Post about the emotional aspects of wasting your life, why you did it, how you cope with having wasted your life, and how you handle knowing you’ll die alone.
For me personally? It’s staring at the ceiling while lying in bed. I do it for 8-10 hours per day.
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i live overseas
I came back to america this month to do some stuff including meeting lawyers for my wife's visa
I havent left my house in almost 3 weeks, I go back overseas in 2
america makes me not do anything. it's a bad aura
that is all
why not just go live homeless? you could travel around and explore. you'll still be lonely but you might meet some people along the way. if you have nothing else to do but stare at the ceiling you have nothing to lose really.
i went to school for years and got a really good education and a job, but i'm still unhappy and depressed because i missed out on all the fun things in life. I have no friends and no gf, nothing. I'm like a robot. I go to work, i come home, eat dinner and come here, go to sleep and repeat.
I no longer have emotions. Just a robot that is here to serve others.
Life is nothing more than a meaningless power point presentation of day after day.
there is nothing good in this world.
I continue to live out of spite for the universe and what it has condemned me to.
For me it's hoping Yahweh will one day kill all faggots and subhumans.
Based and redpilled
>america makes me not do anything. it's a bad aura
>that is all
I really feel this
>america makes me not do anything. it's a bad aura
same for me but Germany
try asia or eastern europe
it's a much better world that the niggerized west
You lose the ceiling
Same but canada
It's all the shitskins. It doesn't feel like you're home anymore.
30 years old
No college degree
Trying to go to school for Xray tech
Few friends left, no romance in past 5 years
Scared to ween off of SSRI's, could easily relapse into deep depression.
I don't know what to do.
Stop being a weak faggot and stop taking the poison jew.
>third and last year of college
>finally join clubs and make friends
>become closer to old friends
>politico buddy is getting me letters of rec for doing shit for him
>finally became /hasgunz/
>4.0 seems not too hard to achieve
I grew up on the path to being a NEET or s*yboy jew slave but somehow this website saved me.
This is very true. Shitskins ruin everything dude.
this.
having friends or gf won't help either.
when you start to wagecuck you'll never find happiness again.
also when your friends will leave, because such is life, you will miss those times even more
Jow Forums is that way.
Same here. My life is just a daily game of laughing at existence in general.
I got this new job and I was blessed to get it, I've never made this much before ($17/hr) but its only part time. So I only make 300 a week, and I put a lot of work into it. Its a teaching job, I'm a teacher, I spend like 10 hours a week preparing the lesson unpaid, then I actually work 22 hours a week. I'm still fucking depressed as shit and sad all the time because I'm poor and retarded.
I used to stare at walls OP and unironically paint them and watch it dry, it changes slowly.
Now I play Garry's Mod and TF2 all day on my off days dreading Sunday when I'm forced to go to church as a 22 year old. I feel scared and terrible for saying that thinking God will punish me or leave me, I'm just not so good mentally and its tough for me to fake the smiles at church and deal with the people. God forgive me.
Don't risk it. Don't risk it. Don't risk it. I'm off all my meds after I lost health insurance, the depression is real, use the pills to keep yourself complacent/keep going in life until your situation improves. When you have a better situation start weening off. For now make the most of the crutch.
Fuck off
I feel like I’ve wasted life by working. I make 50/hr, have my own place, have a gf, et, but I still regret having to work all the time and not doing the creative stuff that I was once really passionate about. If there’s something you’re into when you’re young, go for broke on it. You will lose so much drive and desire and inspiration in your 30s. Nobody talks about this.
Also I got into bitcoin when it was under 100 bucks and i tried to start mining but my friends wouldn’t pool hardware so I have it up. They said it wasn’t worth the cost in electricity. Go for fucking broke on things you believe in and don’t let your friends and family FUD you. They will too.
Don’t go to school for X-ray tech, friend. I did a similar medical tech job and it was a living hell, the “schools” are full of retards and they’re expensive and they will try to sell you on it like it’s a shitty car. These jobs are saturated with dumb people and there’s NO room to move up. You can make just as much with no education. I found a job in my town hiring for 34k to train me in commercial AV and I ended up learning enough skill OTJ to make double that. Please take this to heart. Don’t let them rip you off - your family will encourage you to do xrays because they think it’s a safe bet. It’s actually a losing bet and that job fucking sucks and there’s a ton of people doing it
If you don’t have bad heath problems you should start regular exercise and at least cut out refined sugar and grains. Doing this has made the biggest impact out of anything - much more than drugs. I love you
I play league of legends for 10-15 hours a day for 7+ years and still bronze. I was silver for a while but got back in bronze.
feelsbadman :(
Im 26 and wagecucking broke me already.
Honestly this. I went on a two week trip to Japan with one of my friends and it is only now that I realize how much of a shithole the US is.
The US is so fucking boring and depressing compared to Japan its insane.
