I'm 30 and still here

>I've been thinking about starting a cult.
You have neither the balls nor the brains. Stop being a faggot.

Stop projecting

>contemplating suicide
quit your job and go broke and starve on the streets before you reach this thought

hmm, yeah, it's not a serious consideration

fuck. this is what i'm doing right now. haven't worked in over three years. using up all my savings. street soon.

Die.

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why'd you drop out of society lad

i lost the ability to visualize a future (that i wanted) for myself. it must be mental illness, an overdose of black pills, or perhaps i'm on my way to enlightenment and freedom from all want.

you are not alone, I'm the same exact way with the same exact explanation

damn dude.

Fellow software engineer reporting in. It is my observation that it's something about this field that does this to people. Maybe it's most STEM fields, I don't know, but this one I have experience in.

The work itself is solitary in its nature, but moreover, living perpetually in a world of abstractions and things seems to be dangerous to people's mental health. It appears to detach one from one's emotional side and the rest of the world, I guess. Maybe one needs some kind of anchor to keep themselves connected to the real world and more importantly to people. Otherwise you'll end up lonely, depressed and contemplating suicide because
>why does any of it matter anyway

Just my 2¢.

well then, we are probably weak-minded victims of this japanese-owned russian-jewish-cia psyop co-op. mind-fucked fools squandering our first-world birthright and genetic inheritance.
i really don't know and can't isolate 'the problem', so i guess my solution is to let my social/financial condition degenerate to survival status. self-imposed third world living i guess.

I more or less just wanted to develop a personal philosophy. You'll start thinking of some real crazy shit once you compare all the existing gods find them unrelatable and invent your own. Suicide won't fix your problem, ponder life long enough and you will find the idea of perma death ridiculous. Atheism and some religions suffer from the same corruptible influences, namely walling you into believing that it all ends if you don't follow someones guidelines; not to say you should be a degenerate and spread nihilism. Atheism is the ultimate blackpill.

I have it alright. I have my own company and work from a laptop. Even still, sometimes I just want to go live homeless on the beach on Hawaii. I think it would be a major net improvement.

I also hate most other software developers

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Stephen King pls

>I have it alright.
>I have my own company and work from a laptop.
Wealth stops contributing to your happiness when you surpass $70k a year level (outside SF/NYC/etc). The way I see it is, once you've managed to put a cast on the broken leg, you'll notice the pain from your broken finger.

yeah. one year i made 200k and it was one of the worse years in my life in many ways. idk man. fuck. I think the cure is a wife and kids but I can't find any women who haven't sucked 100 cocks already

Well I am almost 31, fit as fuck, single, shill for Russia/Putin and am obessed with ponies. Your point?

it seems we've both got mental illness, haven't we?

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I know those feels. My suggestion is, make enough bank to live comfortably and try get out of the city. The decent people reside outside the cities.

>make enough bank to live comfortably and try get out of the city.
That's my plan right now, but it can be soul crushing in the short term. I hope the mythical country girl really exists.

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Well yeah, but I have a hot ass aftear years of squats and deadlifting and a perfect set of teeth, so I am happy.

I went to ukraine for six months. I didn't intend to stay that long, I was just having that much fun. Until I wasn't anymore and I came back to the US. Sometimes the thing that makes you appreciate your life is throwing it away. Be careful though, the home you come back to is not the same one you left.

You were thinking about your career and not the endless happiness you gain from self-sacrifice toward your children. At least you get to buy nice things to do up your childless house.

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should I go to Ukraine?

maybe I'll have some kids, that would be nice

cool blog

Same here. Before I got my thing going, I thought it'd be awesome to get women aggressively flirting with me once they knew how much I make, but now that it has happened IRL, it's just demoralizing. Everything's for sale.

>I hope the mythical country girl really exists.
I do too, I got a lot riding on it (no pun intended).

>obsessed with ponies
>happy
Pick one and only one.

>Before I got my thing going
mind elaborating?

>I went to ukraine for six months
You ventured east of Kiev? Is your job military/gov related?

