SELF IMPROVEMENT GENERAL /SIG/

need to finish uncle ted's manifesto

>be physically and mentally fatigued all the time
>try everything in the book to get more energy and move on with my life
>go to doctor for myriad testing
>everything fails
>can't evade the feeling that it has a physical origin and not a psychical origin
>have random conversation with relative who tells me both my grandfather and great-grandfather had serious heart issues, the latter being bedridden at 35
>"oh shit" moment
>start going over symptoms in head
>pressure in chest when standing up, especially in mornings
>high heart rate that never settles down when standing, no matter how long
>inability to exercise for long
>shortness of breath that requires me to take a breather despite triviality of physical activity
>my fucking nails have that characteristic "clubbing" arc
>check old photos myself and realize the clubbing must have started within past months or years

wish me luck boyos, I think I may have figured out what the fuck is wrong with me. Have an EKG appointment coming up.

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Reminder to be Jow Forums, /fa/, socially adept and well-spoken if you want to be taken seriously and help the movement
Rotting and being afraid to go outside your comfort zone not only harms you as an individual, it also serves to hinder the potential development of whatever political movement or ideology you support
youtube.com/watch?v=TZ3hpwEfrYg

Meditate. Sit on your (made) bed or on the floor and focus on your breathing.

Breathe in for 7 seconds. Breathe out for seven seconds. Focus all energy on breathing. Feel the breath pass over your nostrils. Feel the air fill your lungs.

When a thought pops into your head, label it, then discard it.

Do this for a couple minutes. Once your mind is empty, keep it so for a few minutes.

Bring your mind back into the middle.

You must do this every single day. For at least 7-10 combined each day. I usually only do it once but a lot of people do it in the morning and again right before bed.

Try to associate masturbation with the feeling you get right after you cum, instead of the build up. No matter how turned on you are, how perfect the video is, etc., just remember that at the end of it you'll be cleaning up jizz off your hands while trying to quickly close the video due to disgust.

Also, try not to get turned on at all in the first place. Avoid social media, since snapchat and instagram are ovens for mental illness. They're controlled, overtly so, so it's not surprising that using them will """coincidentally""" lead you to some content that arouses you.

Find glory in refusing to submit to your baser instincts.

Stay strong.

I do 1/3 of this already but roll anyway

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>spray bottle chemicals
yes master
couldn't possibly clean without them

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Please be something good

How do I build an enthusiasm for reading? Sometimes I feel glimpses of this enthusiasm when I think about all the books on my reading lists and how our ancestors didn't have shit like video games and TV and had plenty of time to read, and were thus probably more intelligent at our ages. Hell, Maimonides was in his 20's (maybe even younger, can't remember) when he wrote one of the most influential works of kikery in history.

Every time I sit down with a book, I start getting bored. I'm sick of it. I also read some books really slow, Revolt Against the Modern World is taking forever to get through because I'm trying to absorb each sentence at a time. Any tips on reading, /sig/?

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Your brain has moulded itself, via neuroplasticity, to excel at shallow and distracted tasks. The only way to fix this is to force your brain to rewire by your own change of behaviour. The best way to do this is to spend a limited amount of time online, and more reading, reading until you feel this boredom then do anything besides shitposting or wasting time online.

Eventually your brain will realise it needs to rewire itself and will do so.

yeet

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Praying for you, boyo. Get well soon.

Your reading list is shit and I want to punch you in the throat

Just wanted to say to you faggots that this shit works. I ended up selling my gaming PC. How I devote my free time now how completely changed my life. Sold some of my crap and bought a weight set. No porn. Trying to eat better. I also cut out TV completely. I focused on my BJJ (6 years) and boxing (1 year). It's been easier than I expected, I do have more drive now. Ultimate goal is just more discipline at living a healthier life. Keep at it.

my reading list:
harvard classics + bible

What's yours?

I sold my gaming PC and bought an old, busted motorcycle for £50, and now instead of sitting inside and being a useless sack of shit I'm learning about mechanics as I fix it up to be usable again. It's amazing how much better it feels to genuinely succeed at something, rather than the simulated success that you get from video games.

>reading Julius Evola

This is why. It's not exactly fun literature. Extremely dense philosophy or politics is not easy reading.

Try reading No Country for Old Men or The Road. Relatively short, really great books that are narrative based and still extremely redpilled.

If you don't like reading dense historical philosophy books, that just makes you a normal person. Save that shit for after you get into the habit. Start with some stories.

Rolling

Roll for reading.

