Autistic & Mixed-raced

>Autistic man
>Mixed raced, IQ of 133
>So mixed-raced my race doesn't exist
>No women find me attractive enough to choose me over other men
>No one wants to be my friend because I have no social skills and I'm not their race

What is there to do in life for me except exist?
The other day I masturbated to bestgore, and I felt a wonderful high I thought I'd never receive from life ever again.

I can not live a conventional lifestyle because I am forbidden from doing so by other human beings. My life is hell, and then I'll die. Every breath I take feels like a labor. I don't kill myself because things aren't bad enough to justify it.

I don't believe there are many people on this earth that have a worse life than me. The only thing worse than this is starving to death.

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I would like to take a second opportunity to state my life is a terrible, satanic experience.

I should have been aborted.

One of the worst, dumbest threads I've seen. Maybe you should actually kill yourself.

There's nothing dumb about human suffering.
You just aren't smart enough to appreciate what you're seeing.

Imagine thinking your race is the issue, lol. What an absolute FAGGOT you are OP!!!!!!!

Maybe you would have friends if you weren't a bitch

I'm smart enough to appreciate you're a fag.

People generally don't give a damn about race like that.

>No one wants to be my friend because I have no social skills and I'm not their race
No one fucking cares. Even if you don't have social skills, people will still want to be your friend. They just deal with you as you are. If you don't have friends that comes not wanting any. Either that or some inexplicable neurosis.

but i was born this way.
I'm 23 years old. I've never even broken a bone

>Even if you don't have social skills, people will still want to be your friend

but you missed the 2nd, more salient part

>I'm not their race

>14.8% sub saharan african
>iq of 133
Doubt

My race is on a 95 IQ bell curve.

This is a low IQ LARP right here. It better be, anyway. Still, I'll humor you.

You missed the first part - no one gives a damn. You think being of mixed blood on this planet in this age is unique or rare or something? Literally all of south america mixed and the US is muttified as fuck.

Yes.
It is extremely unique for me.

I am the only member of my race.
The closest thing to me is like White-to-Palestinian.

There is nothing outside of your race due to the clustering on basis of genetic proximity.

I would kill every White, East Asian, Hispanic, Arab, and African if I had the power invested in me to do so. I would rather exist on this planet alone without human beings than live alongside biological enemies.

Your parents fell in love and fucked.

My schizophrenic father had sex with a predatory jungle bunny due to his delusional, Christian mind set given to him by his lying, delusional mother.

I am the product of one of the most satanic relationships possible.

that ratio doesn't quite add up.

I took after my mother, worse than she ever was.
I would never race-mix as I am not evil like women are, but I'm aware that life on this earth is hell and nothing else.

It takes so much stupidity to have children when you can see alligators tearing animals apart as they live and breath. This is the world men and women exist inside of.

Ok I've got you. If your father is genuinely schizophrenic then all this is starting to make sense. Do you have siblings?

A sister, but she abandoned me as women are selfish.

Ok. And I'm assuming she's normal and she "abandoned" you for her lover. She must know you have some kind of issues if you would consider it abandomnent. You as old as 25 yet?

No, 23.
And she knew, damn well, that leaving me alone is total isolation for me.

She just did not care.

Yeah, see. Hate to break it to you like this but you most likely inherited some of your father's mental weirdness. It's not so strong in youth but right around 25ish is when it really blossoms into something life-changing, even if you were relatively normal before.

The issues you have are mostly in your head but the ability to see it won't come without lots of effort and lots of time.

Schizophrenia is a disease of mental strength, not weakness.

It's also blinding though. I'm sure you'll find your way out of it eventually.

You're a fucking idiot.
I'm saddened I spent a second on you

Good Iuck, man.

You make me laugh

>What is there to do in life for me except exist?
Considering that being in this life means you're existing, yes.
Instead of masturbating to progressively more fucked up levels of pornography consider what else you can do with this time.
Studies have shown that when the average person of an Abrahamic religion prays, parts of the brain associated with talking light up, even when not doing so vocally.
Now the interesting part is that for the very very devout prayer, we're talking hundreds of hours in prayer over years, things are different. Not only do the 'talking' parts of the brain light up, but the areas of the brain associated with listening and language processing, also light up.
Whether or not their belief they are communicating with a higher power is real, it's is evident that it's absolutely real to them. Why don't you try to test this out, since you have so much ennui.

I'm not crazy, schizophrenic.

>I'm not crazy, I'm schizophrenic
FTFY

What difference would it make? The point is that even if there's no karmic tally at the end of a life, sitting around pissing and moaning about it won't do anything. You gotta strive for self-actualization, whatever that looks like for you.

All I can do is piss and moan until it's over.

>guis I don't seek fulfillment I just bitch
>guis why is life so pointless??