This is fucking it guys. This is literally it.
I lost everything. For 4 fucking years I didn't want to get a job because I thought I could be a full time "trader". I never believed in cryptos because I always thought they were just meme monies.
I thought I was more sophisticated trading futures commodities and some stocks here and there.
At my prime I made 10k go to 65k. I know it's not much in the world of hyper-bull crypto of 2017.
But it took me 4 years of learning. I was red, green and red throughout those 4 years. I learned very carefully how to trade efficiently.
I thought I was considered a good trader. Then the delusion hit me. I couldn't take it anymore...I kept watching bitcoin and other coins just skyrocket. I was getting a bad case of fomo.
I dropped everything and bought bitcoin futures. That was the worst mistake of my life. I bought bitcoin futures at 10k and destroyed my account when it hit 6k.
I managed to just say fuck it, i'm screwed. And invest fully into crypto. I had what little remaining and I entered the market.
Needless to say that 65k is now 8 grand. And i'm about ready to end myself. All I have this 8k in is chainlink. The only thing I think out of very few that aren't bullshit exit scams and meme coins.
But I can't hold on much longer. i'm losing myself. i'm losing control. I don't know what to do. I have bills to pay and I can't even do that. I'm lazy and don;'t want a 9-5. I hate wageslavery. I'd rather die. You guys fucked me up bad. I should have never listened to my idiot friend who told me to get into cryptos. he knew nothing.