No matter the previous questions, after 6 months, what is your estimate, will Ukraine eventually fall back into russian orbit? Entirety of it or just the "Novorossiya" (southern half) part?

user, you are basically me right now. Barely paying rent with side work. Did a few startups but nothing is panning out. I hope something hits and I can just run with the money into a minimalist lifestyle.

Kind of adding to what the other user said, I've done career and personal work as both a mechanical engineer and programmer.
Personally, while software is awesome the satisfaction I get from the creation of physical items is much greater - Nothing in life satisfies me more than making things. It makes me feel powerful, using my skills to create tangible goods, both for artistic and productive needs. It grounds me to the world and unlike a compiler, allows mistakes. Also much easier to involve other people with.
So maybe consider picking up a trade or craft. You could even add electronics to utilize code if you want to ease in. Good luck man.

Fuck off. We're full. Stay in your precious slums, city beta.

I started out as a codemonkey making $30k/yr, now I make $110k+/yr steady doing freelance. In the US that's not that much, but here it makes you a 2-percenter.

When I was a kid, I played The Sims. Eventually, my Sim's job got in the way of keeping him happy, so I simply had him quit. Things were rough for a while. Since he was home all day, I started having him build up his skills, and eventually he maxed out the crafting table skill, and he started making these masterfully crafted garden gnomes. They sold for the Simoleon equivalent of $50 each and took very little time to make after the skill was maxed out, so he ended up making the Simoleon equivalent of like $300,000/year just making these little for part of the day and selling them. I used to fantasize about just making gnomes for a living, and that's something that has come back to me in recent years.

How'd you get started, and how do you find clients? I don't freelance, I just handle my own business, the main source of my income, but I could see freelancing in the future.

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That really got out of hand, fast.

I liked it. It was cheap and fun. The people were friendly. Unless they weren't. The english is bad there, so learned some of the basics, and printed out smartcards to help. I let go of all the problems of my past life and didn't spend any thought toward the future. It was great. It was terrible. I met both interesting and uninteresting people and had a great time with both. I met beautiful women, who actually gave me the time of day. It was a life I liked living. At six months there, a sense of reality come back to me. I was overcome by the feeling that I had somewhere else to be. That my interactions with people there were somehow inauthentic on both sides. That I've lived for six months with nothing to show. That I couldn't stay, marry, raise children there. That this wasn't my life. I moved back to the US and now I do IT in NJ. I probably didn't need it. But maybe I did. It was interesting, but a huge waste of time. Hope you figure out what you need.

>Looking back, I think everything would have been better if I'd gotten her pregnant.
You could still get her pregnant unless this girl you're talking about had one of those feminine penises.

>You could still get her pregnant unless this girl you're talking about had one of those feminine penises.
a girl from socal 15 years ago has probably fucked 1,000 men by now

Long story short, I heard freelancer make mad money, so looked up recruitment companies who provide you with clients but in turn take a cut. Now I have an endless job supply with a wage normally reserved execs and average lawyers.

this is literally from earlier tonight

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I thought Finns were rich as hell, is $100k really so uncommon there? Anyway, recruitment companies sound like a great concept. Unfortunately, we don't seem to have those, just headhunter companies that kind of suck ass and are more annoying than helpful

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>I thought it'd be awesome to get women aggressively flirting with me once they knew how much I make, but now that it has happened IRL, it's just demoralizing. Everything's for sale.

You would be better off not showing off your money. It's called the chav dilemma here, you can get one chav who is perpetually skint and bumming around from house to house but has at least four children to three other women by having extreme self confidence in himself.

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You're not still living in that shithole are you? it's rated the worst quality of life state in the US and the end to that perpetual trainwreck is nowhere in sight.

Shit meant for you

no i live in the midwest now which is a little better and cheaper, but the average woman has still fucked 3-5 guys by the time i meet them

It really is. The reason we have no homeless and niggers because very few are mansion rich, although the country's headed towards your direction, sadly.

rightmost girl is quite attractive but I will never understand British style, only now are you guys getting out of that bizarre not-quite-the-80's mode you were stuck in throughout most of the 2000's

big hair, absolutely disgusting shoes and outfits, animal print, black spandex... what the fuck

>You would be better off not showing off your money.
I've learned that the hard way. It kinda sucks.

