>alright looking dude, pretty average social skills
>find any social interaction exhausting, only think about how I talk, how I sit, how my arms move, look at all microexpressions on the face of the other
>want to turn off empathy level to 10%
>work 8 hours a day
>have friends, but don't really have any "true" friends that I completely trust and don't believe any of them really care about me, just only want to be with me to feel better about themselves
>sit at home saturday evening alone
>tried everything - exercise, diet, therapy, medicines, moving to a different country, getting a 'social hobby', no fap, no booze
>gambling with my savings on bitmex to feel some dopamine happiness, smoke some weed to numb the pain
>mfw all there is left is to kms
Alright looking dude, pretty average social skills
too many feels, you're not alone
Go take a shit skydiving and try to beat it on the way down.
so your self aware enough to know these things about yourself but not self aware enough to know how to improve your situation?
Self-awareness is like an onion. There are multiple layers to it:
The first layer is a simple understanding of one’s emotions.
We all have blind spots.
The second layer is an ability to ask why we feel certain emotions. Why do you feel angry? Is it because you failed to achieve some goal? Why do you feel lethargic and uninspired? Is it because you don’t think you’re good enough? Understand the root cause of the emotions that overwhelm you.
The third layer is our personal values.
Why do I consider this to be success/failure?
How am I choosing to measure myself?
By what standard am I judging myself and everyone around me?
im very similar. there are enjoyable days, and other shitty days. kys is a stupid choice.
im just going through the flow waiting for a shitcoin i hold to pump a bit so i can escape my wage live which basically sucks me. not cause its hard, but cause of the routine, cause i have to get back to it, to think about it, to be preoccupied about the money, etc.
i dont think i will be a very happy person, i just dont want to have that preoccupation.
Can't give you any advice since I'm pretty much on the same page here.
>tried everything - exercise, diet, therapy, medicines, moving to a different country, getting a 'social hobby', no fap, no booze
"tried everything" but didnt try drugs and go to raves
ggwp
I'm pretty sure I have layer one and two covered. I discussed that during therapy and that clearly has to do with the way I was raised, some bad things that happened, and the people I surrounded myself with. It's all quite boring and standard, not even remotely traumatic. Understanding why I feel the way I feel does not really help me.
just live
do you also have a stupid standard for women?
i opened my tinder again after 1 year and a few months, i have so many matches (im a very normal dude, but know how to take pics of myself), and girls talk with me, give me their phone, i sometimes force myself to go through dates and its such a fucking boredom. i only seem so wish the girls that are almost unattainable.no idea whats wrong with me, cause im not really shallow in other facets of life, and its not even the looks im looking for. is finding something almost perfect. i have no idea what im searching for. i think life one day might bite me after I rejected so many people who could have helped me so much.
That's some quality advice, I had not considered taking drugs and going raving would be the answer all along.
I've been with many women, but I tend to push them away once they get close. Got some of dem trust issues, it's all very immature and cliché.
It could be that your standard is also based on trust issues, and that you use your standards as an excuse to not get involved.
love this one
you described my behavior towards women when they get too close :/
Those are the symptoms of being stressed out, user. You need to force yourself to take regular breaks and naps during the day and you'll immediately feel better.
get therapy, maybe it will help you. godspeed brother.
unironically it is
story time?
Kek your just a normal dude in your twenties or thirties.
Everyone is struggling with these kind of feelings. You don't see it because everyone is having a fake smile on social media There is no real solution, I know because I tried all the things you mentioned and more.
If you want some suggestions that can give you some release
- delete your social media
- set some long term goals
- invest in relations (also having a GF gives you some meaning)
- go into the nature (I'm getting back into fishing)
not really, but a shroom trip every few months keeps you sane
also mdma and raves, thats just on another level
Wow just described me to the tee. Tho I truly believe the small amount of friends or ppl I interact with truly care for me.
find god
thanks man, got the social media / nature covered. long term goals / relations are something I will definitely focus on.
Good for you. Cherish it, really.
Great man, good luck to you
that's a great picture, thanks.
>find any social interaction exhausting, only think about how I talk, how I sit, how my arms move, look at all microexpressions on the face of the other
yeah iktf
Hehe, OP, you got your brain and dopamine levels fucked, maybe we can fix it.
Do you really wanna change?
If you're dead set on doing it find some way of blaming Sam Hyde for it so he can become famous and the rest of us can watch WP2
He didn't even inhale #weak
It's called avoidant personality disorder
Have you tried transcending to a higher frequency? Craving dopamine is low entropy dawwg
Build a rocket company. Or an electric car company. Or a solar panel company. Or a tunnel boring company. Or a AI company. Or a neuralink company. Pic related. You sound like him.
Oh, and read this book. Seriously.
this is so relatable, fuck
Become a happy person
more likely schizoid
>have friends, but don't really have any "true" friends that I completely trust and don't believe any of them really care about me, just only want to be with me to feel better about themselves
Too real
Before you kys yourself try taking some phenibut. You can't take it more than 2x/week without building a tolerance, but it basically cured my autism. It feels like being drunk without losing any control of yourself. Music sounds better, conversation comes naturally, and you don't have to constantly observe and judge yourself. The best part is that it's like training wheels, so even though I don't take it more than once a month any more, I've kept like 80% of the social gains.
This guy's not memeing. I recall there being a recent study where participants were given a single dose of mushrooms and it made a significant amount of them quit smoking long term.
I was honestly kind of disappointed in the podcast. I don't think Elon is half the genius people make him out to be. Maybe he just sucks in that type of interview.