Just self diagnosed myself with borderline lads. I have every syndrome. Impulsive destructive behaviour all my life since a teen like drinking, cocaine, gambling. Taking 3x the recommended dose at every single shit and med right of the start. Overeating. Only knowing extremes. Either doing stupid shit like 10 hours fasted cardio or bulking on 6000 calories. Chasing after ideals, only knowing black or white, right or wrong. Either i train completely with free weights or machines. Either i drive a sls amg or no car at all and take the bus. Either i have a gold ap or no watch at all. Either im materialistic or i try to completely change myself and be stoic. My mood is either cocaine high tier euphoric or benzo withdrawal tier suicidal. My life is a constant roller coaster. Either you are my die hard brother who i can fully trust and depend on or i dont want you and need you as a friend at all. I have burned over 100 bridges. Ghosting friends for a single mistake they make and not forgiving. With females its been a mess since the start and never a functional relationship. I want them to depend on me and crave attention but the second i get it i feel i dont need them anymore and get distant until they had enough and want to leave thats the second i want them back and get needy trying to put them to pressure to stay in completele sociopathic ways just to stroke my ego taking this all as a game not thinking im a actually dealing with humans. My self esteem is normally very low and i try to be perfect and only when im at naturally not sustainable ideals like extremely low body fat i get my sky high confidence back which i put to use in negative ways until i destroy myself again and relapse in destructive ways and then the game starts again and i get depressed and introvert until im back on track.
So what am i? Borderline? Ocd? A huge fuking faggot? I been like this since a child. I want to change because my fate will end very tragic if i dont
i'm kind of like this. i recommend going sober. i will say though, in some ways i'm even more hardcore all or nothing sober than i was while i was drinking.
Jonathan Reed
one pro of being straight edge is that it is in itself extreme, which of course appeals to me
Liam Flores
Based. This is what im doing right now and i feel the same way about it. The issue is that i know its just a matter of time until i relapse on some impulsive retarded move like taking a last minute flight to thailand at 4am like last time
Jaxson Bennett
Michael?
James Brown
if you remain sober then those sorts of decisions are sort of more enviable than they are destructive
Julian Reyes
face it, you're alpha, stay sober and do whatever the fuck
Mason Barnes
I dont know lad. Its basically a gamble everytime i snap. I could have died easily a dozen times but then again we all die so its ogre
Leo Scott
bpd isn't real, like most mental illnesses. the greatest trick (they) ever played on us was convicing us that mental illnesses are like physical illnesses, sometimes you just get them, and once you have them i mean you're sick right, you can't just magic away your AIDS or cancer without medication, same for mental illness, you have something physically wrong with your brain, you need to take this medicine, and question all of your decisions and be unsure about yourself and feel victimized by this unfair world and how you arent healthy and its all so terrible
its a lie. it's just tricks of language creating false narratives to create false realities. you have different psychological habits to other people, these may or may not be detrimental, and if they are, you can change them. you can just change your mind. literally. it's not always easy but it can always be done. in your case it's probably easy, as you don't have visual hallucinations etc.
almost all these issues are caused by your daily habits, your diet, including not just what you eat but what you read, watch, hear, see, etc, how much sleep you get, when you get it, what other chemicals and information are being inputted. you can make changes and resolve this, do NOT be victimized by (their) magic, which is what false cultural data overlays and language/thought manupulation are. you are fine. you are going to be okay, and you have the ability to change the way you think, change your subconcious thought patterns, change your limiting belief systems, change your habits, and change your output
I've never seen anyone much over 30 starting "treatment" for borderline and ever having a chance. You need to get help absolutely immediately. It's a massive plus that you are aware of your problems, though. But yeah, apply your experiences on burning bridges to the psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, and social workers that will try to help you, maybe multiply the effect by 10, and prepare yourself for how hard this will be.
Lucas Rodriguez
I want to believe in this post. Thank you user
Brayden Parker
I saw a psychiatrist twice and i dont feel like going there anymore. I feel like im giving up on myself if i go there. I feel like i have to solve my problems on my own and not depend on some stranger to pay 100$ an hour.
Elijah Jenkins
nothing the matter with you that a right good crack in the knackers wouldnt fix.
Nathan Martin
DBT therapy is action based and fills in a lot of gaps we should have learned growing up. You don't need to believe in your diagnosis to get a lot from dbt. Everyone should do it
Elijah Lewis
>I want to believe in a Jewish conspiracy theory so I'm not crazy
Go get help faggot
Aaron Morris
>Either i drive a sls amg or no car at all and take the bus this hits close to home
Brody Powell
Just a faggot will do
Aiden Cox
Why self diagnose yourself. Is it because you've fucked up and want to blame it on an illness. Fuck sake. Taking drugs and alcohol fucks up everyones equilibrium that's why people do it.
Stop taking drugs, clean yourself up and you will be a normie again if that what you want.
