It's official, I've run out of awesome shit to do.
I grew up in a semi-privileged environment. Parents were working class but my dad eventually started his own business and we became sort of wealthy by the time I was 10. Got to go to private schools, got into a great university and came out with no debt because parents paid. I basically had an "american pie" type of youth and I look back on it fondly.
I graduated with a degree in stem and took a year after to get a masters, though immediately after graduating I moved to a major US city, where I worked a pretty awesome job for a year before leaving and trying to become an entrepreneur. Don't really want to get into details about it, but after a few failed ideas (that were honestly pretty dumb looking back on it), I met an older guy who liked me and we launched a semi-successful product and I made about $500k throughout the whole ordeal.
I just want to quickly interject that during this time I wasn't working I was supported by my parents. They paid for everything and gave me spending money until I was 27. Most people who go off and do their own thing like to leave out the fact that they have rich parents who just support them until they succeed, but this is the case with almost all successful entrepreneurs in this generation (obviously some make it by their boot straps or whatever).
Anyways, with my parent's help I bought a really nice condo (I already owned a condo which my parents bought me when I moved to the city), and I rent that out and that's basically my spending money. In Jan of 2017 I got into crypto and made about a million dollars since then. There have been wild ups and downs, and at the peak I was at about 2.2MM but didn't cash out because my tax burden would have been insane... and I also thought I'd be worth like 10MM by now lol. But whatever.
Since about August of 2017, I've just been doing literally whatever the fuck I want.
I’d just pick a place that seemed interesting, plan out an itinerary, book meals at the best restaurants along the way, and just cruise through. I started and ended many relationships with Tinder. I would write in my profile that I was a traveler looking to have friendly drinks with people, and I”d get a lot of matches. After meeting up with them I’d casually invite them to an ultra expensive restaurant (all casually before, basically saying I wanted to try it myself, and just needed someone to go with me as to not seem like a creep), and I ‘d basically fuck them after the dinner. Some were one night stands, others lasted weeks or even months, and I’d pay for them to travel with me or stay with me or whatever.
I’ve also had sex and made over 30 pornos with porn stars. Mostly American and European, but have also filmed myself with escorts in Asia as well. I have a nice little collection of porn that I often jerk off to. Also in the city I live in, I have a madam who hooks me up with girls whenever I feel like.
I’ve done this for almost two years now, and it’s really getting boring. I’m not depressed, in fact I’m incredibly happy. I just don’t know what to do or where to go from here. I’ve spent a great deal of money but still have a lot in savings and stocks, plus I own my own home as well as a rental property flat out. Again, I am NOT depressed or unhappy so please stop with the “muh rich parents ur a degenerate read nietzsche” crap. I’m well read already (at least to an acceptable degree) and am not struggling with basic and easily solvable dilemmas.
What do I do next? Recently I’ve been wondering what the purpose of life is, and what consciousness is. AGAIN, I’m not depressed, but I think I’ve reached a point where I’m actually free… What should I do? I honestly don’t feel like traveling anymore, it got to the point where it was just a form of distraction for me.
I do have hobbies. I write music, bike a lot, lift weights, cook, and kayak.
I mean perhaps it's a VERY small feeling of malaise or melancholy, but I genuinely don't believe I feel depressed. It's more of, "what else is there? Why are we here?"
It's actually sort of like optimism, in a weird way.
Colton Rivera
well, I found the responses to be unsatisfactory.
Jason Stewart
>inb4 pajeet
another pretentious cunt I see, IM NOT DEPRESSED BTW
Thomas Diaz
>I do have hobbies. I write music, bike a lot, lift weights, cook, and kayak. Then the only thing you're looking for is spirituality. There's nothing else to do than observe your own consciousness and nothing worldly that anyone can offer as a solution. Might want to look into Eastern philosophy. Also, you're pretty weird to completely change your story.
Jackson Powell
kill yourself in some weird creative way
Carson Evans
I didn't completely change my story, but I will change parts here and there so I can't be identified in a real life... pretty sure at least a couple people I know may come here
Luis Morris
Jesus Christ you are cringe why don’t you go to >>>reddit you annoying faggot larper
Hudson Adams
Hang yourself
Nathan Williams
agree with this, user.
> If you want to be a cringey gay bastard go and do it on a cringey gay bastard site, you wanker.
Luis Foster
I didn't read anything OP. Life can become meaningless without limitations. Try eating 10 big mac. This should give you some purpose. Greetings Sergey
Lincoln Morales
If you are anywhere in the western 3rd of the US, get a summer job as a wildland firefighter. The personal challenges you will face, the things you will see, the extreme boredom you will experience at times, the isolation from society and learning to trust the people you will meet will be a total change from the background you come from. You will get a whole package of new experiences very different from your sheltered life, and you won't be forced to do it for any longer than you want to. Im not suggesting you do it forever, you already seem to have it made, but just try it out for a season and go see pieces of wilderness few people will ever step foot in.
James Martin
You lack a purpose for your life. Find something that you enjoy doing like trading or researching something. Life gets boring if you live it only to fill your desires.
Ryder Walker
damn, this is a good idea
Landon Mitchell
Better idea would be to kill yourself you keeping favgot
Jaxson Edwards
this.
Create something. Stop thinking consumption will ever fulfill you. Also, try building a relationship or two and try to lift others up, instead of using girls for sex.
Alternatively, give me a large chunk of your money. We can transfer it via Bitcoin. It will make you feel great for helping another person, and will dramatically improve my life. Or you could pay off some medical GoFundMes, or campaign for better conditions for the working class in America.
If you're not willing to do any of that, then don't post here again.
Then he's just experiencing babby's first existential depression, and he should thank his stars he didn't go through what most non-brainlets experience as a teenager.
Mason Ortiz
Take LSD and see how deep the rabbit hole goes.
Michael Reed
Can you send me hooker funds? It'll help you to know that you helped me bust a nut.
Lucas Sullivan
This
Jeremiah Miller
what's your actual net worth? $2mm? how is that rich enough to do any of what you described? following the 4% rule that's $80k income. so you may have a condo you live in, but then you aren't collecting rent on that so your income is lower. but you aren't traveling the world, eating at expensive restaurants every night on $80k/year. that's actual a poverty income in expensive cities. unless your spending your principal, then your going to run out...
