Wake up shivering

Surprised that I am still alive after all the alcohol I drank the night before.

>10 AM
>Wake up, shivering even though the room is warm
>Check delta and cmc, still havent made it
>Look at the four 40oz beers sprawled on the floor of my dormitory
>Pop 2x 20 mg adderall XR (even though only prescribed one per day)
>Start picking up the beer bottles. Find the half empty bottle of jack and pour it down the sink. Promise myself never to drink again.
>Go to pee, notice a white crust on tip of penis that is dried cum. Know that showering would be a good idea, but don't.
>Adderall kicks in, have to fap
>15 minutes after my first class has started, realize I'm still fapping. promise myself to cum soon to make it to class but don't.
>After fapping, take a shower.
>Adderall starts to wear off, go eat lunch and walk around campus
>Pop a third adderall and go back to the dorm. 2nd class of the day is about to start, but you smell weed coming out of stacy's room and you know she is an easy lay.
>knock on her door, come on in user.
>smoke with stacy and fuck her after having a few beers in her fridge to loosen up. FUCK, you weren't supposed to drink today.
>She is passed out from the weed so go back to dorm, pop another adderall and try to study, but instead wind up on /biz. Your exam is in two days.
>fuck, I took a lot of adderall today, I will have to buy some tomorrow. Check wallet. $20. Spend it on jack. Shit, I wouldn't have had to buy jack if I didn't pour it out this morning.
>You need to study, too fucked up. Can't stop watching charts and browsing biz.
>Pull up pornhub, fap one last time before passsing out. Leave the dried cum on your penis and stomach before falling asleep.
>Check CMC and delta, still haven't made it
>At some point in the night, move the laptop to the floor, because its never still resting on your bed when you wake up.
>Wake up shivering

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interesting life OP. i too struggle with substance abuse. My life kind of goes from delusions of grandeur to deep depression about the past and future and I use alcohol to mediate the two states and stay in the moment. I finished three bottles of tequila and working on a fourth within two weeks.

so glad i didn't know about this website in college and that crypto wasn't a thing yet

So, you come here to brag about not being an incel
>basedpilled

nice larp
4/10

We DegenPunk now

Losing money on crypto led me to having 20-25 drinks a night on the weekends and engaging in seriously risky behaviors (other forms of gambling, unprotected sex, drug use, ect).

I’m doing better now. I just hope my coins moon because a bender with money sounds a lot better than a bender without.

Unironically it isn’t. This was my life before I discovered meth

what was it like post meth? not joking, does it help with staying awake at work chores etc...

This. is. not
>math

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Enjoy your youth. Holy fuck just 6 beers would likely send my heart into arrhythmia and i'd go to the ER and then i'd be sick for 2 days because my liver would give out. God to be in my 20's again.

I'm your boring version, OP
just fap all day, and in-between I eat and sleep.
only leaving my room to get laundry and shit.

no alcohol and drug because I'm living in a shit religitard country

no gf and pussy because I am an autistic manlet

I hold 1000 QNT though kek

That sounds exactly like bipolar 2

I should preface this by saying I had a drink with a friend, and had a few drinks of rum when I got home. But my drinking is so much more under control now and it's amazing how much more motivation I have in life. For everything.

Don't wait to find your "bottom." You will waste time, money, your health, opportunities, friendships, and relationships. Find what you want for yourself, establish goals, and want to achieve them more than drinking and fucking off. For me, I had to get over my past and ended up wanting a future. Not a will to be alive, but a will to make the most of whatever life I have left after shorting myself out of the rest of it. Fuck it, man. Clean up your life, make money, fuck bitches, take care of your family. Be a man.

October 28th, 2012. I drank myself into the emergency room with atrial fibrillation. Thought about my own death daily for years and didn't stop drinking. Can't tell you how many times I regretted drinking and did it anyway. Clean house, clear your mind and find what matters to you and find yourself. Easier said than done, but you won't be a slave to the bottle. If you sink low enough and come out of it, you won't fear death as much either.

No, this thread is definitely a larp.
1) Fapping on Adderall is fucking terrible. This isnt my opinion, its an objective fact. Nobody has ever felt like fapping after popping adderall.
2) Your Adderall XR didnt “wear off” after a fap and a shower. You clearly haven’t taken Adderall once in your life. Even the non XR last like a MINIMUM of 6 hours.
This entire thread is just you trying to LARP as some “cool” burn out druggy who got laid once. The fact that this is what you aspire to be in your wildest LARPs is fucking pathetic.

Solution: have sex

>fapping on adderall is terrible

Retard alert!

No, hes right. Adderall is like the opposite of a aphrodisiac.

what happened to you, man? you used to be cool.

You know nothing.
t. adhd subscribed ritalin

this thread is retarded

>No, hes right. Adderall is like the opposite of a aphrodisiac.
Why are people this retarded? It will make you hyperfocus and you might just end up dapping for 8 hours straight. It is a known problem

Ritalin is not the same thing as Adderall. They arent even the same type of drug, and the word to are looking for is “prescribed”.

you fucking moron
have you ever even taken adderal?
thats not at all how this works

Sounds like you got life figured out

They have similar effects. Please don't be this salty. The salt from core cucks have already had me overdose on sodium

>pop another adderall and try to study, but instead wind up on /biz
haven't broken this cycle since 2017

I am glad that from an early age I spotted how druggies ruin their lives and kept myself away from it. I am SO glad not to be like you.

stop wasting addy on bullshit you shitstain. Can never get it perscripted by doctors, who insist I need an antidepressant instead.
Had to roll on OTC inferior substitutes literally all my adult life.