Tfw the depression starts to set in

>tfw the depression starts to set in
What has your lowest low been financially? My entire life has been a financial low and I can't figure out how to change it besides wagecucking

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pic related my actual face

Kneepads

I had $300 left in my bank account and threw it all in btc on a gamble for my life at $2,000. I had just 700 of the $1,000 I saved by getting screwed on an M&A play and various bad stock purchases
Then traded the alts boom and continued buying btc, sold possessions to buy, took polo loans etc. Stopped buying at $8,000, sold half at $16,000 and the rest at $18,000, put the profit in the stock market right before the 1Q18 correction, spent all year making it back, got justed in this latest correction.
After all this shit I'm still better off than I was this time last year but overall justed financially and probably doomed to a life of wagecucking. My best bet is to just dump all my in the market and hope I can boomer retire in 30 years.

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i dont wanna end up like that other user

seems like you learned a lot though? You're chances of making it have probably gone up

you guys ever reach that point in life when you just wish you could have a good job and a normal life, heck i dont even mind wagecucking anymore, i just wanna be happy but it seems like its impossible to even land a decent job

What other user

I've been in $5000 in debt with no money before. I've also gone from having ~$120K to having about $15K from the ETH price drop. I'm a NEET currently but it's not something I can continue for much longer than a few months or so unless I move back in with my parents. Luckily I have a useful degree and there are plenty of job oppurtunities for me. I also have plenty of work experience in my field at this point. I just have to suck it up and find something decent now. I'm 24 years old and I trade a lot now. I've gotten pretty decent at making money from daytrading but I have other interests and several other avenues to make some money currently which is nice. I wouldn't call myself a loser by any means. I may possibly be moving across the country for work if I can get into this new position I am applying for but I definitely keep myself busy with learning new things. I'm a programmer so I am actually working on a crypto trading bot and seeing how it works out. My biggest issue right now is getting back into shape after a surgery I've since recovered from but with the proper diet and exercise I will definitely do that too. Just hang in there. We're all gonna make it.

Just a few miles underground trying to dig my way out for as far as I can remember.

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This, charge 50 bucks a blowwy, wear gloves though, shit's getting snowy, look at op, giving a snowy blowwy

Eat healthy, exercise, clean your surroundings regurarly, be outside for atleast 1 hour everyday keeps depression managable for me

You know the guy that sucked that old guys dick for money and had an existential crisis

My chances of making it are still pretty much null because the days of making 20,000% in btc are gone. If there ever is a golden bullrun again, let's be real it's going to be a 10x. And 10x of my life savings is not enough to make it. Even if I used leverage it's still not really enough. At best I can move to the upper class from the middle, even then I need to wagekek forever or at least decades.
>learning
I didn't though, I recognized the top in crypto pretty easily but for some reason the top in stocks whooshes right over my head. Literally never saw it coming, now looking back it is so obvious
Take pic related for example. The first bump on here is a miniature bubble, yet I still bought the second iteration of it even though it made the same pattern. That lesson cost me a thousand bucks
I'd say my chances of making it went from 0.50% to maybe 2% at best

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No. I hate working for some asshole. Go hustle and you'll have more time to neet it up.

Im starting to think the depression is actually whats getting me through every day, working hard and interacting with others stops me from feeling the full power of the existential dread, its like when I get home.. I panic and have this extremely dreadful feeling.. i go to sleep straight once I get home from work and try to sleep as long as i can not because in tired but because the feeling of dread of the future just weighs to heavily on anything i do

Have you tried exercise user? Have you tried eating vegetables?

I'm depressed no matter how much money I have. It's a life-long illness with no cure. Fuck me

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Try finding a quiet place and listening to meditation cds, focusing on your breathing when you feel like that bro. I know it sounds like some hippy shit, but I used to get bad anxiety attacks and completely got over them doing that.

This is too much fact
>even if you make it, you'll never really be happy
Why even go on? I don't know what pushes me forward

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Happiness comes from within. Not that I'm happy mind, people I love are dying around me.

It happens whenever I finish working.. Literally on the drive home ill feel like shit and ill drink myself to sleep sometimes because some days I just lie in bed feeling fucked up thinking about a lot of shit and end up not getting any sleep, the anxiety i can get over but my issue is the distance i put between myself and everything that makes me have this weird full body feeling of being afraid and repentful if thats the right word

Could be worse

thats what im saying, the only thing motivating me is believing that my life "might" be worth something and ill actually be happy one day, i dream of that day, this same belief has actually made me believe in god in a way

Within is all fucking rotten and evil, outside people think I'm a nice and relaxed guy, inside is just disgusting. Full of hate and anger
My worst fear is that I'll wake up old one day and realize my life has been a waste
Maybe that's the motivation

Megadose Vitamin Therapy. Specifically Niacin(B3) or Magnesium. And fix your disgusting diet. 3rd world countries live on rice and veggies. They're cheap.

I can definitely relate to this. I had a problem with alcohol for years and my sleep is still fucked. I sometimes don't even sleep.. I used to drink until I blacked out as a crutch to forget things that happened to me, but once I stopped drinking and realized I had been letting my past dictate my future things became slightly more bearable. Try just sitting and only focus on slowing your breathing for ten minutes before you sleep.

some days I don't eat just to feel hunger instead of dread, its one of the ways ive realized i cope, im scared if i try this and it doesnt work ill be even more hopeless, thats kinda why ive started to fool myself by believing in God

Bros.. You know I love you right?

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Diet does nothing. I exercise regularly biking 10+ miles a day and eating fruits and vegetables.

Sometimes it goes away for weeks at a time but then it always comes back.

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>some days I don't eat just to feel hunger instead of dread, its one of the ways ive realized i cope, im scared if i try this and it doesnt work ill be even more hopeless, thats kinda why ive started to fool myself by believing in God

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I've noticed heavy exercise takes 4-7 days to affect weight
maybe it's inflammation or water weight

oh depression I still have it all the time
the exercise high lasts like 90 minutes I guess

Plenty of greens to alkaline your body fren.
It sounds like you want to change things, which is good. You need to figure out the source of this feeling of dread, then you can overcome it.
Love you too bro, I hope you can find happiness.

we're all gonna make it. even if it's just pretend
this is the blackpill

Do you take creatine? That can bloat me.

excercise is one of the best things in my life, the only others is fapping eating and sleeping

The exercise high feels amazing, but yeah it only lasts an hour or two(at best). Motivating myself to exercise is the most difficult part. I know it will make me feel better but that knowledge makes no difference to me. I have to force it

I know this feel all too well...

;_;

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This, it won't cure it but just eating better food and keeping active can help a lot. Are you overweight OP? If so losing that weight should be your first priority. Try cutting out carbs and frozen shit especially.
t. depressedfag on keto for 3 months

Boxing is the thing I get the most endorphin rush from exercise-wise. Boxing and running. I get about 20 mins good feeling after weights, then it's back to normal.
I need to start getting up at 5am and running for an hour, then hit the boxing gym in the evening again, been slacking the last 2 months...

I used to use that until I got hospitalized using an experimental substance that locked up my system
In highschool I wrote to supplement companies and used everything every odd company sent me and one NOexplode knock off fucked me up

I only do cardio and light lifting now, the sauna is amazing too

I box as well, the hardest thing for me is getting motivated enough to actually work at it, some days I get super pissed at being a depressed loser and box as hard as i can until I get tired. i dream of being really good at boxing and i watch a lot of boxing in my free time because i have a passion for the sport, i make too many excuses for myself and end up just lying in bed

I am overweight, i eat garbage and drink alcohol