>It's called the chav dilemma here
Ha, TIL

>It really is. The reason we have no homeless and niggers because very few are mansion rich, although the country's headed towards your direction, sadly.
what are my odds of moving to finland and poaching a cute blonde-blue finnish country girl

i just want kids who look like me

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>*no niggers

what does mansion rich have to do with the homeless and nigger quantity, fren

It's bretty gud, actually. Just get a job here and I think in like 4 years or less you can be a dual-citizen. Be forewarned, the language is difficult and the winters are weary (we've got 7h 25m of daylight today).

>You ventured east of Kiev?
I flew into rostov russia. I bought the things I would need on the trip there. changed money. I spent a two days there in a hotel. It was okay. I took an azov taxi, shared with two other people, to ukraine. they didnt stamp my passport on entering ukraine, just leaving russia. I went to donyetsk first. I visited lugansk. donyetsk is a much better city. I rented an apartment for stupid cheap. I think it was something like 55 dollars a month. I even watched a soccer match while I was there. They had a couple cool bars. Several nice restaurants. many people who want to share a drink with an american. too many coal mines. very sad stories. rare to occasional indirect fire.
>Is your job military/gov related?
я тypиcт
>will Ukraine eventually fall back into russian orbit?
I think it will take the same path as transnistria, abkhazia, south osettia, or nagorno karabakh. The novorossians are in no hurry to end this conflict. an endlessly violated ceasefire, out into eternity. These people have no sense of tactics, battlespace shaping, even how to properly employ combined arms. I think russia can wait ukraine out until they have a change of heart.

Sorry if I am unclear anywhere. Any questions?

>It's bretty gud, actually. Just get a job here and I think in like 4 years or less you can be a dual-citizen. Be forewarned, the language is difficult and the winters are weary (we've got 7h 25m of daylight today).
how are relationships between older men and younger women viewed in Finland? I'm Czech and it's a little more tolerated there than in the US where it's basically completely fucked by feminism

>what is income inequality
>what is social mobility
tl;dr it's a societal level choice between allowing super-rich and super-poor to exist, or to modulate both by redistributing monies to things that actually work rather than just giving out gibs.

Honestly, it's not great. People laugh at older guys/women who do that, and terms like cradle robber have translated to Finnish.

I gotta go to work now. It's been fun, have a nice day, anons.

>People laugh at older guys/women who do that, and terms like cradle robber have translated to Finnish.
It's considered creepy and strange here and it's really looked down on. I don't care about being laughed at whatsoever, I just wonder if it's simply a non-starter

you too bruv have a good one

This. We don't want depressed, nearly homeless cityfags shitting up the countryside where we hunt and fish.

imma comin frens, i see cheap property and low cost of living and it's like a gold mine to me

Peter! Whaaaat's happening.

Wise words

>3-5
of course
you were 16. I don't know how developed you were, but I was 10cm shorter babyface, when I was 16.
If she manages to fuck that, everything goes.
Woman are adult by 16 and should get pregnant.
Males shouldn't get anything pregnant until after 25.

I'm looking for a wholesome younger woman who has saved herself, probably gonna have to join a church.

anyway, bedtime. night Jow Forumse.

Good night, slpeep tight frind

then you shouldn't be fucking 16 year olds by 16.
ofc. it is her job. but you'd need to advocate for gender segregated schools and woman to marry by 16, to 20+ year olds.
By 16 or even earlier woman just feel like having sex with a man, because it is their nature. By the media and their isolated environment, they get tricked into fucking unattractive males, because they get confused about their attraction to men.

:3

Kys already faggot
This is not your blog

that's fine but I'm not going to lower my standards

Sick quads. Nighty-night

I thought you meant thirty and still on Jow Forums. I started using the chans before Jow Forums and Jow Forums before the /b/ board was added. I'm heading quickly to forty, and I'm still here. And I haven't become an emo twat talking about suicide on pol either for that matter.

So, in brief; kys faggot.

