Greed

Recently I became acquainted online with someone who is extremely wealthy and after seeing their wealth and hearing stories of how much freedom they have, I've went from being relaxed and willing to give anyone money, to feeling intense, obsessive thoughts of greed that are stressing me out. I'm quite literally feeling heartaches over wanting to acquire as much wealth as I can.

Has anyone else experienced this? Is it just a phase? Am I setting myself up to go broke trying to chase this lifestyle? It's literally gotten me very much depressed inside, because I live on welfare and know I can never obtain it, but SEEING it has just shattered my world view.

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Could be just a phase, i've felt this way before but not so much lately. Mate just focus on improving your situation, get off welfare and start making progress you might never make millions but you literally can start building wealth if you want

Yes this is normal. Humans obsess with all kinds of things, myself included. I have figured that it is good to change focus if the obsession becomes too consuming. There are many nice things in this world to obsess about, you can juggle between them also.

You just need something else to focus your mind on.

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Have you tried just not being poor?

I lost a chemistry job, couldn't reenter the industry, didn't have income for a year, and now I'm obsessed with being financially free. I'm selfish, borderline sociopathic, and work on the ground level at a fortune 500 financial firm now. I will get rich or I will die trying.

Don't see that going away anytime soon, i let that moment of hopelessness define me and now all i think about is money.

Hmm,.I'm trying to focus on other things but I keep finding myself watching the markets and, being the slow-minded kind of guy I am, sluggishly trying to learn a trading pattern to make my edge...

Theres so many other things I want to focus on but I'll be honest, my obsession is kind of causing me physical pain in my chest that I can't ignore.

>chemist
Why don't you cook meth?

Is that your story?

I think mine is similar.. Trauma resulting from lost of money and unemployment, then to see someone with financial freedom. I'm not sociopathic at all, I don't want to hurt people but.. maybe that's why you'll make it.

How old are you? How did you go from chemistry to fortune 500?

Hmm, yes. I have no family and spent good portions of my youth homeless. Fact that I have my rent paid, a running car I consider lucky for now

Thought about it. Think mdma would be better; more low key in terms of smell. Heard a good dea agent can smell a meth lab a mile away.

Yup, that's the latest back story I tell myself now. Really hit me hard. As far as sociopathy goes, what i mean is i attach no emotional value to money, and i don't care where it comes from as long as there's no strings attached. I don't mind steamrolling people if they get in my way, and if I have to fuck people in the markets to get mine, that's what's gonna happen. So nothing crazy like preying on clients, yet, we'll see if I get to that point.