You were my best friends these last 2 years. I started crypto in 2016 and made a decent amount of money. Lost a lot this year but still quite good compared to what I started with.
I am a NEET with no ed/job. High IQ & Autistic and have never really had a girlfriend. School was torture for me.
Most of these last years have been hard on me because of crippling cirumstances, regarding family and my health, which caused me great depressions.I've been taking drugs as a method to escape the mental pain.
I've spend my life on the internet since I was 8. I am 21 years old now. I've gone so deep down the rabbit hole regarding the world it's had quite the affect on me.
Psychedelics have given me the desire to die. But I don't want to kill myself yet due to my mother. I can't put that on her. But she's getting older. When both my parents are dead I am going to kill myself. I have no future in society and can't function properly. I am totally isolated and never go out. I've already decided my method.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I just felt like sharing my feelings with this board. I don't really got anyone else. I know it sounds pathetic. But I've been there, and my life is just suffering and depression. I am never going to have kids, never going to start a family, never going to be a productive member, and I will always just be chasing new ways to get by. I've got no real purpose in life. And thinking about death is the only thing that calms me down. Cya biz. I don't know how long I still have. But it's coming.
21 year old and can relate. Im permanently damaged. Im disgusted of being human.
I will wait with my 50k stack Link. If we dont moon by mext summer i shall hang myself.
Gabriel Ross
Those movies Mirrors and Mirrors 2 are scary as fuck if you watch them in front of a mirror while on lsd. Try that and maybe you'll die or live and feel better for a few days from the adrenaline rush of fear. Or maybe you'll end up inside the mirror
Sebastian James
you can't function without a "purpose" enjoying life for what it is?
Parker Mitchell
If its over the money, don't do it. I sold a shitload of bitcoins at a loss around 2015-2016 because I had to pay rent. I do mean a shitload. You'll find a way to recover
Ryder Parker
Whatever you are feeling right now doesn't have to be a permanent state. Everything, everyone can change.
As long as you are smart, you can make it. Find your destination in life, stop being a little bitch and definitely stop thinking about quitting the only life you have. What comes after death is way worse than what you have now. You won't exist anymore, your mind will disappear into the abyss. If you truly think this is what you want, you need to seek help from a real human being. Death is never the answer. Fight for the one and only life you got OP.
Ryan Green
> I have no future in society and can't function properly. I am totally isolated and never go out. I've already decided my method.
>I don't really got anyone else. I know it sounds pathetic. But I've been there, and my life is just suffering and depression.
Western society is fucked dude. That's probably one reason you're feeling this way. I know it's an unconventional suggestion, but if you're going to give up anyway, why don't you try joining a buddhist monastery in asia? (Nepal, Indonesia, or wherever). It might be a tough and interesting change for you, and you might come out a happier and wise person who can turn his life around.
Don't give up on life without at least going all out and trying different things.
Lincoln Morris
>But I don't want to kill myself yet due to my mother. Good, never ever dare to shift the burden of your life over to someone else who loves you so much
Ayden Davis
I never felt that much of dopamine for several day in a row like back in december in my entire life watching my portfolio. Now bagholding these bags for all these months were 100% worth it
Sounds like OP's mother is the selfish one. If OP is suffering, he should have the right to die.
Brandon Lopez
hope not through iron sights :/
Carter Bell
Pls don't do this user. I know this world can feel lonely at times but you can't give up.
Zachary Mitchell
OP, I have a suggestion for you though. If you really feel this worthless in this world, you've probably not done the effort to explore it more. Sure you might be nothing in your area, but spend your cryptobux on a vacation to maybe rural SEA and spend some time there with locals. Just rent a bike and cruise around, feeling free and significant in this massive world, as the locals will be very friendly and cheerish you. Recommends Philippines for the best experience.
Because then maybe you can find a purpose in your life. Maybe you stumble across someone who needs the kind of person that is you. That is the best feeling honestly, and you will finally start to see a purpose in life. Maybe you find your significant other there. Maybe she is not the girl of your dreams but it's the girl you love and would establish family with. Maybe in the end you decide to move over there and live a comfy simple life at some desolate beach sipping coconut water enjoying the calm sound of waves washing up
I've been in your situation, and honestly traveling the world to interact with other cultures cured my suicidal thoughts and made me feel like I have a purpose Please consider this, bro
Lincoln Smith
If you love someone so much as a child, are you a selfish person if you get completely broken if the person offs themself? It's literally shifting the burden onto someone else because you cba to fix it yourself so you let someone else suffer
Samuel Jackson
why these threads always pop up on friday evening?
Dylan Cox
how many?
Kevin Lee
Bro 21? You got plenty of time holy fuck.
