>be me >just turned 25 today >studying computer science in the 4th semester >still have to pass two more exams from previous semester, which I failed >have nothing archieved in life, apart from one useless degree before >stressed out and can´t sleep at night because of 1000 thoughts in my head >can´t focus by day because of that >really doubt I will get my bachelor like that >grades aren´t the best neither >zero success with girls here >all my friends do better >depressed as fuck because of all the things above
This is basically a toxic cycle. The more I think about it, the worse it gets. I have panic attacks, that I don´t get my bachelor and end up with nothing and alone by the age of 30. I´ll kill myself if that happens. I am so fucking down. Literally crying right now.
My self doubts and problems basically get worse every single day. Any advice what I should do, to fix that, anons? I didn´t plan to die young.
Daniel Jackson
If you're in university, there should hopefully be a counseling center on campus. Seriously, go talk to someone. Get some help, it might seem pointless, but please do. Don't kill yourself user
Christopher Powell
Currency is your salvation. Accumulate.
Elijah King
Just grind it through. I mean it's just fucking tough and you picked a hard subject. I have physics and sometimes it's fucking shit and hard af. Had the same problems as you by the way. Start lifting Still got trough tho. Don't give up
Robert Kelly
do you enjoy CS at all? I was going back and forth between accounting and CS but ultimately went with accounting. CS seems more appealing now that ive been in accounting for so long but I think I'd find both boring. I've never come across any subject interesting enough that I'd want to study or work on for years.
unless you're a nigger, cs is a dead end. they only hire niggers
Sebastian Nguyen
Most important thing for you to do right now is let it out. Cry as much as you need to, then calm down and take a few deep breaths. Doing anything under this kind of emotional stress will not help you in any way.
Luke Myers
Maybe I´ll do that, yeah. Even though I don´t think they can provide some value. I still have a bit of hope.
Thanks user. Good to know that I am not the only one who struggles. I guess I need to learn to focus more on the important stuff and the things I have done well so far, and not always think about the worst possible outcome. Will start lifting soon, once I move to another shareflat, since the one I´m in right now is just toxic and it´s far off from a gym as well.
>do you enjoy CS at all? Well, let´s put it that way: I don´t know what I should do otherwise. It´s really an up and down. I have subjects which I hate, or find boring as fuck, and some which I really like. But overall I think it is the right thing.
