Being emotionally numb is the only reason I'm still alive. I've spent my life wage slaving and I have nothing to show for it.
Every once in a while I have a really great weekend. I don't feel better after. It breaks me out of my numbness cycle and knowing I have to return to my crap life makes me want to die.
Anyone else feel the same way?
how do I get out of this cycle?
yea, i distract myself by spending all of my free time on Jow Forums, youtube, or reading. and now trading which i've found is a good distraction
Yes
Spend one hour a day on self-improvement. It's that simple. I'm going to start tomorrow, you do it too.
Ending up like that has always been one of my greatest fears.. If I had choose between being poor but doing something with my life I'm passionate about and being wealthy but living a wagie drone life, I'd 100% choose the first option.
Idk what to tell you OP, maybe consider a new career?
I want a family, I strive for that, having someone that relies on you is something I think will be a fulfilling life.
y tho?
Waging is waging.
Having something leeching off you doesn't sound like a good purpose. I'm very glad I never got a bitch pregnant.
There is no good reason to be alive, we're like plants, the biology does its biology thing and tricks us into thinking the sex and food and security are meaningful.
So yeah if you breath you're doing fine as a living organism.
If you want security and sex and food and medication though, just buy rsr or fantom or some other shitcoin ride the pump while waiting for link to drop to 60 cents then go all in link and wait.
You'll get money to buy a solid house that'll give you the fake feeling of protection (worked for wolves, we have bazookas now), you'll fuck lots of thots if you're good looking or lift, that'll give you the fake feeling of reproduction (we have contraception now), and eat tasty shit with sugar and fat that'll give you the fake feeling that you're stacking food for when times are hard (we have supermarkets now so you'll just get fat)... If you read philosophy you'll get purple pilled and that's just shitty because it'll give you hope (you got to have a little of blue pill in you to think you have found the solution and then write a book about it), if you read /pol enough you'll get blackpilled and will become a doomer, if you read /pol long enough you can break out of the blackpill and get honkpilled (best pill in my opinion HONK)...
Just eat and trade shitcoins and play videogames and try to nofap and lift and meditate (you won't be able because deep down you know there is no meaning in becoming a superman, but you should try to do these things and relapse, good game to torture yourself with).
Funny thing is most of us know deep down that not wagecucking is the same as wagecucking, but we forgot it for a while and got addicted to crypto and then it became its own game we must win at.
what is your job?
webdev
is this r9k?
last time you have sex?
I dunno if this applies to your job but i hate the thought of having to sit in an office all day. Maybe try doing something where you could be your own boss so you dont have to live the same repeating cycle over and over. Pretty sure you could do that as a web dev
No. I have my sick cash stack to show for my years of hell and misery.
Anyone just been trying to enjoy feeling horny? i don't want to fap just to extend my hornyness to beyond safe levels
I'm remote most days. It doesn't really help.
Close to a year ago.
Being horny is just more shit to deal with. Zero enjoyment and fapping is just a chore now.
you guessed it.. Frank Stallone
Try going a few months without any internet porn, fren. You’ve been overstimulating your brain and the dopamine receptors you have for natural rewards are being shut off every time you spend hours tricking your lizard brain into thinking you have an endless supply of novel mates to select from.
>Anyone else feel the same way?
Yeah. I fantasize about retiring constantly. But I don't think I even really want to retire, I enjoy my work on some level. It's just that I have to work with people I don't enjoy, commute, and in general work on my employer's terms. I'd rather do what I do but for 20 hours a week and choose my own projects.
dogecoin
Spending time in the office isn't as bad as the 90 minutes of soul-sucking time spent commuting each day
Is this pasta
It's not, trust me. You'll grow to resent your family for taking away the last shreds of freedom you still had. Good luck doing anything remotely enjoyable when you have small kids.
t. Dad
nah man was just smoking weed and decided to write something instead of the usual honk or have sex
Have sex, stoner
I like you user.
Sauce me on that chick. I’m a leg man.
How old are you?
You don't need to want to die. You will die. Until then, enjoy the ride.