I'm
Currently reading Suttree so I won't be rolling.

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I'm glad I never got *too* into video games. Of course I played a ton in high school but I have that up pretty much right when PS4 came out and I didn't feel like spending $600 when my PS3 was still good.

I haven't bought a new game in years. I never play anything anymore. I'm gonna take all my games to gamestop today and sell them, even for pennies. Only today cuz you guys just reminded that I have probably 30 PS3 games that I haven't open in years.

I always recommend The Once and Future King because the chapters are relatively short, but it's still a great story with lots of great lessons it's never too late to learn.

I can't improve myself without money

How can I make some more money? It is currently my biggest limiting factor

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>I can't improve myself without money
False meme.

Self improvement is free because it largely start with your own mind.

Download a cryptocurrency app. Spend $2000 now to make $200000 in 10 years. Thank me later.

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I don't have $2000

Like I said, money is my biggest limiting factor

Go dance for shekels. Spend 20 dollars then.

I figured this was the case. I read 1984 extremely fast, felt like I got stuck in the mind of Orwell and was following his train of thought rather than reading word-by-word. When it comes to Evola or just heavier reading like philosophy in general, it takes forever to get through.

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how often can I buy and sell? can I buy and sell like 30 times in one day, or is there a limit?

Well I hope I don't get banned for responding to this.

Then start to accrue savings. Like the Richest Man in Babylon said, pay yourself before you spend even a penny of your earnings.

I have bills you NEETs. Try living on your own without help from mom and dad.

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>I have bills you NEETs
So do I. That's why you put money aside before paying anything else, making allowances in what you spend with what remains.

You could. But its better to forget about it for 10 years. That's the best plan instead of stressing every day. Robinhood or Coinbase are good apps.

Learn a trade. Electrician, plumber, etc. Good pay, honest living.

Anything for how to stop being some r9k tier faggot afraid of social interaction and confrontation?
The thought of defending a viewpoint of mine seems horrifying, but I don't want to just be some Joe Rogan cuck who agrees with anything anyone says
Any books on how to just stop being afraid, or is it just a trial and error thing where I just need to stop being a faggot and go outside

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Reading List Cringe from 1-10

>Brave New World
>9
>1984,
>8
>The Prince
5
>Crippled America
10
>Bitcoin 4 Dummies
11
>Zen And The Art Of Motorcycle Maintenance
5

All the books you posted are loosely related to self improvenemtn, especially when it comes to will power, self-discipline and excercise. This list comes off edgy and autistic. How about posting something practical and useful?

Run two miles every morning until your testosterone levels double.

Okay then....

Stop being a keyboard warrior and provide constructive suggestions.

I want to form friendships. Ive had oppurtinties to befreind people at the gym but I always end up avoiding them thinking "i'll be exposed" as the fucking autist I am. How do I get over myself and let the dice roll?

I'm a programmer and poor as shit

There is always desire to be something more within human. Usually it manifest itself trough materialistic ways, sexual ways, trough drugs or parenthood example. It is endless chasing, rat-race that leads nowhere but keeps you busy trough own creation that people calls as life.

We can't remember our time as toddlers because we didn't exist in that time. We had no identity. Only when years has gone while we gathered data from our environment we created identity. When we have our identity, we decide what matters to us. Then we experience impulsive feelings when things didn't go as we wanted.

We are piece of life that creates own image and plays it (Genesis 1:27 So God created man in His own image). We get so tangled to our own creation that it can kill us and bring us into hell. We think that something or someone causes our misery even when we alone create everything within.

We have all this mysterious desire to do something, be something more. It usually manifest itself trough sexual ways, materialistic ways, trough parenthood, dating, drugs, games, food, alcohol.. you name it. Trough that it leads nowhere, it keeps us happy for a moment and then we need more. So where we are now? We are piece of life that want to experience bigger part of it. Trough physical ways it finds not that part and when that need to expand finds no expression we create this pain within. So what to do? This is what meditation is all about. We wan't to think nothing, be nothing because that is just the data we gathered from the physical and created self from it. When we learn to be still, just be as piece of life, something start to happen that seems to expand you into everywhere. It seems to that consciousness, awareness is the basic that exist and everything else it is manifest of it.

What ((they)) wan't is to bind us more and more into physical, sins, into that rat-race i wrote about above, so that we wouldn't learn or even think about this.

because in some ways, analog was better user.

keked 'n checked

Keep these threads going OP, it helps everyone involved. We're doing meme magic in here. Get Jow Forums, get active, take control of your lives anons. The only person you can rely on at the end of the day is yourself.