I'm 30 and have juuuust about hit rock bottom. (Phone disconnect, vehicle repoed, electricity cut and quite literally getting evicted tomorrow) no education. But I feel it's still not too late. My problem this past year of slowly killing who I am has been because I have no idea what it is I want to do for a living. I've been working independently for 5 years but this year motivation is just nowhere to be seen. No dirextion, I lack direction. I'm tired but restless and can never be satisfied or disappointed. I'm kinda in this lucid state where I'm starting to feel like my only way out is killing myself but I'm not afraid of death... Only afraid of dying.
Funny thing is, it's less then 10k total in debt that's got me completely crippled and helpless, friends offer me food and shelter but that's not what i need. I need a type of work that satisfies my needs and I have no clue what that is. I'm confident I'll find what makes me happy eventually just right now has been tough.
Blake Adams
Just don’t trust favelanon dude will pretend he wants to help you than just take it all
Fucking kids, 21 years old, think you have seen dick. Suck it up and get used to living how you do. I'm as old as the 2 of u put together and been a solitary NEET since before you even touched a computer. U get used to it. anyways some shits going down soon and you won't want to miss that. In a world where everyone's fantasies are shattered, dying of starvation and disease, the tables can turn. Think about teaching people to collect food by using dead bodies to attract insects, for example.
Chase Powell
This might sound cliche Op but have you thought about helping someone else? Giving truely is the best medicine.
Cameron Russell
When's the last time you touched a tiddy though :)
Straying away from the point of this thread though. Anyways, im confident I'll find my way hopefully sooner then later but who knows... just don't stop exploring.
Anthony Torres
I found the boomer
Benjamin Lee
Iam at the same fag level as you, iam sick of the world and had no friends.
But I met some really great friends at an faggot convention. Sorry for this shit English but I'm german and iam drunk sorry
Life will go on.
Daniel Russell
>german >faggot convention poetry
Andrew Sanders
>not living for videogames
Aaron Hall
>I've got no real purpose in life. Use your imagination?
Sebastian Nelson
Oh no what an misunderstanding
haha this situation is stupid
Tyler Evans
What the fuck is with all these beta bitches always saying imma kms Why not do something useful with the acceptance of death right after you do it? Why not do something about the pedophile Jews in the government? Why not do something about these enemies you have identified ? It's not like you care about your life or going to hell for suicide, so why not murder these enemies? What is the logic
Eli Mitchell
I can understand OP, and I think that he thinks that no one would do that for him, so why he should waste energy for some other living beings?
Caleb Green
kek this is how people get radicalized don't listen to this faggot OP, he's trying to manipulate you into making things worse for everyone else
Landon Hill
he's tired tired, not pol style tired
Ayden White
>killing Jews >making things worse for everyone else
user, I...
Jaxon Butler
Yes OP, sadly it is probably best to KYS. A lot of people ITT will tell you to "go get em tiger," and talk about how you can always turn your life around, but they are just trying to cheer you up. The reality is, for super autists like us who grew up on the net and Jow Forums, there is little future. We are too stunted from constant black pills, social isolation, and autistic obsessions. There is little to be done at this point. Good luck with your suicide, user. Make sure you do it right so you don't become a vegetable.
IF you have aspergers/autist there are companies that headhunt autist spesificly
one company emplyed multiple autist that had lived on welfare whole life. since they excelled at a spesific thingy they produced insane amount of wealth for the company and was take very good care of
there is a company out there that only hire autist mate dont give up.
and if ur gona kill yourself before your parents are dead. i will kill you in your grave
I also have autism and have been in a similar place to you. I planned to overdose and decided to take mushrooms one last time before killing myself, I thought they'd tip me over the edge to be honest. Ended up having a intensely introspective trip that changed me completely, it hasn't been easy since but I've never felt that way again. I would have missed out on so much good shit if I'd gone through with it, I finally got a girlfriend, actually managed to stick at a few jobs long enough to make some ok money and went back into education. Killing yourself is like selling your bags at a loss and potentially having them moon later on. I've rambled enough man, I don't know you but believe me when I say there's always a chance. x
Brayden Barnes
why didn't you kys yet then?
Ryan Edwards
I will be KMS soon. I just have to take care of a couple things first.
Please OP, when you KYS, think of me KMS. We may not have been able to make it in life but perhaps we will run into each other in (((the beyond))). I will be your fren there.
Aaron Adams
I feel like you, OP I have no joy in life at all. Nothing feels worth doing. I can't even think of something that would be exciting. I just want to end
Ian Davis
OP should make it look like an accident then. The burden would be less.
I'm literally a 35 year old loser that got laid off from my shit manufacturing job and is back living with his poor parents with his gf who also was laid off. Still not considering suicide and i should desu. Don't do it though. My brother offed himself at 18. It will fuck your parents up. You're still a young pup.
