Life advice

>vyvanse
is this better worse than adderal, ritalin, provigil?

2200 something on the 3 part SATs, forget the exact score, which is really high. i do well on tests, especially when proofs or partial credit is involved.

well you havent failed yet, you might succeed. you havent been doing it for 5 years with clear evidence that you are bad at it

i cant troubleshoot shit on a computer either, i did programming because it seemed like the easiest, surface level maths but its all people who are disciplined and shit

honestly, not even joking here: you sound depressed and lost in life. You need to look for deeper meaning, find the joy and purpose in existence. No joke, go to church, start praying, start talking to God, ask him to help you out and tell him you'd like him to guide you.

If you let him, I guarantee things will get better.

he's smart as fuck at learning and shit thats clearcut but not as much in a practical way, which requires a different intelligence.

this sucks because he's probably like "i'm a genius" but then he is outperformed by relatively stupid people so he's like "i'm a retard"

Lmao. Tomber. I love it. Get some doom metal down you, OP. I recommend Draconian.

Scoring above 2200/2400 on the SAT and not being able to troubleshoot a computer is rather interesting. Why can't you troubleshoot? Do you forget things that you should know in order to troubleshoot, or do you get frustrated easily, or do you not approach the matter systematically?

You're not a straight-up stupid person, which is why I suspect a psychological diagnosis and treatment might be possible.

yo i'm sorry but this is terrible advice.. It might click if OP is religious, but if he isn't, it will not.

You can't just force someone to believe in god and pray and shit, its kinda like a personality trait. For some people god is clearly real and an actuality, but for actual intelligent people it's like a joke that makes no sense

leave the gf

You are too high IQ(>160IQ) and suited to long term "big picture" planning, most programming is medium IQ(120-140IQ) tedious bugman shit

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every time i see a psychologist i lie to them, or if i am somewhat truthful they try really hard to push meds on me, usually antipsychotics or SSRIs. ive seen at least six since graduating high school. a few in college and two since graduating college.

unfortunately with ADHD drugs i try to stay away from them because i abuse them. my mom is an alcoholic and ive been straightedge for a few years. rather stay that way.

no religion here, sorry

yeah, thats why i said my brain is fake. i can anticipate what people are going to say/write pretty well despite being socially retarded and poor at asserting myself. it helps on tests because tests try to lead you to the answer, it is more collaborative. practical stuff like shopping, computer troubleshooting, buying health insurance, it takes me hours to do basic things. i just wont do it.

all my instincts about it are wrong.

> Do you forget things that you should know in order to troubleshoot
my semantic memories are stupid factoids that are interesting in conversations and make me appear intelligent but i have no practical use. my managers that are vaguely interested in softer/middlebrow philosophy love talking to me, my bosses boss is former marine that loves sports, and doesnt give a fuck about anything besides work. which honestly is more admirable than what i am.

i forget basic things like unix/vim commands that i use weekly to troubleshoot our cloud instances, basic javascript comparisons, reread the same specs every other day because i forget, my coworker reminds me to do unit tests almost every single pull request. this is with a couple lists on my desk instructing me what to do.

> or do you get frustrated easily
i do but being emotionally weak is not an excuse, i was looking more for advice.

i can troubleshoot somewhat, i am just quite slow, if i need to do it, it can take a half day