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I feel you user, I'm in a similar place and I don't know what the answer is, but I will tell you something I've noticed about myself that I feel is a symptom of a deeper problem. I have always been extremely ticklish and remain so to this day. I was never forced to play sports or do any athletics and was thus never exposed to typical "masculine" activities. Couple that with the fact that I was raised by a feminist mother and a quasi-neutered father, and I am literally having to learn what is in my nature, how to be a man.

But back to what I was saying about being ticklish. This may seem like a weird thing to bring up. But I think being ticklish and skittishness in general is directly related to the fear of social confrontation. The reason is because in order to not feel "tickled", you have to surrender to the other person. You have to "post up" to them, because being ticklish is a fearful reaction against another person confronting you. It takes an act of courage to throw ticklishness aside and stand up straight to another person.

When I say it's an act of surrender, I mean that you're literally throwing yourself and your courage at another person so that they have no power.

Compare it with this analogy. Imagine someone pulls a gun on you and points it at your head. My immediate reaction would be to coil back in fear. But some people would stare right down the chamber in an act of courageous defiance. This is the same energy dynamic of being tickled.

In other words, it is this courageous act of defiance that we lack. We lack the courage to surrender ourselves, to stare ridicule and embarrassment down like the barrel of a gun and say, "Come at me, bro." And when we regain this courage to do this, then we will fulfill the attitude that was implicit in the old sagas of our ancestors, the attitude of living for the sake of eternity, of identifying with something greater than ourselves, a greatness that is not effected by the pettiness of ridicule.

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I just quit my job as a plumber and idk what to do now..

Bitcoin is a meme. The vast majority of bitcoin are amassed in a handful of wallets. Three or four people could tank the market in an instant if they were so inclined.

get well soon user. I think it was Walter Russell who said that (and we all sort of know it here) problems in your life directly affect you children indirectly. Even psychological problems. It's passed on genetically. The vibrations and oscillations are carried on by the offspring, like a ghost. This is how entire civilizations are loosely "coheazed" as a group. It's not just a cultural thing, or conscious thing. There is a very unconscious aspect that affects all of us, passed down through the ages. Read up on Carl Jung and the archetypes. You can change user, you can heal. And every ounce that you heal, will be passed on to your children, strangely even if they are already born.

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Thanks for that analysis user.

Nice try, shlomo. You're on your way to riches and you don't want the goyim to be successful as well.

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deep man, thank-you

How much do you make and what part of the country are you in?
Working plumber or master plumber?

There's something for everyone.
onlineschoolscenter.com/30-high-paying-trade-school-degrees/

Im not a fan of Jordan Peterson, but i watched a video a while back that explained that children, especially boys, that are not rough housed by a father figure develop all the symptoms that you describe. I offer no cure, but "getting up and doing it" is about the only way around it. You must take the masculine approach and reclaim your birthright. You have to have the courage to "just do things," regardless of the outcome, regardless of what others think of you. Who cares what they think anyhow? You must be the man, the father figure you never had, and then be the father figure to others who were like you. It's an epidemic right now due to our societies, and we must reclaim them.

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No, it is a meme and will soon be killed off and replaced. If you don't know how it works, learn so you will know why you should invest in a different coin.

You might try and get a service industry job to practice social interaction. I became a bartender but now I’m breaking a slight alcohol addiction. Pretty good at sales now.

Roll nigger role

Any time my father roughed me around, my mother would came to my aid and talk about how irrational and angry he was. They divorced later and now that I'm older, I'm not happy with how my mom approached the issues. I just don't know how to reclaim my true nature now. I'm seriously on the verge of enlisting in the military at this point.

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Has anyone here tried this?

hardmode roll, stay tuned lads

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Thx OP. Faggot mods can eat shit

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This is the painting I did yesterday.
Obviously my technique needs some work and I've never actually tried to paint a portrait before (or anything at all outside of elementary school).

I tried hitting up /ic/ for advice but the whole thing was just anime.

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Fuckin phone rotation goddamnit

Anyway feel free to give me harsh critique

>inb4 tree niggers

>How to better yourself:
I did with the help of the New Yankee Workshop on Youtube.

Tried what?

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>I don't know how to draw X, so I'll draw them smaller
classic. Don't hesitate to sketch a lot and work your volume just by drawing some statues.

