Any schizo programmers here? How do you cope?

Any schizo programmers here? How do you cope?

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Well I've been living on anti-psychotics for the past couple of years, life is mostly stable with brief periods of unimaginable panicking and anxiety and depression then it's back to normal again, anti-depressants do a lot of heavy-lifting for me but the anti-psychotics are the main pillar

What AP are you on? I'm in risperidone and it kills creativity completely - it makes me go off my meds but in a few months the delusions start again.

I'm on 200mg Quetiapine and 2mg Risperidone at the moment, and yes, it does kill creativity and renders me almost entirely unproductive, at least it's better that being in constant panic and paranoia and so on and so forth

too bad it doesn't help you imagine interesting and fun delusions. why do they always need to be negative delusions?

Not him but my delusions were very positive, however it culminated in a suicide attempt because I thought aliens were beaming me up to heaven. I just up and left work that day and jumped off a ledge. There's really no explanation I went full euphoric crazy.

The voices generally help me with tech. I find many aliens are highly technologically aware (as our tech is stuff they've had for millions of years). Before my schizophrenia started I had never opened a computer case, now I make all my computers.

What kind of delusions did you guys get?

Yo yo yo yo
Schizophrenia, how many of ya got it?
How many motherfuckers can say they psychotic?

Eminem may not have known this when he wrote it, but his line about getting along with the voices inside his head is strangely apt. According to psychologist Scott Barry Kaufman, the brains of creative geniuses and people with schizophrenia are similar in surprising ways. They both have an extremely active precuneus, or area that facilitates daydreaming and free association. The only difference is that unlike people with schizophrenia (and Stan), creative geniuses can distinguish between fantasy and reality.

Design APIs then go on a mass shooting.

It actually ain't too bad. I don't take drugs or tell others, if I can help it, and I get along just fine. People either find me a entertaining, confusing, scary, or attractive. I gave up trying to understand why others think what they do about me and just focus on the relationships in my head. Life is far more stable when I just listen to myself instead of trying to figure if the chick I'm interested in just wants money, that 'friend' is using me to bolster their insecurities, that 'group' isn't trying to peer pressure me into being someone else and so on and so forth. I gave up on people because they had already given up on themselves long before I even met them. It's a rare sight to see someone who actaully gives a damn and isn't just waiting for someone to tell them how breathe, shit and wipe their own ass.
Voices were always kind and helpful, yes they also did lead to a suicide attempt and like another user mentioned, it was quite pleasing as well. My life got a lot better after that. Funny way how shit ends up being.

>g is full of schizos
color me surprised

user here Schizo for 2.5 years.
Quetiapin 600mg + Mirtazapin 15mg make chill af.
No strong emotions in either way.
My voices annoy me. Not that good at focusing anymore.

i'm just schizo. i dont know how to program

schizophrenia gets you used to anonymous forums (the beings communicating with you are mostly anonymous (some who hang around with you you begin to recognise) because you can't see them)

Diagnosed with schizophrenia 7 months ago
At least I'm not tranny fuck

I always wondered what would happen to a person if they took 400ug of LSD while having a schizophrenic episode.

I wonder if this is what happened to Terry.

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Schizo-affective user here, basically a (somewhat mild) case of Schizophrenia combined with a mood disorder. The doc says my intelligence makes it worse, since I know what the disease has taken from me. If i was stupid I would be more likely to accept the disease and my brain lying to me and learn to be hapy.

The mood disorder is mostly just depression (major) but there have been times where I was at least hypomanic. The Lithium and antidepressant helps with mood, and a couple little blue pills nightly (Stellazine - an older anti-psychotic, with built in antagonist to combat side effects) helps with psychosis.

you sure the anti-depressants work ? you sure it's not just some placebo effect ?

maybe there is some form of in-between, you could take a little less medication.

take your meds :p

Diagnosed 7 years ago, been to the behavioral health hospital twice, once when diagnosed and once when I was convinced I didn't have schizophrenia and stopped taking my meds. Right now all I need is 2.5mg of olanzapine (zyprexa) It's the most functional dose but there are still very mild symptoms at 2.5mg, anything above 5mg turns me into a zombie. I don't even have health insurance though but somehow my prescription is only $10. Once the delusions progress enough I either believe I am god, or someone else in the room is god, or god is somewhere else effecting me. But it's somehow created in a different view than any religion, because I'm agnostic, and very logical, so it doesn't have any religious components. Also my thoughts become racist but in a strange way where I can see that racism is stupid but my mind still thinks it's why things are happening. There's probably a lot I can tell you but it would take too long.

if you know god you can answer this question : why do bad things happen to good people ?

