I'm an agnostic theist, which means since I don't know exactly about god's existence, I believe something very powerful that made the universe probably exist/ed.
Last year I made a couple attemtps to convert to christianity, but eventually it went nowhere. So my question to christian anons is how you came to firmly believing in the existence of christian god and ressurection of Jesus?
inb4 tips that didn't help me
1) "Just start reading the Bible. "So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God (Romans 10:17)"
Well, technically, naah *waves hands* Yeah, sometimes there's sort of amusement after reading (which I attribute to auto-suggestion), but later it wouldn't emerge, so it feels like casual reading.
2) Start praying, eventually God will answer your requests
Said a lot of prayers, even including sorts of confessions like (NOT LITERALLY) "ok God I admit that I'm full of shit, the current state of my life is the concequence of my deeds only, and I don't deserve my family's love, so here's me, fallen man, asking for your guidance. I need your help." Went nowhere, sadly.
3) Oh my god why this fag does not realise that christianity is an integral part of western civilization and you friggin atheists and pagans and heretics ruining it
Well, ACKCHUALLY my first attempt to become christian was motivated by my will to become a better member of society. Later I began to understand that all of this was only me LARPing as a christian (and as a member of society lol), it was not underpinned by essential belief.