3/11/2019
Woke up at 7 am, went for a walk. Been struggling with anger today. Tried reading my Bible to calm down. Saying really racist and horrible things out of spite and anger. Indian recruiters won't stop calling my house phone, I pick up the phone and cuss them out, call them stupid sand niggers and tell them to never call me again. I'm sweating and shaking as I'm typing this. I want to kill something or someone. I hate the world. I hate these stupid recruiters that track me down and try to put me in for jobs I don't want and sell my information to other stupid recruiters. I hate the big tech companies that pay these recruiters literally 5 dollars to day to do this because they're too fucking lazy to do the work themselves. I feel guilty about my actions but I can't stop. I'm a slave to my sin. I want to stop feeling angry. I don't want to be acting this way. Doing breathing exercises. Trying to calm down so I can work. The tech industry is a sham. Fuck 'em. I'll figure out how to make a living all by my goddamn self. Take your whiteboard interviews, your hipster Google culture, and passive aggressive office politics and shove it up your ass. I'll decide my own fate since a fucked up person like me could never work in your shitty office, I'd punch you in the dick and fucking throw you out the window and watch you splat on the sidewalk. Then I'd come downstairs, find your body, cut off your head and take a giant shit down your bloody neck. Then I would cut off your limbs and do who knows what else before the police come and put me out of my miserable existence.
Hows your monday morning /g?