>unironically believing in god
I haven't wasted my life because i know if i had took the normie route i would be stuck with a bitch who would have eventually cucked me if i were weak for one fucking second, I already got cucked hard after a YEAR of no fap and lifting so WHY i should strive for self improvement and "living life as it's fullest (normie standard) potential" if my fucking genetics and money says otherwise? I feel the only worthwhile thing nowadays is getting more money so i can have more financially independency and everything else is made to get your money out of your hands and make you lose time and money
Life is a fucking scam when nature decided you to be so, my life isn't wasted if i choose to not fucking play the game, it's only wasted when i play the game and it sucks for me
Basically i have reduced my "wanting" to these things:
>yerba mate, very bitter, i love it, can't enjoy my day without it
>money so i have more free time
>respect from men so i can have money (being trustful enough to get money in what i do)
i don't need ANYTHING else, so fuck yall faggots who say this is a wasted life, because you are fucking with the number three in that list and that is making me get less money, just leave me alone and respect my work and just my work
I felt that way at 26 too, fren. I was working ungodly early shifts in those days and the work was very taxing. It won’t get better. I hope your investments pay you well
i've just spent 6 hours straight playing classic wow like if I had 15 yrs again, except I'm in college and I should be studying
I usually work quite a lot so i'm not really guilty, I thought I needed some rest and socialization. My scarce social life imploded recently and I don't speak with anyone else other than my family anymore. WoW at least feels like something. But I don't have anything special to say. Being lonely and semi depressed it's actually quite boring and empty, I don't have the deep stuff about life and internet or anything like that. But I pressume that a picture of my current life would look "cool and deep" to some stupid hipster: just sitting playing a game from 2007 in my room, a saturday night, elightened by the red lights from my keyboard. That's about all
You should realize that you are fucking alive and it feels great to be able to do whatever you want, seriously feel the power of doing anything you want, because someday money will fucking obliterate you from above and then you will realize what it feels to be financially cucked, god when im free to do what i want i roll in my own shit because it's the only times i can feel powerful
i know right? being free to actually waste your time the way you want to is great and cool, and sometimes I think I'm not really appreciating it like it should
Gotta stop WoW, man. I had a friend who played for like 8 years. He graduated at like 26 and got his first real job at 27 now he’s divorced and WoW single-handedly slowed his life trajectory and experience with women, finance, etc. a lot of life happens when you’re checked out
it's crazy how one can spent time doing stupid things like fishing in a game, or even playing PvP or questing feels stupid. But it struck me at a moment in my life where I have nothing and WoW feels like something
>dead end minimum wage job for years
>take up electronics as a hobby a few years back
>get really into it, im borderline electrical engineer at this point skill wise
>joined an associates degree program for mechatronics this year
>I am dominating my entire class student body every single lesson in every single class without fail by a huge margin
>Had to troubleshoot a circuit the other day in class, took me 40 seconds by myself. Took an entire team of my classmates 20 minutes to solve the same problem.
>Occasionally flex on the teacher when he gets something wrong
>I am now tutoring some of my lesser classmates for money
Feels pretty good. After talking with some of the employed people in my classes there seems to be a lot of jobs for it in my area. I think I will do ok.
this.
nobody will tell you what to do so you gotta make the opportunities happen
And the kikes
If you want someone to talk to, I’m kaywhole #2955 on discord
good job. proud of you, user. now that is high income skill.
not a high income job, but high income skill.
>flex on the teacher
teacher here, don't do this
you're digging your own grave, when it comes time for a reference or some other shit the teacher will throw you under the bus
why would you do this? to stroke your own ego? be humble and don't show off or reveal your power level, you sound like you're 12
unironically same, killing zombies and rotting my brain feels nice
im not a dick about it. I just point out when he is wrong. We get along pretty well. He teaches all the mech classes so I see him like 6 hours a day. We talk during breaks and stuff.
I hope you don't point it out in the middle of class or in front of others. Whatever if you're getting along well thats good. Just be tactful about it.
>not beign raw carni and reading "we want to live"
ngmi
you are delusional and the teacher will fuck you over some day, people can be nice and still try to fuck you over, the higher education to get the more fake people tend to be and more schemy everything will become
fuck off /fast/ no one gets your memes outside the thread and discord
also
this
"I just point out when he is wrong"
yeah but why
you gain nothing from it but that rush of "LOL IM SUPERIOR TO THE TEACHER" and I seriously doubt you're doing it out of the goodness of your heart from your original post
but w/e you're digging your own grave
>17/hr blessed
>god
Cuck
>Losing your idealism
I hope this isn't you user
Oh I bet you teach highschool. Constantly afraid of losing control of the classroom. You need that student respect or those little monsters will eat you alive. No wonder you are so defensive.
This is a college class so everyone is fairly professional.
Genuinely wish you the best user, I can tell no one here is getting through to you.
jesus god im thinking you are larping and never gone through college or uni at all kek
highschool teachers confirmed. Well at least you get summers off.
HS don't even need teachers they are just guardhouses, pointing something wrong in HS seems like an oxymoron