>car crash dude who was next to me got rushed out, didn't return, perhaps dead idk >food is absolute arse, except the custard >still can't feel benor >no more ketamine, but still on an opiate >spoke to a mental health nurse, talking about "what is best for me", probably going to leave here in about 3-4 weeks and go to a mental hospital near fucking barnsley >sold a table that I spent about 7 hours making for £210 >friend is gonna drop off some brownies so I can get shitfaced >the ABSOLUTE gall of the kikes that try and sell like 45 minutes of wifi for £6 in a hospital
>probably going to leave here in about 3-4 weeks and go to a mental hospital near fucking barnsley did you try to commit kys ?
Dominic Moore
It sounds like you're bragging about being in a mental hospital, sponging off tax payers like this is all a big joke to you. When you're found fit to work and disability benefits get declined are you just gonna take a shit on the floor to get more gibs?
Isaac Taylor
Nah, well not intentionally
I jumped/fell off a roof during a psychotic break, how it happened I don't clearly remember. I have a psychotic disorder that is probably schizophrenia but hasn't been diagnosed as such yet because all of my episodes have lasted less than a month and have at least 6 months in between them, this gave me the diagnosis of APPD but after this I think I'll probably get diagnosed full-blown schizs
Parker Myers
how do is ubscirve
Colton Smith
Why don't you take your medication then?
Angel King
yet another riveting installment, thanks user
Jeremiah Morris
I make my own money, as I've said before in these threads. Going on disability gibs will be an absolute last resort and is currently unnecessary as I've carved out a way to live despite my problems. My parents could probably financially support me if necessary
I'm a taxpayer, I probably use more resources than average but idk, I've had psychoses since puberty. I do my best
As for "bragging", well, I'm bored and I'm blogposting about my life. Sue me bitch
have you ever posted on Jow Forums or anywhere else during one of your schizophrenic fits? if so please post a link i bet they are pretty interesting
Luis Garcia
It's kinda a snowball effect. If I sleep poorly I might be unhinged enough to drink, if I drink it fucks everything up. If I don't take medication for a day or two I'll start doing more and more stupid things until it comes to a vicious head
I'm better at taking medications than most with such mental health problems, but not taking them often comes with the territory. I'm not excusing it, I make poor decisions sometimes, but who doesn't. I'll probably get put on depot injections soon though
What do you look like, are you a cute mentally ill twink?
William Gonzalez
Pretty much all of my "smolle American bepis" threads were soon before or after an episode. It's more of a coping mechanism than a result of being off my tits
I have acne scars, I'm like 14 st, muscle fat, hairy, ugly face. Very strong
Jacob Rodriguez
Tut, I was hoping you'd be skinny with no hair. I was gonna say if you want me to come and visit you we could have a quick shag on the hospital bed. Do you have smol bepis?
Isaac Brooks
I take clozapine. The fact I was ever prescribed it shows that the doctors knew I was a ticking schizo bomb, it is usually given to drug-resistant schizos. They just don't like the schizo label. It fucking sucks and I really hate how it interacts with alcohol (which I've never responded well to but I am weirdly drawn to)
Imagine having to pay for wifi in the fucking hospital The actual state of non-americans
Kevin White
What age did your first abnormal behaviour start? Also what age did you think to yourself "Hmm, I don't think I'm normal"?
Ryan Anderson
WAIT A MINUTE! What if this is all bs and it's all in your head that you're in a hospital bed.
Jayden Young
This is really long;
I had a few "psychedelic" experiences without taking drugs as a 4-5 year old. Things would bend, wave, light sensitivity would increase. I went for a shit at school and the walls/door of the stall converged into a tepee-shape roof at the top and it scared the shit out of me. I didn't think "wow I'm crazy" I thought "well, looks like I'll never shit in school again". Obviously never talked about this with anyone because that seems to be the default reaction to "trauma" as a young child. Didn't get in the way of anything, it was just my reality. I was a nervous kid, but I made friends.
Things only started to become unstuck when I was 10. I had a very early puberty, chin pubes, acne, all that shit at fucking 10. I got bullied for having a "deep" voice. Got put on a roaccutane at 11 (think min. age is now 13), probably one of the earliest at a time when the drug was essentially experimental and its effects on the mental health of children relatively unknown
During my growth spurt I started to get body dysmorphia. Not "I think I'm fat", more "I think my arm is 4ft long". I also had vicious insomnia. Would do two school days without sleeping. Got bullied at the same time, although I was 3rd biggest in my year. I got in a lot of fights and really beat the shit out of some kids. It was a fun time.
at 13 I started getting girlfriends. Things were going really well. 1st 10 month relationship was a little toxic but hell, we were 13. Second was 4 years long and she was great. She still is, but by 18 she started to notice that I had some real problems. We broke up because I had a mid-life crisis and thought I needed to go to uni
Went to uni, got majorly depressed but had some amazing experiences. Insomnia was still a bitch and the corner demons and audio hallucinations started coming in. Eventually this persisted even when I was well-slept. Started speaking to my friends group about childhood after taking MDMA, they told me to seek help
Hunter Watson
I'll continue if you want
Luis Cruz
Have you ever had the urge to kill? Do you have gory fantasies about murdering people and becoming a star in the media?
Brody Watson
I'd rather ask the questions lol. Do you have any eccentric hobbies or interests?
Oliver Young
No, I'm not violent, including to myself. I've done things that look suicidal but from what I remember from my thoughts at the time, I was just being obscenely impulsive. I took 1.5g of MDMA at a festival once. Luckily it was festival quality and I survived. I was just being dumb, I don't know if that is related to my psychoses or if I'm just impulsive.
From what people have told me, I kinda just wander when I'm having an episode. I pick things up, study them, put them down. I explore, I take clothes off. I'll sometimes go for night walks that look like sleepwalking and come to halfway through. Occasionally I'll get paranoid and think I'm running from the law, things like that. The people around me fear for me, they don't fear me I'm pretty boring with a mix of standard university-educated and British working-class tastes. Nothing too weird
Hudson Barnes
here i am, jump-reading all of this this considering that OP is paying jews multiple beer's worth of money to blogpost and whore attention with almost intriguing stories about literal nobody's life
>Hospital day I almost thought that was a British holiday but then I remembered your the retarded Karen poster that stopped taking his meds and jumped out a window.
Yeah, I thought I was bi from 16-20 but I don't think I am, not really anyway. I watch both gay and straight porn but the reality of fucking dudes isn't something that really attracts me (I tried). I like gayposting because it riles people