Because they're not god.

sounds like me.

but they're good boys who dindu nuffin'

You shizo's forgot paid for medicaments, officials send me there to charge you

anyone else see that post?

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Have sleep problems get prescribed 25mg quetiapine

Felt like killing myself while on it and i was so irritated the next day after that dose.

Never take that medicine it's shit
Fuck doctors.

How many programmers don't have mental illness, be it autism, schizo, etc?

>How many programmers don't have mental illness, be it autism, schizo, etc?
doesn't matter what profession. mental illness affects many people out there.

Probably chronic psychosis.

I hope that while the advice they give you might be nice that you can rationalize that they're not real, r-right user?

How the fuck does koruba manage to do >pic related

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Most generally have this thing called "unfunny nerd/geek neckbeard" syndrome and no hygiene.

i don't know, depends if you count anxiety and depression as mentall illnesses, if so then many

i mostly start schizoing out at night (or whenever my mind gets kind of hazy and tired, happens when i have bad sleep in general aswell).
i usually just try to avoid staying up too much. i tried meds but they killed any will to live i had and made me feel like shit (after which i was supposed to take even more meds and fuck that). sometimes i go haywire paranoid but my wife usually calms me down.

Why don't you guys just stop being crazy?

I don't know my programming celebs, only recognize a few. who are these

>yes sitting home waiting for glowers to raid me

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stallman is the epitome of lawful. the man has a code

the're gonna get ya

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Honestly, I think most people have at least one "mental illness"

I think that people are just fucked in general. We never live up to our own standards of normal.

bjarne stroustrup - c++
ken thompson - unix
terry davis - holyc/templeos
david cutler - windows NT
dennis ritchie - C, unix
linus torvalds - linux
lennart poettering - systemd, pulseaudio
rob pike - go
richard stallman - guhnoo, gpl

no he's obviously a libertine retard

I am just sad and anxious and i drink, smoke, and hit and gym to cope

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Only depressive/anxious and schizoid here

yeet

Please don't breed

ADHD and pretty schizo according to my pooh pathology

just a general statement?

Kind of a weird insult insult. Why do you care so much about my personal life? Do you secretly love me?

Started hearing voices at 17. At 23 I underwent Electro-convulsive Therapy (ECT). I haven't had any problems since then.

Another reason I went with that particular therapy was to help with homosexual desires. I had read about some people using ECT to help with that. It did work, but with a major caveat. Anyone I already had a crush on before the procedure, I still liked. However, it prevented any new attractions from forming. Since the procedure, I never met a guy I was attracted to and porn does nothing for me. It's only guys I knew prior that excite me anymore. Not an ideal situation, but a vast improvement in my quality of life. I would strongly recommend it.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Electroconvulsive_therapy

i HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS.

I was psychotic once for about 7 months. A mental break caused by opiate, ambien, & adderall abuse/chronic lack of sleep. I had voices, body motions, input sensations, all kinds of stuff. It was really quite seductive and fun. I actually loved it, -till it got worse. Zyprexa stopped it cold. Healed, learned my lesson.

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Hi OP. I'm really sorry about your condition. I've experienced some symptoms of this but believe it is too rare and specific to not have a source, or consider it an issue. I like to code but I don't do it for work. I find that coffee, good energy, and just undivided attention (no music, etc) besides maybe a vsauce video, helps dramatically with creativity. With mundane stuff, I couldn't tell you. Looking sharp if that's you buddy. Keep on top of your brain activity! If you think something is caused, check your diet and start swapping stuff out. Seriously!
Have a good one

I got my company to let me be comfy and remote after the first week.

nill kiggers

I only get really fucking crazy when I drink or smoke

GOD SAYS: not_the_sharpest_knife_in_the_drawer I'm_God_who_the_hell_are_you look_out I'm_in_suspense try_again boink battle umm_the_other_answer Oh_Hell_No potentially what_have_you_done_for_me_lately unsung_hero theres_no_place_like_home comedy you_think_you_could_do_better revolution you_don't_say Dad lying praise fortitude yeah smart whale you're_so_screwed King_Midas Trump Burp go_ahead_make_my_day I'm_tired_of_this how_bout_it the_enquirer

I guess it just has to do with your state of mind, I'm always in a state of panic and anxiety when I'm not on my meds so the delusions are always panic and anxiety related.
The antidepressants work for sure, man. I've been dealing with major depression for years and years until I got on these meds and they made a huge difference in my life, it's not like I'm happy or anything, I'm not, but I'm not constantly grieving and helplessly moping around like a dying puppy.

When i was 17 i had a rib removed so now i can suck my own dick

you get used to it

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