Also just accept the fact that you have done stupid shit just like everyone else in this fucking world.
All the best user.
Jack Jones
>Either you are my die hard brother who i can fully trust and depend on or i dont want you and need you as a friend at all were the same >are you me?
Lucas Myers
>legit mental illness is considered alpha I thought alt-white incels hated trannies
Jack Torres
sounds good. But then why when I took a pill was I suddenly capable of interacting with people in a normal, effortless way? And don't tell me placebo because at first I thought it did nothing then when it kicked in I started shaking at first. The brain relies on chemicals and those chemicals can be fucking off.
Mason Scott
Dbt, therapist, get sober. Try smart recovery cause fuck AA
Hudson Reed
Also try some empathogens like 2cb after making progress in therapy. Unironically helped me a lot.
Noah Scott
can relate to 90% of what you wrote, but it's a lifetime struggle, there's no "solving". just get better at decision making
Lucas Thompson
Dbt. My ID confirms it.
Jordan Anderson
NAC or psilocybin. Meditation to clear your mind helps. Exercise is the best too.
Zachary Campbell
Dbt is horseshit. But if it works for you all good. It was invented by a schizo woman having a moment in catholic church and decided she can profit from mental illness by changing cbt and adding buddist meditation. all the "studies" that say it works are unscientific horseshit.
John Ortiz
There is a solution but its unorthodox.
TDCS, the rest of the information you'll have to discover yourself. This is the most life changing thing you'll ever use. Don't bother researching and you'll live a shitty life. Learn and grow.
Dominic Thompson
At least make your bait not sound like a sad projection, desu
Grayson Jones
You're a faggot, but Susu is based
Mason Brooks
imagine someone dedicating their whole life to find a solution for a problem they've had their whole life for you just to say "lol no its not real" because you believe diet solves everything.
fucking deluded.
Gavin Jackson
THIS.
If the mind of the footballers are similarly damaged like of cocaine addicts.
Habits still made the difference, because these football players are not destructive and they keep their successful sport routine.
While people who have bad habits keep on investing in low esteem, bad judgement, bad ideas, poor relationships and improper diet
Try to sort out your life, write it on a piece of paper reprogram yourself.
nothing else
Ayden Jenkins
ALL IN RSR FREN LETS GET LAUGHABLY RICH OFF MEME COINS TOGETHER
Ayden Diaz
What is NAC?
Cooper Williams
Big pharma slave goy cope
Nolan Kelly
>Just self diagnosed myself with borderline lads A shrink diagnosed me years ago, but I never told anyone. I think biz is particularly attractive to bpd and other personality disorders.
Jackson Anderson
oh wait I just read the rest of your post. >So what am i? Borderline? Ocd? A huge fuking faggot? You're probably just a huge faggot desu, that doesn't sound completely accurate to bpd
Michael Williams
>But then why when I took a pill was I suddenly capable of interacting with people in a normal, effortless way? if you suffer terrible anxiety and it prevents you from interacting with people and living a normal life, and then you take a pill to stop feeling like that, and it works, that is common.
but what has happened here is not that a pill cured your anxiety but that it has "cured" your awareness of the things that make you anxious. the problem was all the things that made you anxious, not your brain for observing them, the pill doesn't make those things change, the pill just helps you to ignore them. the things that make you anxious are still real problems, and those are the things you should confront. that's not mental illness, that's a problem with your environment or cultural circumstances.
"unbalanced brain chemistry" is a meme, the cases in which people actually have mental illness which are caused by "a chemical imbalance" that is not self imposed through poor lifestyle are extremely rare. some people simply can't cope with the pressure of our culture, and crack, but those people are also not necessarily ill, those are normal people, the culture is just detrimental to humanity. but if you want you can take some drugs to make you numb to what's happening around you
Logan Barnes
>buisness and finance fuck off attention seeking faggot
Isaiah Anderson
I'm supposed to get married but damn i'd ain for this devilwoman.
Justin White
sin*
Benjamin Morris
I just wanna see her stick one of those horns in her brapper.
Isaac Cruz
i think you know this already but you need to find balance. i used to live like this until my body gave up on me, i then realised that balance was about doing everything in moderation not balancing extremes. try reading/ learning about eastern philosophy, Alan watts is a good entry point.
