I feel like I have too many issues to become functional...

I feel like I have too many issues to become functional. Like the change in my personality and attitude would have to be so stark I don't think it's possible. I've been in therapy from ages 11-20 and meds (ssris, snris, Wellbutrin, shit like that and even lithium at one point for depression) from 11-19. I don't want to die but sometimes I feel too lazy to even eat, and just the idea of having to do simple tasks every single day for the rest of my list overwhelms me. I'm a neet with no license and severe social anxiety and depression. I don't know what to do.

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Wellbutrin fucked up my eyesight permenently. SSRIs gave me the energy to try and kill myself. Anyone actually got any better on this shit?

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I think my orgasms are fucked and possibly my emotions too (from zoloft). The problem is it's hard to tell what's because of what since I was taking these drugs from pre-post puberty. I don't even know what's "me" and what's the result of the meds.

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Do you have ejaculatory anhedonia?

You mean like post nut clarity? When I jerk off to something kind of abnormal when I finish I'm disgusted in myself but I think that's pretty common. I also just have anhedonia in general

Yeah, they'll do that to you.
I've lost nearly all sensation below the waist.
Going off the meds doesn't help it, seems to be permanent.

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why did they put you on meds at age of 11

No. Ejaculatory anhedonia is when you ejaculate but don't have a real orgasm. You basically just discharge the seminal fluid, but without the waves of euphoria and powerful contractions and all taht.

Fuck.. I think so.. I don't think I've ever had a real orgasm..

Missing school due to social anxiety. I was on zoloft from like 11-15

i'm not really depressed, but pills are probably bullshit for most people. trying to develop an intrinsic desire to be the person you need to be happier is probably the only thing that will work for some people.

jesus christ, your parents suck, tell them that

what do you think could be the root of your problems?

I agree with this so hard. I have no goals or motivations at all and I feel like that's my biggest problem. Therapy and pills felt like a chore because my parents had the final say in it all. Idk I'm so unequipped for life. I'm so lost.

I used to. Though I think it is mostly their fault considering they have complete control over your understanding of just about everything in your formative years, it's not really conducive to anything to bring up unless it's like group therapy or some shit. It just makes us all sad.

basically half my friendcircle has mental problems. and most of them are otherwise normal people. you'd think they are normies. one of my friends is currently in a clinic for social anxiety. struggled with it for years. really worried about him desu. feeling a little guilty actually because i wasnt really there for him because i had my own problems and isolated myself. another friend had an anxiety problem for a couple years, wouldnt go to work, take meds, be borderline alcoholic. would never go out and if he absolutely had to he would get smashed before. its looking better for him now though. another one is a 27yo neet and has been for like 5+ years with absolutely no sign of change. then again another one quit his job due to depression a year ago. still fucked but its slowly getting better. my neighbour who used to run a really successful media agency making tons of cash got like burnout or some shit and has been in the roughs for quite some time now. most ppl struggle or had periods in their lives where they have. seems to be worst for most ppl in their mid twenties. isolation, no work/school and escapism are big factors. my brothers non gamer friends seem to take setbacks a lot better. but i do think it can get better for people. my best friend for example was in a clinic for a while because his mental health was fucked. he was the most robot guy out of my friendgroup aswell, weeb, overweight, social outcast, while the rest of us were basicly just gamer. guess what, he came back from that institution, started working on his degree again, lost weight, found a cute normie gf, got amazing social skills now and is basicly a chad desu. then something shit happened, his college funds ran dry and he had to stop persuing his degree. you'd think that would put him right back in the whole but it didnt. he got unemployment benefits for a while but stayed in good spirits and then landed a well paying job as software developer. he seems really happy.

Jesus fuck that's horrible I would have slashed my wrists open and bled out years ago if this ever happened.

I think it's the culmination of a lot of things. Mostly just parents just my parents ostracizing me for temper tantrums and anxiety as a little kid along with me just being unequipped for life because my parents did a lot things for me

I didn't even know this happened. I always heard men have worse orgasms than women I thought that's what that meant...

Yeah I've been to resedential twice, transitional once, inpatient once. I think it's a lot more beneficial for people who have more intense issues like suicide or serious ocd and stuff. I feel like I've benefitted very little from all my treatment and meds and everything which is really sad to think about. some doctors have said I don't "want it" enough. But like isn't that kind of contradictory? If I don't have motivation to change and that makes therapists not want to work with me then what are my options? sorry I'm just venting at this point

>Stupidly high libido
>Psychopathy
>Anxiety
More or less the sole reasons I haven't excelled as much as I could have.

It is horrible and i consider roping myself everyday.
Stims help somewhat though, but that's only
temporary.

Those damn jew meds royally screwed me up never should've took 'em.