>Father was a minister, I spent all my life studying theology, went to seminary school and was a practicing Christian for 28 years.
>I became a white nationalist around 5 years ago after becoming aware of HBD, experiencing multiculturalism and gaining a racial consciousness.
>I tried to reconcile my faith with this new reality and tried to ignore the red pill as I couldn't reconcile them at all
>Both the OT and NT, the gospels and core tenants of Christianity is one of love and the dissolution of all distinctions of man into the fold of god. It is at its foundations against any forms of separation of man once they embrace God and Christ.
>I am now no longer Christian and our goals of racial separation, nationalism, eugenics and racial and national romanticism can not be reconciled in a logical or satisfactory way.
>I now struggle with belief at all, the peace in my heart from belief is drained and my only great meaning I hold is love and devotion to my race and Nation.
>I could never believe in Paganism other than having an archetypal view of it and following it in that manner, without literal belief, people such as Bowden and many of the french new right were. But they didn't actually believe.
>So like many red pilled ex-Christians I am torn between larping pagans and cold materialist atheists.