Is this actually
Interesting analysis
>You must be the man, the father figure you never had
That's good advice, but at the same time, that's the hard part

I quite dig the style. That said the proportions seem a bit off, mostly with the hands and the rifle. But that just comes with experience i guess. If you work that out, you could make quite the decent artist so keep going and keep us updated.

Start with yourself

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just keep at it, bro. you'll learn way more by actually doing the thing than reading about how to do it.

yeah I realized the hands were so fucked up. I can actually to them really well with pen, but this is my first time painting and the brushes werent agreeing with me. But mostly i just fucked up the perspective and tried to save it with blurryness.

I'm gonna watch some youtube videos because I would love to be able to paint good portraits

Sorry I meant this image here

The following books will change your life, and you will be one step ahead in life. This is what you should have been taught in school.

Might is Right

Winning Through Intimidation: Robert Ringer

Millionaire Fastlane/Unscripted MJ DeMarco

The Diary of a Napoleonic Foot Soldier

The Memoirs of Casanova ( Specifically listed because Casanova is more learned than Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, Oswald Spengler, and Julius Evola all of whom never put their actions to work, and were mostly just writers with philosophical fantasies, that also take FOREVER to get to their main points such as Evola by mumbling for several books to get to the point of mankind needing Transcendence to survive ( A higher meaning). With Casanova's book you get see the outcomes of his action's in his youth, and the consequences/conquests. Plus how to attract females, and escape from a prison. It is literally the best book ever written.)

Voltaire's works, a contemporary of Casanova, by reading both you will get the feel of the 18th century, Atheism, Deism, also discusses (Transcendence in an argument with Casanova, so NO EVOLA was not the first person to come up with that idea) the boiling point of the French Revolution, and what leads to Napoleon.

Xenophon Anabasis

The Life of Cesare Borgia+The Prince for more historical perspective so that you aren't a complete retard.

Cryopedia: Education of Cyrus

For My Legionaries

Genghis Khan and the Making of the Modern World: Jack Weatherford

Culture of Critique

Robert Greene's 48 laws of Power, 33 Strategies of War, and Mastery.

Yellow Kid Weil, by J.R. Weil

Read these and you'll be a step ahead of your peers. They are useful and practical if you are not a complete idiot.

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There’s a lot people do to naturally increase testosterone like avoid plastics, nofap, lift heavy, avoid fluoridated water, but what about pinning a TRT dose of test e or the like to offset the estrogenic chemicals we come in contact with everyday? I just started a TRT dose of 200mg test e a week. It’s cheap if you get the powder. Also, I’m quitting gaming, nofap, and working out.

About to read For My Legionaries after reading How to Read a Book by Mortimer Adler

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I think "rough and tumble play" it the keywords. Also "creativity." Anything by Jordan Peterson in that area might help.

It's the hardest. Makes men out of boys.

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Rolling.

I have multiple coins because I did my research already.

Bitcoin
Bitcoin Cash
Ethereum
Litecoin
Monacoin

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That is a very good book. I'd also highly recommend reading Diary of a Napoleonic Foot Soldier afterwards.

600,000 men went to Russia, and only 25,000 made it back. EPIC that the author survived, and also gives you insight into the human mind/survival.

This book is good for people having a harsh life.

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Do not read anything by Jordan Peterson.

how many times a day can I sell on one coin?

also, what are your thoughts on link?

why did you pick monacoin?

I posted the iodine pic, i think it's true. I spent all day researching it yesterday, everything checks out. funny enough, i started on chelated minerals+vitamins couple months back. Only ones that have really ever worked and didn't make me sick. Went and checked them, 150%DV iodine. Articles seem to suggest that in the 18-1900's people took as much as 8 grams in a dose. also, it appears that most of the side effects are from fluoride and bromide leaving the body, and the body will store up to 1.5 grams of iodine, with the smallest concentration in thyroid, the OPPOSITE of how we normally think. Takes a long time at higher doses before you detect it levaing body in urine samples, which means its being absorbed and utilized. Double check everything, this is the internet you know. I could be wrong.

Pic related to thread. Don't be this guy.

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Tried to fix the most offending hand by removing it entirely. I don't think there's much more I can do to salvage this so I'll put it in a corner to dry and find a paint-along on YouTube and then revisit portraiture after I get the basics of oils.

Thx for your kind words.

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Monacoin is Japan's new national cryptocurrency. Dig in now. I'm telling you. Right fucking now.

Then you will know that Bitcoin itself is a dead end because the developers for it refuse to push out updates to increase the transaction speeds because they make profit from running transactions