>I'd rather do what I do but for 20 hours a week and choose my own projects.
kek this is every wagie ever who actually enjoys his work. 40hrs per week with 6 weeks vacation is dumb
live for yourself, try to find a girl, instead of focusing your efforts on staying private, which you appear to not have a knack for, work for a company in some capacity, not strictly webdev, and be employed full time, that pays eventually after maximum of 5 years $50k and above salary, if it's in the city you'll have to be stingy, out in the country, and it's easy to live happily on that wage. You have to save 1/3 to half your take home income. file your income excluding money taken for rent to deduct from taxable income as the total amount reported will go down making the feds take it lightly on you.
Go use online auctioning sites more often, you can find many things for dirt cheap prices. Pawn shops have cheap items, and furniture consignment shops often have high quality classy furniture for low prices, there's also all available nearby flea markets. You can find a SH**TON OF GOODIES THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL ON TOP OF THE WORLD.
Live for yourself, always vote the party of limited government, but pay enough attention so you don't vote someone who will be able to get away with poisoning water.
>Every once in a while I have a really great weekend.
How?
also go outside more and visit bars and tabs, the less standards the better, because you want to be with honest people that don't care and be entertained by authentic people.
kys
t. actual dad
If you live in the city, you have a higher likelihood of being broke as everything is overpriced there
Good goy, visit your local watering hole and pollute your body in the company of equally miserable people.l. See, we even saved a stool for you. Drink up!
> T.33 year old archmage with an 8 pack and made 86K in medical sales last year, but too depressed to approach women or hit on them.
Is it true vagina feel like the inside of your cheek, only warmer?
I wholly disagree with everything you just wrote. Wage slave, scrimp and save, get a girl...
Consume and live a boring life of slavery, be a cog in the machine more like
All you need to do to live a good life is to find purpose. Whether that's family, job, hobbies, travelling or a project - your goal is to find purpose - whatever works for you. Money is a means to an end, but it is not an end
Purpose is the key, happiness isn't far behind
I would add; have the sack to walk your own path in life and do what makes sense in accordance with your moral/spiritual compass. You have an intuition that will tell you exactly what you need if you’re grounded enough to lend an ear and malleable enough to follow through.
Lastly, never take advice for anyone on Jow Forums, Jow Forums especially.
>The purpose of life is to find purpose.
Keked but true.
I know, but user probably doesn't know how to spend money. Going to a ComicCon in the big city for the first time I saw comics priced for $7-12 when I could get them for 50 cents at my flea market that sells over 2000 comics for that price.
>muh nihilism
Just kill yourself already. The rest of us are carrying the torch of civilization.
Not that user, an average person will work around 90,000 hours in their life. You can either pick the 'i hate my life' grind like everyone else or you can improve your skill set and get a job that you at least enjoy. Everyday that you are alive you have something to show for your 'wage slaving'.
Improve yourself, jump into a hobby, learn new things that you can apply at any job and strive for happiness. Complacency is easy, challenge yourself for the sake of yourself.
I jerk off about 1-2 times a month. I highly doubt that's the problem.
30's
This ride sucks.
Be materialistic and get wasted? Wtf?
I played nerf guns with this 6 year old kid who is probably slightly autistic or retarded or something. It wasn't really even that fun for me, but it probably made his year. I don't like kids, but that one time was ok.
I'm not convinced there is any job I will not get bored with quickly and hate soon after.
I also pigged out on junk food and allowed myself to forget about the reality of my life for a few hours.
If the best part of my life is forgetting it exists, then maybe it shouldn't exist.
Have you given yourself anything to feel good about? Could you be happy if you had/were everything you wanted?
I don't really need to want much. I think I would be happy if I had everything I wanted.
We spend most of our waking life doing shit we don't want to do. I'm not convinced it's worth living for.
It dawned on me today that we’re stuck in a certain framework that keeps us from true enlightenment. Without a higher reason to live or a direction to move in, I’m thinking about puffing out my chest and competing with other men for a chance the reproduce likes apes on the high savannah. What else is there?
>purpose
>traveling
I agree with nearly everything you wrote besides that. Traveling is the biggest meme for people that don't have a purpose. They just go to other places and take sights/food in. I'm not saying never take a vacation or go anywhere, and admittedly there are a handful of people who turn it into something productive, but for people that actually have something they want to work on, traveling doesn't help and is at best a temporary refresher