For you, what's the point of having money?

if i leave behind a big stack of cash i can feel less guilty about killing myself

financial stability and independence.

fag

Freedom to do what I want, including pushing technology forward and helping people

I literally just want to move out of my slavic shithole and have my own home just so that I can start educating myself in an anxiety-free environment.

my dream life consists of growing a vegetable garden and some dank weed. also sleeping in every day and cooking delicious meats. most importantly not wage slaving

Freedom. The powers that be keep their leash on culture via economical subjugation. Nobody wants to speak out on faggotry because the crony capitalist power structure is pushing degeneracy and would demand you be terminated and lose your livelihood. I'm a deeply religious man and it pains me to tow the party line and put on an eminence front for the fake culture that's been built by these faggots. It pains me deeply as a man to not be able to call someone a faggot. Or tell niggers they're a bunch of niggers when they demand gibs 24/7. Most of all, it pains me that I spend so much time making some corporate stooge rich when what I would really like to do is change the culture around me and strengthen the kingdom of Christ.

Repent of your pornography and faggotry, OP