I don't care anymore. In this day and age when everyone fucks everyone I will never find love. Not even in Japan

Your life isn't only consists of sex. Don't dwell on it.

All i know is i hate myself.

How are you supposed to meet people? Whenever people go out they go in groups, never alone. Everywhere i go i risk getting killed. Fuck this shithole man. Why did i have to listen to my parents and the fucking rules at school? Whoever was the dumbass who thought kids would develop healthy relationships when prohibiting them in the only place they could have supervision?

Sure as fuck it doesn't consist of studying and working hard. That'll be the end of me. If thats so, i want to die right away.

yeah, Honduras and El Salvador are on another level, even we dont have it this bad. Honduras in the literal murder capital of the entire Goddamn planet, I assume El salvador is facing the same problems more or less

Last week was cop hunting season.

my standards are pretty low, I'm just an autist who has terrible time talking to people. It has nothing to do with looks. People lose interest in me because they know I'm not normal

Bad comparison. Really, don't dwell on it.
(to be honest, i could have sex a long time ago, but i still virgin)

I yearn for intamacy so fucking bad

On the contrary, the internet has given average or below-average women unreasonable expectations relative to how they look. Men shouldnt base their expectations on porn, but it was a total mistake to give women access to the internet.

I just don't know what else to do. There's nothing to do here, no amusement parks museums, no place to ride a bike. Most we have is booze and shitty marvel movies. It's nothing but trash.

Whores?

Don't you know anybody in your town that likes the same things you do? I have a great friend nearby who also likes to work on car engines, talk about JRPGs, and shitpost about anime. I don't try to befriend normies who have no life outside of being at a pub.

>whores
yikes

I want more than just sex

You can sign up to the club, which you like.
Personally, I do Wushu.

I'm an autist who learned english early and had parents who bought me games and a pc when everybody else was too poor to afford more than a football ball. I spent all my adolescence playing RO. Of course i don't know anyone, i'm more of a foreigner in my own birthplace shithole.

Fuck man, even local autists who like anime only watch shonenshit.

How did you meet said friend?

This is reasonable advice.

how did you even find this place?

can't you just get an arranged marriage?

Just socialize and meet new people, choose any girl you like and repeat 1 step, after that, if all is well, date her.

i dont know, i will have to waite 4-9 years

Seems like you're more unhappy about your country than your romantic life (or lack of)

looking for porn and memes.

Of course, i feel i don't have the chance for a romantic relationship because of how shit this place is.

Just where the fuck do i meet people?

Why do you measure your value on the basis of your contact with other people andor the fulfillment of the norms bestowed by them? Why do you think you have to have sex, study, work, communicate to be content? All of this is facultative - you can live without it.

I was your pos

A woman who is below 7 is not worth the effort required to court and maintain her now that she can just get dick on order thanks to tinder.

fug, pressed the wrong key.

I mean, I was in your position. It's not worth it, you can live without that.

Percival de Souza.

>Percival de Souza (Braúna, 17 de outubro de 1943) é um escritor e jornalista investigativo brasileiro.

Is this some "kangz" type of guy?

Then what am i supposed to do? I want a family, i'm about to graduate from medicine, i need money to stay alive and its a miracle if you find a job here. If i want to have a chance i have to study more shit and compete , if i want to get out of here more and more studying and network and all that bullshit. I'm sick of it. I'm done, i don't want to be in my mid 30s to start living my youth, i don't want to bury my parents before having my kids. I don't want to see them getting their first job when i'm on my deathbed myself. I want the only time i get to not be a pile of dust to be worthwhile.

What I'm trying to communicate to you is that if your opportunities in life are as dire as you make it sound (and you sound like it, I obviously don't actually know your situation), it's time to prepare to the fact you're gonna lose some shit and act in a way that contradicts your current values. That is, what you have marked as life goals right now may turn out to be unreachable, and you have to be prepared to cope with it, because when one is hit by the realisation the hopes of his youth will never come true, it hits really hard. I've been trough it.

As I said above, I don't know your situation, only you can make sense of it. People will advise you to have hope, pursue your goals no matter what, shit like that. That's bullshit. As you grow older, you'll lose your friends (that's guaranteed to come first), your relatives, etc. You will realise there was no point in aquiring\maintainng them in the first place.

I can't give you a more adequate advice, you're young and desperate and I know how it feels to be like this, and that it's hard to listen when you have overwhelming problems yourself. Just... don't place much hope on anyone but yourself and prepare for even worse times.

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