How do I not end in a minimum wage job

>be me, 25
>study computer science
>try to find gf in university
>no success at all, become depressed, because incel
>find out that my "friends" in university were all fake and only hung out with me to make them feel better about themselves
>No girls, no good grades, no money, starting to fail exams
>fuck up all exams last semester because of depression
>nobody of those "friends" cares about me anymore, everybody moved on
>I have to retake severaly exams

Guys I feel so fucking down, like an absolute loser with zero self esteem. The thought of going back to university and to this city (which I hate more than anything) makes me so depressed. I don't know if I am able to get my degree like that. I would love to move places and continue somewhere else. But I can't because I don't have the money for it.
My question:
How do I ignore all my surroundings completly and just don't give a fuck anymore, while I focus only on myself? Yesterday I cried a lot because of all that. I don't want to end up working for minimum wage in a factory (which I do right now in the semester holidays already)

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FUCK YOU!!!!!

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drop your morals

Finish your CS degree, that’ll sleep walk you into a code monkey job. Understand that nothing is permanent in this life, and at the end we will all be 6 ft under. Also user stop comparing yourself to others, life is a marathon and not a race. Rome wasn’t built in a day. Keep your head up and just work hard. Unironically be yourself, but in the moment.

computer science is so fucking easy, i succeeded in all my exams without going to any fucking class, i skipped the shit out of the whole fucking years, i only went when he had tests and exams.

if you are failing its probably because computer science is not for you....i used to play alot of vidya and enjoyed coding and math maybe that's why i made it with no effort.

on the depression part, you need to stop questioning everything, start to live with the flow, stop questioning things, just do stuff talk to people, have fun with them if you can and enjjoy the little things when you have them. you over think stuff thats why youre depressed.
you know, thats how life is, even your friends its the same for them no one is truly happy, they make you think they are but everybody is lonely and is depressed and stresses about the future and all. you just need to stop worrying,
no one can guess the future, if your future is to work in an industry, then maybe it(s how it should have been from the start. you need to have positive thinking and go with the flow. if you fail at something, just keep living and move on, stop looking back, just look forward and enjoy the things you have now.

also buy chainlink 1000$ EOY

I was just where you are user. 9 years to get my degree. Legit saved my life by starting to dm dnd for a couple of dudes and cooking food to save money on the pizzas. Now give years later I cook, have friends and dnd players lining up to play with me. Man I can only give you the advice that helped me, I hope it can help you as well

>computer science is so fucking easy
It is alright. I don´t say that it´s extremly hard or very easy. But the reason I failed so hard last semester was because I was so fucking depressed. I am certain about that. I couldn´t focus at all the last few months. I already had a similar thing in the past. I worked for two different guys, the same job. One work enviroment was fucked and the second one was great. I delivered way better results for the second guy.
I am certain, that I didn´t fail this time because I am too stupid.
>you over think stuff thats why youre depressed.
Propaply true. But how do I stop that? Load up myslef with so much work, that I can´t even think about such stuff anymore?

>Also user stop comparing yourself to others, life is a marathon and not a race.
I know user. I read that so often, but I can´t act on it. It always gets to me again, when I get outperformed by others.

>Keep your head up and just work hard.
The problem ist, that works some days, but then I fall into a depression, thinking about all the things I don´t have, all the times I failed, and get an existential crisis where I just lay in bed all day and think that nothing matters anyway. How do I make that this doesn´t happen to me anymore? Load up myself with work, projects, hobbies, untill I don´t have any free time left anymore?
I am sure, if I can solve this problem, my life would become way way better.

You could swap life with me for a day, you'll soon appreciate your life a lot more!

wholesome advice
I've left school twice and am starting again this fall. Here's my tips.. they helped me tremendously even though they are kind of generic and I was always like yeah ok whatever when people suggested I do them:

1) Fuck worrying about friends/women. They will come naturally when you love yourself enough to improve yourself. I lost all of my friends at some point and have made a few since then. A social life is a stressor and a strain and you cannot expect to balance it if you are having issues balancing the rest of your life. You saying you are a loser means you are a loser. Stop bringing yourself down further, stop focusing on the bad, stop looking in the rearview mirror. It takes time and effort to build self-esteem back up, so the sooner you start that process, the better. Get involved with a group on campus or in your community. Can be DnD like the other user suggested, a research/interest group etc. It will push you out of your comfort zone and maybe you'll create some real friends not just users who let me guess, used you for study/notes or only ever wanted to party with you or vent? Unless you mean you're a minority or something and they were weird liberals using you as their token minority friend in which case idk stop associating with those types of people.

2) Fix your diet, fix your sleep (6-8 hrs, take collagen (for glycine) and zinc&magnesium to help with that NOT melatonin or sleeping pills.) Lift weights 5-6x a week and eat enough protein. Go for walks outside, or do stuff outside (as in outdoors, in nature, by trees and shit) as often as you can. Work your way up to drinking 1 gallon of water per day, no pop/juice/energy drinks. Coffee/tea/milk ok but in addition to the water

3) Do your fucking schoolwork, because if you lose financial aid from academic probation or low GPA and can't pay debts back in 6 months, it will be almost impossible and a constant uphill battle for you to ever return to school.
peace

Consider getting on medication, most antidepressants are shit but something may work for you.
Or hop on steroids. I'm starting a test/dbol cycle next week for similar reasons and I'm looking forward to the boost in mood and motivation.

Either of the two above could put you in a better mindset where you'll have an easier time doing things that will naturally help your depression; such as exercise, diet, hobbies, or finding fulfillment while in school.