and get back to Jow Forums, faggot
Dylan Adams
Based and no-pill pilled
Jeremiah Martin
Except we can actually measure the presence of some of these mental illnesses. Take ADHD for example. People love to call this one fake. Here's the thing, people with ADHD have chronically lower levels of phenethylamine(and its metabolites) in their urine. And what does phenethylamine do in the brain? As the expert here, you SHOULD know this, but I'll save you from saving face and just tell you that it inhibits the reuptake of dopamine, among other things, thereby modulating the amount of dopamine outside of your neurons. Now, ideally you could take phenethylamine and just substitute up to normal levels, but it turns out phenethylamine is metabolized very fast, so we need a molecule that has enough of a structural similarity to phenethylamine to mimic its endogenous action, yet dissimilar enough to inhibit metabolism. What if we were to add an alpha methyl group? The key areas would still be "phenethylamine-like" enough to inhibit dopamine reuptake, yet the alpha methyl group would impede metabolism (as the metabolism of these types of molecules typically occurs around the nitrogen). And what molecule is alphamethylphenethylamine? AMPHETAMINE! Does it work as a treatment? YES! And before you even start in about the boomer "amphetamine is literally speed they give to kids" bullshit, remember that nearly every prescribing guideline recommends AGAINST giving it to kids. Furthermore, contrary to popular belief, treating people with ADHD with amphetamine actually REDUCES drug addiction.
Hunter Collins
Gonna need a name
Owen Garcia
holy shit i wished this had pleddit spacing i cant read this now but i can answer you >self diagnosed kek
Thomas Phillips
Swimsuit Succubus. Man I'd probably pay 5, 10 grand to eat this girls asshole and fuck her raw.
Yeah that's too bad. That's the only thing stopping me.
William Stewart
FPBP
I can also attest to this method. While it doesnt come easy. Just make self discipline your bitch and go for it. Work out. Start small. Fuckin do it.
If your feeling doubtful post here and I'll use the power of the internet to generate a simple yet effective pep talk for you. I'm on here pretty everyday around this time.
Noah Smith
this is some top tier fortune cookie wisdom depression is literally caused by chemicals in the brain and don't go away just with attitude lol
Jayden Garcia
No, you are retarded, women are seriously mentally ill and they are mostly borderline
Jordan Cruz
uh post pics?
Christopher Ward
I have adhd. Is this why im addicted to cocaine? Never tried amphetamine or ritalin.
Nathaniel Baker
Hehe, DON'T give this to kids >pays doctors to prescribe it like candy T. Amphetamine kid for 12 years. Completely fucked me physically and ruined me psychologically by shifting me to a human zombie. Fuck off with your shit. Was clinically diagnosed adhd and saw only detriment. I spent my adult life undoing the psychological damage and balancing my brain chemistry through sheer force of nonstop good habits and reprogramming my habitual thinking patterns. Fuck you lazy pill popping pieces of human waste kikes.
Ryan Hernandez
based
Isaiah Kelly
>Except we can actually measure the presence of some of these mental illnesses So what.
Alexander Gutierrez
haha fags i can do coke if i want and never feel the want to do it again.
i can drink when i want and quit when i want
smoke and quit when i want
best part is i get to enjoy it and next day not even think about it.
i actually have coke weed nitrous oxide in my home as well as shrooms. and not addicted
feels good man
Nathan Mitchell
you guys are all weak as fuck.
i swear no wonder yall go on shooting up innocent people yall have fragile minds.
fucking incels
Jeremiah Fisher
insecure incel alert
Cooper Nelson
I prefer Bunny, but Susu is good.
Joseph Perry
I can verify this, anecdotely at least. I have ADHD. I have not taken medication since I demanded to be taken off of it by 11. I was eventually drawn to narcotics. One night while out partying with coworkers at a regional meeting, my boss gave me an adderall. It was my first time doing it. Within an hour I was more sober than I ever had been in my life, essentially announced in the middle of a packed bar that I was leaving as we had meetings early the next morning. I went straight home, and went to bed like a responsible adult. Whrn I woke up, I was fucking confused as my last real memory was of taking the adderall. Long story short, I'm still not going to medicate, it makes me too 'normal' or 'sober' whatever, and I honestly don't like the feeling. I personally have grown to love and rely on my chaotic thought process, and it has served me well professionally. I don't even quite think of it as a disease or even a disorder, just a different way of thinking.
Josiah Diaz
>flexing on an anonymous basketweaving board don't worry user, I'm impressed.
Samuel Hall
Your an all or nothing guy. It is our cross to bear. Find a way to use this as a strength instead of letting it burn you down.
schizophrenia, bipolar, ADHD - all fit their role in a healthy society. A lot of culture is just fucked, especially any country that adopts consumerism in one form or another
Aaron Scott
Borderline is very real my friend. Yeah yeah, there's a lot of meme depression/anxiety out there, but borderline is lethal -- in bad cases the person either self-destructs their social life or self-destructs physically, often both. OP needs to hop on the dialectical behavioral therapy train and stick to treatment. That's the only way he's going to manage to build anything lasting.
Christopher Gray
Let's set aside the purely material perspective (ie all personality is chemical) as the nonsense it is. if a soul has no material counterpart to take root in it will not be expressed. If you miss an arm, no matter how strong your soul is it can not pick up an object. Therefore if a material aspect in your brain is off, parts of your personality and happiness can be blocked or malfunctioning. Now tell me why the fuck it would then be impossible or extremely rare for a chemical imbalance to make me depressed?