Classic Canada

me neither, but yo need to see, that it is extremly unrealistic, that you get married then.
I noticed this girls confusion, when I was a litteral pre pubescent late bloomer kid and some 14 year old with huge tits wanted to do something with me.

>no trump cock worship
Into the trash it goes

You did a 3¢ finnon

this girl was fully developed and did not grow or develop further anymore later. She was peak attractiveness, but instead of finding a millionaire to marry, she thought, that she needs to get together with a pre pubescent kid.

>contemplate suicide
Eh, don't do it man. This timeline is crazy. You never know what might happen.

Work on yourself and set goals. Positivity is the way forward.

National Socialism has also helped me a lot after I got out of the depression and suicidal phase. The heart of NatSoc is positivity and optimism. What made me so sad was how awful and degenerate our society is. I thought everyone just wanted Saddam and Gomorrah. Turns out I'm not alone, and it was just our societal corruption from a foreign pathogen. Life gets better, and we are on the way to fixing it! :D

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I'm 38 and still here.

Don't forget: you're here forever.

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35 checking in...

well that escalated quickly

The life of a gutterpunk with a baby only looks romantic if you're not living it.

Acid girl isn't in your life now. You two broke up for reasons, and I seriously doubt that that reason was too much sleep (because no babby crying every two minutes) and too much money (because no extra kid to support on your allowance and her tips from working as a barista after school.)

>It is my observation that it's something about this field that does this to people.

Sometimes I joke that the middleware and constantly changing APIs make me want to kill myself. Running in place because Apple or MS or whoever decided to fuck backwards compatibility AGAIN is pretty sincerely depressing. (And I suspect that it's worse for one-person operations because we can't just have one expert fix the libs we're using, we HAVE TO do it ourselves before we get back to work on actual new content).

>rural people
>decent

The fucking fuck?

My ex worked in a small town before we got together. Left after her boyfriend at the time strangled her. When I meet people in bars, it's the city types whose stories are 'so this one time I got really fucking drunk and did something retarded' and it's the countryside types whose stories are 'so this one time I stabbed someone'. Dating an American now. Her parents had a place in the countryside, sort of place you meet white American kids riding on horses in the park, farms, single-family homes on acreages. Sort of place where these nice white American kids shout during arguments with their boyfriends "If you don't do what I want I'll stop having sex with you!". The girl in question was TWELVE. The park toilets keep breaking because the kids who aren't fucking or going to jail for strangling their girlfriend or working in the drug labs entertain themselves by getting drunk and vandalizing shit.

There is wisdom in this approach

>and I sometimes idly contemplate suicide.

if you are going to die, why not take out a few of the people who made you miserable with you?

better to go out in a blaze of glory.

>positivity and optimism

Mass murder and enslavement is positive? Fuck off, stormshill.

You seem to be pretty confused, ignoranceshill. Whatever they actually did of what you are attempting to describe is by no means exclusive to them. And it certainly doesn't define them if you aren't completely indoctrinated.

And I'm talking about National Socialism, not merely one particular incarnation. There is so much more to it than that short period of conflict you only seem to know it by. You have a lot to learn, and the parts you are ignorant of are incredibly positive.

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Also, they helped save your country from the Soviets, you ungrateful fool. At least some folks in your country are still grateful and appreciative. They are smart enough to see the beauty of National Socialism and keeping Finland safe and Finnish. Pic related from December '18.

You should love and cherish your people and homeland.

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>other people commited mass murder and slavery too

That's not the ringing endorsement of methamphetamine communism that you think it is.

>national socialism was fine as long as you ignore any time when they had actual power

>Also, they helped save your country from the Soviets

The Molotov-Ribbentropp pact assigned Finland to the Soviet Union. Showing up with an army to 'help' kick Stalin out when he invited Stalin IN is manipulative bullshit. Further, his 'help' included murdering Finnish citizens until we told him to fuck off and remember his place.

>still grateful and appreciative

The morons carrying the swasties work in cooperation with Russian Nazis. Their OVERT goal is to make Finland part of a Scandinavian totalitarian state. Their recruitment posters mostly aren't even in Finnish!

>tfw all my online friends were finns and we're good at the games we played together
Fucking finns why are you so gud?

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