or even a couple of dozens it would be really big. Its my one and only dream right now
for those of you robots living on the city, you HAVE NO IDEA what its like
you could literally just, start hanging out with other people, other places, other groups and make a new persona every time you fail, here youre doomed

don't worry bro everyone dies in the end and nothing matters after that about how much fun or work or learn or sex or playing games or drugs you did
why worry you know the fact that nobody lives forever we are born here randomly and we get to decide what to do or not its not like you will remember everything you did in the afterlife or all that science fiction shit

forgot to add its just ur ''instincts'' that makes you feel this way yes they suck I killed my emotions with lots of pills and barelly feel anything at all

Not OP but yeah I know it's my fault but still don't know what I can do about it. I wasn't always this resigned, I used to think that I would succeed in self-improvement but one person can only fail for so long. Basically the only reason I haven't an heroed is because my mom would be sad.

>Rape and kill young women as a revenge for all the years of pain during youth

Unironically doing God's work. Fuck up as many normie femoids as possible, every one is just making the world around them a worse place. Kill them all if you can.

You're stupid. You are overestimating how much control a person has over their own neural makeup.

I feel exactly the same. Once you failed, youre dead

>went to dad's place to help him with some chores
>going back home
>meet some classmates from uni
>they ask if i want to hang out
>say yes cause i'm retarded
>we eat and they ask uncomfortable questions about me since i don't know them very well
>it sucks the whole time
>people start to split
>kissing people on the cheeks is normal when greeting people of the opposite sex here
>shake the guys' hands
>there is a girl
>feeling confident, lean forward to kiss her on the cheek
>she instantly leans backwards
>awkward silence
>she slowly leans forward
>kiss her on the cheeks
>no one says anything
>i say bye and bolt
>get back home, kick a trashcan and start screaming
I don't think I'm that repulsive though. People told me things would get better when I got to uni. They haven't.

Listening to people's conversations in public

imagine being a cuck who puts the blame on themselves for things out of their control. Not a single person who's actually been bullied (bullying != friends bantering you every once in a while) has come out of it "stronger".
>you chose to seclude yourself on your computer
i didn't choose that, it was either the computer or staring at a wall in my house.
>you chose to wallow in pity instead of trying to change things when there was still time
i did try to change things, i tried really hard, the only thing left to do now is pouring the frustration out every once in a while.

the majority of people are chinese