1. cunt
2. why am i like this?
constantly tired eventhough i've done nothing, i keep putting off work/assignments until the day of the deadline and i'll make up some shit excuse to push back the date; i keep self-sabotaging my self, keep shooting myself in the leg.
i can't live like this anymore. i need someone to fix me because this is out of my own control, i don't have the wits to fix myself. i need a gf.
>i need a gf.
stopped reading there
of course you fucking did cause thats the last sentence
take your vitamins
based retard
Hey me too!
go for long walks/drives
How new?
2011
i'm still a based newfag as always
>mfw 2009 anons are still considered newfags
my mum wont let me go out at night
ideally, if i lived alone i'd never stay home but instead go for nightwalks with a cigarette in hand and lofi in my ears
what about doing it early in the morning?
anyway, some simple exercise will certainly help clear out your head a bit. you can always do some calisthenics in your room
This is basically me but I’m gay
>constantly tired eventhough i've done nothing
Do some aerobic exercises like jogging, I know it sounds retarded and counter-productive because you are looking to not get tired but doing exercises regularly will give you more energy long term.
nah man, thats good advice, thanks
i'm probably tired because theres not enough oxygen going to my brain due to my lack of exercise
kek i've recognized the problem, now its time to see if i'm able to fix it or not
>early morning
folks go to school/work at that time, i dont want people to see me
put of signing up for the gym again because i know nothing about it and am gross and fat and will look like a retard.
at least its 24/7 so once i get in i can go when nobody else is there. Because i don't instinctively know the social conventions and norms like most people who go and gym people are super bitchy online. Maybe i should go to another gym first so i can go to this one long term without all the long term shame about being that guy because i spent it all on the other one.
your brain's lazy, you need stimulate your brian with something
Why the fuck would having a GF change any of that at all? You need to learn to save yourself, because a "GF" will probably not be willing to do it for you
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This could also be a symptom of ADHD. It
most likely no one will pay much attention to you. just start off with easy stuff like a bike or treadmill. look for things you may want to try while doing that, then go home and watch videos to show you how to. good luck with it
have gf, still doesn't stop me being a insane procrastinstor like you
i don't really want to bother with cardio because it burns so few calories for the time and effort and i could ride my bike anyway. More i want to turn fat into muscle so my metabolism burns more and because i can't cut properly since i drink too much because thats all there is to do socially and i just can't eat 1200 calories a day.
i just get really self-concious about doing anything to improve myself publicly because of how effortlessly most normal people do it and it means i become that guy. It put me off home gym already when i lived with my mum because one of my brothers friends moved in so there were constantly people around and all the gear was outside so i couldn't avoid being seen like i had for the last month i had been doing weights.
thanks though
>i dont want people to see me
are you me
guess i need a wife then haha
i dont have the discipline to fix myself
i need someone to fix me for me
How old are you? Sounds like high school or college. I was a lot like you. Now I've changed so much in the past 5 years.
>he cuts on 1.2k calories
do you want to die or something
If you haven't already, Jow Forumss sticky unironically has solid information regarding lifts, or at least it did. Also, anyone who judges you for trying to improve yourself is a jackass, any decent person will think higher of you for trying. So keep that in mind I guess.
21
i live with my parents since uni is close by
how'd you change compared to 5 years ago?
>i need someone to fix me for me
that's honestly what I thought too, that my gf would motivate me to do shit. but I've realised even while she does I still won't do the shit I need to.
I hate to break it to you mate, but ultimately its you who needs to motivate yourself, no one else is gonna do the shit you need to do.
to compensate for getting drunk on beer 1-2 times a week and then a few more on Wednesday because the people i live with have a catch up with their neighbors then. I'm not sure what else people even do to socialise.
yeah i think i already have a decent amount of knowledge its just doing it. It's all in my head,i just don't like being thought of in general so its enough to put me off doing something mildly unpleasent for 20 mins like lifting weights.
Understandable. Maybe one day you'll get the home gym luxury again. Anyway, good luck.
thank you. This is my therapy without needing to spend 3 hours wagieing
Can be a good place to express thoughts definitely.
i dont know if its because i'm mentally ill or what, but some days i get pumped up and feel like i can conquer the world, but the moment i close my eyes for a nap or sleep, i instantly feel down, like depressed down
it would be helpful im sure but it would only be thinking about the fact that it's 3.5 hours of work i hate or a week of drinks for half an hour of being able to talk to somebody where im still but a bit less self-conscious
I don't know how prices would compare, but have you ever looked into online therapy. I've heard of it before, but I've never looked into it.
maybe ill have a look, probably be a scam though
Good chance of that, can't hurt to look I guess.
I was lazy as fuck. I never left my room. I had terrible anxiety. I had no ambition. I thought I was hopeless and I hated myself.
In middle school, I became a social recluse and slowly became depressive. I couldn't even go to the cafeteria at uni if somebody I knew was at the checkin counter, and I'd go days without talking if I could. Somehow I got a girlfriend in uni but she left after realizing I didn't give a shit about anything.
Now I'm actually a likable person. I earn a lot of money and I work hard and well. I'm not afraid of other people anymore. I'm confident and am looking forward to all I will accomplish in life. I still am an anxious person and prefer being alone but I've learned how to channel it towards good things. My sister ended up killing herself due to similar issues, but honestly I'm doing great considering where I was a few years ago.
It started with fully accepting how low you are. A different perspective will help you do that. For some people, it's a counselor. For me, it was a drug induced panic attack. I started reading self help books and even did door to door sales to help overcome social anxiety.
It sucked and it's a long process but damn, it's so rewarding when you think back to where you were a week/month/year ago and think of what you could do now compared to then. It was small things at first like being unafraid to go to the grocery store or see somebody in the hallway. These days, it's having a job that pays almost as much as my dad ever earned and feeling secure about my future.
>inb4 nice blog
sorry for blog but I hope theres an user out there that reads this and feels any sort of motivation
I feel the same